My Best Friend

Chapter eight: Regret

GIDEON'S POV

I have tried contacting Shay through out the  weekend, it is Sunday today and she still didn't reply to a message I have send to her yesterday when I got home. I know she is angry at me but it wasn't as bad as what she did.... I do regret what I did I really do, but what is the use in fighting over something that won't even matter in a few days from now... Geez girls can be so extra! I love her and all but this is just f****d up even for he. Why be angry at something good your friend is trying to do.... she should be saying thank you to men not be angry over the good I tried to achieve even though I had my devious intentions for doing so..... but it was all for her.... all for getting her to be with me. How great we would be together, we would make such a beautiful couple and have such beautiful babies.. we would also love each other just like we love each other now, it will just be a bit more intense and much deeper. I have been saving myself for her.. How can she not see that. I cancel my plans with my other friends or girls for that matter for her when she wants to do whatever because I love her... I feel like such a fool but I don't regret loving her at all. What I do regret is the feeling I am feeling right now. I literally feel like s**t. If I could take back what I did I really would but the damage is already done.

That Chantel girl and I was standing there like stalkers watching Shay and her new lover and mother in law for probably an hour it felt like forever and my heart broke every smile a little more.... She only smiled like that when we alone not when we with friends, so what is she and Kyle of each other? and how long have they been seeing each other? She never told me about seeing him , I am sure she would have...  we share everything. That is what I choose to believe.. I can actually see why Kyle would choose company with Shay rather than Chantel, I mean that girl is boring as f**k, but hot too cant ignore that that's probably why Kyle is with her. Why cant he just leave my girl. Seeing Shay happy with him just made me feel like we drifting apart even more, like she only picked the fight with her friends to go on her romantic date with Kyle the one and only... romantic not so much but date never the less. I just can't shake the feeling of betrayal. Yes she is his childhood sweetheart and he hers but people move on. She should move on he has a girlfriend.

I am rather going to sleep now and stop worrying about a so called someone to reply to my messages. I GET THE DAMN MESSAGE SHAY!  I just think pushing her will push her further away, and that is something I can't do. I love her too much. If something so small and stupid as playing match maker can let me loose okay not loose but it sure feels like it, but than I will rather back off.

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I woke up in the middle of the night, soaked in my own sweat. It must have been a bad dream. I can't remember when last I had one of those, I never remember them. I check the clock on my wall ,it is 22:00 pm. I am suddenly feeling super thirsty so I got out my bed but on my flip flops that's on the floor slightly under my bed, and then head down stairs. I see my parents light is still on so I guess they not sleeping yet. Their room is just opposite mine next to the stairs of which I have to use to get down in order to get to the kitchen. I pray they don't see me I am seriously not in the talking mood.....

Well my prayers were answered... mom and dad was so into their conversation, they didn't even notice me. I got to the kitchen undetected and I opened the fridge, but what to drink. Juice or milk? I think I will go with some milk. I pour me a big glass of milk and head back upstairs. My parents are still going at it, the conversation must be really good. That's how I want Shay and I to be one day when we old. Talking for days with our little ones running around playing and we kissing in between talks. Shay is the kind of woman I want to spend the rest of my life with....I know that sound long, but that is how long I want to share my life with her.... I drifted back to sleep with the most beautiful girl's face on my mind...

UNKNOWN (1) POV

Love never dies.... does it... those two couldn't even see what they have... love so raw and beautiful. How is my son not with Shay. That girl is perfect for him. I don't want to tell my son what to do but that stray is not meant for him hopefully  he could see who he is really meant to be with.... he couldn't stop smiling , the kind of smile you smile when you in love. I would know. That too was ones me. Hopefully he is just as charming as he's father. That is how he draws in all he's woman, I was one of those women ones upon a time. The only thing I regret about ever being in a relationship with him, is not seeing the signs that he is cheating on me. It is probably also why I am so distant with our son... On second thoughts, I hope he is not as charming with the girls like he's father was. My son couldn't stop thanking me for taking him to Joey's. Maybe there is yet to be hope for improving our mother-son relationship. Shay is the key to he's as well as my happiness. Which mother whether good or bad don't want what is good for their children.

Come I let you in on a little secret. Saturday I had no intention what so ever to take my son out. Lets just say it was my lucky day, because it was by luck I saw Shay and her girlfriends standing by a black SUV in Joey's parking lot when I went to go buy me  a pie or two... or three. Okay they were five, don't judge me. I just love their steak pies .... I am no fan of pies... but I am telling you they good. But lets get back to the kids. It looked like Shay had been crying, she looked beautiful. she don't need all that make up though, she is a natural beauty ones again... she's perfect for my son. So I knew just what I needed to do. On my way to Kyle's grand parents house I was thinking about how am I going to get my teenage son to go with he's mother to Joey's and with us not really having that mother son relationship the idea sounded impossible.

When I got there.. I had to be asked questions by my son as to why I am there ,like I needed permission to see my son. Not even he's grandparents questioned my visit. So I just came out with it, I told him we gong out not saying where to because I knew if I told him where we going he would say no and he would most definitely tell that stray cat of he's, by her not knowing where we going there was no way she would tag along. I also don't think she wants to meet me. Truth be told the feeling is mutual. When  he said he had plans with her I almost cursed. So I just had to change that plans by not taking no for answer and telling him he can bring her along. The plan was going great until we got in the car and my annoying teenage son kept asking me where we going, like I was going to tell him. He and Shay use to love Joey's when they were younger. To keep them apart was near to impossible. When we got to Joey's I could see how disappointed he was. All I could think was... Don't worry my son everything will make sense pretty soon... I was determined to win back the heart of my son. And Shay was the perfect person to do so. There was only one problem...

How am I going to get Shay to come join us seeing that she is already out with her girlfriends. I felt very lucky that night and indeed I was. Shay was alone walking in our direction, and when she looked up  she looked right in to my face and I took that as the Almighty telling me, now is your chance. I waved her over and she came with a big smile on her face. She must smile more it really looks good on her face. Kyle went to the loo and guess how happy my boy looked when he got back from the loo and he saw me and Shay sitting by the picnic bench he left me at.... to describe to you or myself what I saw, couldn't do that smile any justice. My boy is in love with this girl, I don't know what is taking him so long to make her his girlfriend.