My Best Friend

Chapter ten: Sean

" They really do love you- you know. I know you don't want to speak to me, so just listen I won't be long." This Sean has a nerve to come and talk to me. Not that I am angry at him or anything its just I don't think iI want to get into whatever it is he wants to talk to me about right now. and who is the they he is talking about? and he continues... " It took a lot out of them to ask me of all people to come talk to you actually to carry over a message but I am getting there so bare with me .." He's body language is something else I just want to laugh the way he shows he's expressions with he's face and motioning with he's hands like it will let me understand everything better I couldn't help but stand with a smile on my face, must have caught him off guard because he stopped and then asked " are you listening to me Shay?" " am I deaf?" I asked . It came out a little rough I really didn't mean it like that, so as soon as it came out I had to apologize. " I am sorry I didn't mean it like that  Sean." "Nah it is cool Shay I know you are going through some stuff, we all do at times. So our emotions take a route we don't intend for it to take." wow is that actually Sean talking or does he have some kind of wire or earphone where someone is telling him what to do. Lol I am even sounding dumb right now its called a communication device. "Who are you and what did you do to my friend Sean?" "You see me as a  friend?" He asked all happy it was just super weird seeing him like this. It was scaring me. truth be told I do see him as a friend in a weird kind of way more like a friend with benefits kind of way... holy ssssssht I have a  dirty mind." Sean lets get to the point of this meeting please... I am starting to get some nasty stares and they not the good kind so please .....", he has a nerve laughing at me...

"Look Shay just don't mind them and to get to the point you so desperately want to hear.. Your friends miss you and they love you so much one a little more than the others. you really blind if you can't see  how you hurting them.. don't you care about them too?.. It took everything in them to ask me to come speak to to you I don't think you would  even go as far as they just did to just reach them. My boy loves you you know Shay? and you to blind to see that. I think the only reason he set us up that day was to see if you into me.. one thing I know about Gideon, Shay is that he would never do anything intentional to hurt he's friends and by him using me as bate proofs to me that he is heads over hills about you... when you walked away or should I said ran away he went after you. He left us all and ran after you, Keshia and I end up hooking up, which I also think was part of he's plan... hook up with Shay and let Sean and  Keshia enjoy each other or something along that line. He likes you as more than a friend and I believe you do to and neither of you have to say it but everyone can see you guys like each other  so why don't you just cut the bullshit and get to the good parts... the parts where you accept each other as boyfriend and girlfriend and live happily grossly after or something like that crap you girls go on about. Forgive your friends and go make out with my boy Gideon I know you want to." I hit Sean on he's arm. "You so gross you know. And Gideon and I, we are only friends. But thanks for coming over here and talking to me Sean even if I still don't fully believe I have been conducting a conversation with the 'man w***e' of the school(I shout out).(He just laughs)... But I am thankful, and please get Gideon and I nonsense out of your head okay? I will call a meeting tomorrow ,there are still a few things I want to think about first.", " What  is there to think about Shay? They trying to make up, give them a break. They went through a lot for you and I am sick of Gideon sulking. just between you and me... the look don't suite him at all and he is chasing away all the girls so which means no fresh meat for Sean so please girl. Or unless you want me for yourself (lol and there the jerk is back).... You know I won't mind you know just put on that red number that you had on - on Saturday, you looked smoking.( I made a fist to punch him again... but he quickly stopped me and changed he's tune.)But I am done now I am going to go find Gideon now ." he  said while holding both my hands so I don't punch him. He is walking backwards while holding my hands. " Dude you can go why you still holding my hands, let go!..." I am trying to worm my hands out of he's hands but it is not working and then he suddenly let go and ran like the asshole he is and shouted ,"Love you SHAY" , 'I HATE YOU SEAN " I shouted back eyes clearly still on us. I just started focussing on my best friend... the ground and walked as fast as I could. Oh! and there the bell goes... thank you Sean now I have to stand in long lines interval to buy something to eat.

