CHAPTER 6
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ANGEL'S POV
HER attention was aroused by someone knocking three times on het bedroom door. Angel looked in the direction of the door of the room, when she thought that someone wanted to enter her room, she straightened herself up.
Angel used her own soft fingers to wipe away the tears that kept falling from her swollen and reddened eyes every night.
❝Come in,❞ when she said the word that signaled them to enter, the door slowly opened a little and one of her friends peeked in there.
It was as if they wanted to talk to her as friends. They opened the door completely to make sure she was the only person in the room, and she even spat at one of her friends. They took a big step to get close to where she was sitting, one sat on her left and the other sat on her right.
One of her friends sighed as if gathering the strength to speak.
❝I know what happened to you really hurts, we also feel that pain but life is still necessary and we are here by your side.❞ Bell, one of hee best friends, began.
Angel closed her eyes first, then took a deep breath and turned her attention to her friend Bell. Ysabella Santival her high school best friend, whom she calls Bell. This friend was her constant companion when she was still a high school student.
❝I know you're by my side, and she's gone, so I'm looking for her, don't think that you'll be ignored and ignored. Sometimes what we're really looking for is nothing because you're there, why should I look for you.❞ Others said----who else is not there that's what we're looking for---well, think about it, that's why we're looking because there's nothing.
That's the way it really is, isn't it? Those who don't look for anything, miss, wait, look forward to.
❝You need to be fine,❞ Rose ordered firmly.
Angel took a family picture of their family, caressed it while crying, then hugged her tightly.
This picture shows a happy family, whole family. She wiped her tears.
❝How can I'll be fine tell me?, Do you know I'm in pain now that I'm looking at this picture.❞ she admitted to them that they were scared.
Who wouldn't be surprised? A family picture, it hurts her to see it. This family picture was taken when they had family bonding on the ridge.
There is no such joy as it brings to a person's heart but why does she feel pain every time she sees it. Angel couldn't hold back the tears that welled up in her eyes, tears that continued to fall from her eyes.
Angel took a deep breath and caressed the photo.
❝How can I be happy? This picture will remind me again and again of the pain I feel. In this family picture it can be seen and noticed that there were four members of the family in the letter but now there are only three, did you think I'll be happy to that I lose one.❞ she said that they understood her pain.
❝I'm planning to leave this Baguio as soon as possible, it's too painful and it worries me too much.❞ she informed them.
I don't want to leave but I have to.
Sometimes a person just needs to walk away so they don't get hurt too much. Some people, when hurt, wa TTnt to be alone and can't stop it.
Only fate can keep a person from being alone. As written in the Bible---God will save us no matter what happened---let's just wait and trust in him. Because this is your destiny, your destiny written by God in your fate.
No matter how many times you try to run, you will never escape. And only then do you understand what is written in the Bible---Everything happened cause it's have a good reason.
The event destroyed you but the reason will rebuild you. Maybe this is her destiny to be hurt, to be far away and to find her destiny in the middle of her sadness.
Her destiny, since she was born, it has been written in her fate. No matter how chaotic and dark her world is, it may be her destiny that will fix and clarify it.
Angel just needs to find the medicine for the pain caused by the incident. I need to leave and move on. Cause anything that happened, still our lives should not stop even our world has stopped.
Are life's still going on. But the pain will still be with us wherever we go.
ANGEL'S POV
MANILA is now the world Angel lives in, it is not like the province she grew up in. So it is certain that her life here will not be easy. In the province she lived in, there is clean air, while in Manila it is indeed smoky, the air is still dirty caused by smoke from factories and cars.
Every morning in the province, the chirping of birds sounds like they're singing and it's nice to hear, while in Manila, the morning will be like the noise of cars. Clean water can be seen in the streams in the province, while in Manila Bay and Pasig River in Manila, the water is dirty and the fish are dying.
Her hometown is like a paradise, how will she deal with the chaotic world? She lives alone in their big house in Manila, together with their assistants and trustees.
Angel also has a credit card that she will use for his expenses. She was on the side of the road, it was night so maybe there weren't many cars passing by. There was deafening silence around her, as if she wanted to scream. Show her resentment, her anger to the world.
There are only two situations that people with anger in the world focus on, both of which are not good and both of which can be harmful. The first situation that a person who has a lot of anger in the world falls into is suicide. They hate the world so they don't want to stay in it anymore.
The second situation that a person who has a lot of anger in the world falls into is losing the path and the end result is confusion. They hate the world so they don't value their lives. Everyone says that life is beautiful, but some people can't see it cause only darkness was in their life.
And everyone also saying that we have a wonderful world, but there's also some people who hate the world? People's who's always been in sadness. She thought about leaving the house for a walk, wondering how he could forget.
Even for a moment, the pain caused by the event that destroyed her happy life can be escaped. She doesn't feel like walking anymore like she doesn't feel like living anymore.
When she got bored, she ran as if she just wanted to escape from everything. All the pain that killing her little by little , while she continues to cry and her tears fall on her cheeks as if there is no end like the endless pain she feels. When she felt tired, not only because of the running but also because she felt tired of fighting the world that had never been able to arrive.
Angel wanted to ask when her knees were gradually giving up, she went with her hands resting on her knees if look at her as if she was doing eight-eight but not moving. She let her tears fall on the road, tears that would not go away.
Little by little, as if she was losing strength, her knees finally gave out so she knelt down in the middle of the road as if she just wanted to run over the passing car, while her body continued to fall.
Tears, her tears seemed to be endless just like her suffering.
❝Why hasn't he taken me? Why haven't I died yet? Why do I have to live?❞ she shouted as her tears flowed with bitterness caused by the pain and sorrow she felt so she asked repeatedly that only the wind could hear.
Angel screamed all her pain, she released her resentment to the hurtful world that did nothing but destroy her perfect world.
When her twin died, she lost the will to live. Why do the people we love have to leave us? In this world when the person we love is lost, we want to follow them.
Sometimes we ask---Why do we still need to live? If we only lived for unceasing suffering and pain?---but do you think that this is just a test.
We may be suffering now but the day will come when our lives will also be comfortable. Maybe now the world we live in will hurt us but the world revolves and as it revolves the pain will also heal.
They say---When the rainy season is over, summer will also come, When the drought is over, spring will also come----in other words, let's learn to endure. Because when something is gone, something will come.
As the elders say---When a door is closed to you, a window will open for you. It's hard without you, I can't be alone.
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