I made it for first period in record time today. Lately I am always late for class. Guess what? the whole gang is in this class together , we all sit in the back row in Mr. Johnsons class so it is super weird but what makes it even weirder was when the gang walked in the class and I was already seated. they didn't know if they should sit next to me or look for other places to sit. Tough for them there are no other seats for them to fill not that I want them to sit next to me but I am finding this a little amusing how they all confuse... anyway they had to sit next to me we exchanged greetings and I saw Gideon's smile again and I almost smiled back so I just gave him a nod with the head. I don't know how but class went by very quick. What made it better, was that no one spoke not even the couples were speaking to each other. When the bell rang for the next class, I was the first one out just like I was the first one in. I don't still want them to say anything to me nor do I want to say anything to them just yet.

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Thank God I am almost home ... I had to take a little jog. I heard someone call me and when I looked behind me it was Gideon. I am planning to rather get us all to meet at my place tomorrow so we can talk. So I am sticking to not talking to them today.

I am in or kitchen now whipping me up something to eat. I am over thinking this whole thing about tomorrow..... "Mom will it be okay if I invite my friends over tomorrow?" "What time? Do I need to get a few things for you guys to nibble on and do we need to make plans too?" my word since when did mom get so cool. She can't still be embarrassed about their little parent fun day. So what's up anyway I am not going to say no to the offer..."Just a few snacks mom that will be fine.. We can sit at the back by the pool, so you don't have to go anywhere , but thanks for the offer mom.( I gave her a hug) You just have to prepare the snacks you know you always do that well." Well I hope that worked. My charm is as bad as getting a boyfriend. "Okay not a problem ." I gave her another hug before I went to my room , but I had to run back because I forgot to give her a time... "Mom where you?(she wasn't where  I left her )mom?" where could she be. luckily for me my dad is at work so there is no way that incident could have happened again. I went to look outside at the front and the back of the house, I even looked in her room and the kitchen. "f**k!" I bumped my big toe against the couch side and it burn hurts so I'm not even stepping on it now just hopping around looking for mother. But she is nowhere to be found. Maybe she went to fetch my brother that's the only other explanation. I'm back in my room now laying on my bed. Time to send the message. 'Hey all would you all meet me at my place tomorrow at say 15H00' I send that as A group message...

Jenna:" will be there is there anything we must bring"

Jenna:"?"( I saw the messages but didn't reply)

Kelly: "We will be there" By we she means her and Charl like they one person my gosh anyway

Ben:" Sure will  be there...any specific dress code though?"

There was no message from Gideon yet the time I post the message but I saw at 20H00 he send a message to me and in the group

Gideon:" I will be there but I will run a little late need to go to the store with the family first."

The message he send to my phone read..." Shay I am definitely going to be there just spare me a little more time I am not sure what time we going to make it back from the mall you know how my parents can say no they just going for one thing then they buy the whole store(smiley face). I look forward to seeing you tomorrow and I hope you sleep well and have sweet dreams I love you and sorry for only replying now I had to finish my home work and than I chilled with a few of my friends... I hope you can forgive me for everything I have done and that we can talk nicely about everything tomorrow. I love you

Quite the message huh? I missed he's messages. It is surely true what they say. You only miss something when it is not there anymore... I didn't reply to he's message but I am sure he will understand.

Sleeping time for me now. Tomorrow just have to be a success... I am putting it out there in the universe so it just has to come true. I am not going to tell a word of a lie, I am super nervous about tomorrow. I don't care if it is going to be perfect or not, I just want it to go well that my friends and I can go back to normal. Some of the things Sean said today hit straight home so I want to patch up things with the people that feels like my second family .... and then there was the other thing he said about Gideon and I. I don't know how to feel about the comment he made on that, i can't see what other people see and I never picked up Gideon liked me in that way we have been friends for how long? I am sure he would have made some kind of move already I mean the guy dates a new girl almost every other day. Sean is seeing things and I hate that how he made me question how I feel about Gideon now. I should just wait for tomorrow to come and I will ask the girls for some advice that is if they all forgive me for being a drama queen.