The Distance Between Us

Chapter Fifteen

Ayla's Pov

I'm finally at home resting on my couch after having dinner that Seth cooked for us. Seth and I were cuddling on the couch watching a movie. "You were oddly quiet at dinner babe. Is everything okay?" Seth asked me while turning my head towards him. I feel like I can't look into his baby blue eyes without feeling guilty of what has happened today with Kieran. "Ya I am okay. Work was just tiring today, I had a lot to do. There were meetings and documents that had to be prepared. It was a lot for my first day since I'm still learning. Oh and before I forget this Thursday I will be leaving for New York with my boss for a business proposal and won't be back until Sunday afternoon."

Seth was upset about what I was telling him that he scooted away from me on the couch. "New York? Don't you think you should have discussed this with me first, your soon to be husband, before saying yes that you would go." What the? Is Seth being serious right now. Why all of a sudden he thinks he has authority over me just because we are engaged. He isn't my husband yet and even if he were he shouldn't be trying to command or control me like that. "First of all this is part of my job. I found out today that I am the company's CEO's assistant so I have to go where he goes basically. If he needs something done in the middle of the night I have to go and get it done. So I'm technically a 24/7 assistant. Second you are my fiance, not my husband yet. Even if you were my husband you cannot try to dictate or control me. We both will become a team not me just obeying everything you want. You need to treat me as an equal, two people becoming one."

Seth appeared even angier after what I told him, that he stood up from the couch and started yelling at me, "Ayla! You didn't tell me you were going to be some CEO's assistant! I don't want you working at this job! You need to quit and find another job that doesn't require you to be some guy's little assistant! Almost all assistants always end up having an affair with their boss! I know I'm not your husband yet but I'm technically your husband already! All wives obey their husbands so I would appreciate it if you would too!" I cannot believe the words Seth is spewing out of his mouth. What has gotten into him? "Do not talk to me in that way Seth! I am not some dog that you can train and command! I will not be quitting this job because it's the best paying job I will ever have! If you cannot accept my decision or come to terms that you cannot dictate or control me, then maybe we should wait on getting married! Here!" I shouted back at him taking my engagement ring and handed it back to him.

He swiped the ring out of my fingers forcefully. "I think you should leave, for you can cool down and think about your words and actions towards me Seth. I will not tolerate a man that tries to control or yell at me." Seth didn't say anything, he just grabbed his things and stormed out the door slamming it shut behind him. I finally let go of the breath I was holding in. What was wrong with Seth? He has never shown this type of anger towards me. I was so scared that he was going to lash out and hit me from how angry he looked. His eyes were so dilated that it made his eyes look black, it was terrifying. I hurried to the door to lock it and I grabbed my phone to call my best friend, Amelia.

Amelia: "Hey girl what's up? How was your first day at your new job?"

Ayla: "It was good. Amelia." I couldn't contain my tears anymore. The minute I heard Amelia's voice, I broke down.

Amelia: "Oh Ayla what's wrong, why are you crying? Talk to me. What happened?

I spilled out everything to Amelia about what just happened with Seth, seeing Keiran for the first time in 9 years, Keiran being my boss, and just everything that happened between us.

Amelia: "Oh wow sounds like an overwhelming day Ayls no wonder you are breaking down. Are you doing a little better now that you let it out?

Ayla: "Yes a little bit better. Just the whole thing with Seth just set everything off. You should have seen him Ams he looked terrifying. I have never seen anyone get that angry before."

Amelia: "That is weird of him to act out like that. Good thing you made him leave to think about his actions. Do you want me to go over just in case he comes back?"

Ayla: "No it's okay Ams. I'll be okay and if he does come back it's okay maybe he will be calmer and apologize for his actions."

Amelia: "Okay well if you change your mind I'll be over there right away. So tell me Ayls, with what happened with Seth are you reconsidering your engagement with him and going to try to see what will happen between Keiran and you. You know I would support you in whatever you decide because it seems to me Keiran is going to try to get you back especially him telling you he still loves you and doing all these flirtatious moves on you."

Ayla: " Honestly Ams, I don't even want to try to rekindle or reconcile with Keiran. I do love Seth, he is my safety net and he has healed parts of my heart that I thought would be impossible. Even though tonight we got in a heated argument I hope he thinks about how he treated me and comes and apologizes. I don't want things to end between Seth and I, and for Keiran that relationship has shipped and sailed. It's like why during all these 9 years that he has been gone, he never once tried to get in contact with me or reach out. All of a sudden now he wants to and also he just seems like a womanizer now. Like today when it was time to leave he invited that accounting girl, who by the way shamelessly was trying so hard to get with him, after I left! He probably slept with her! Especially after seeing him looking at me, while I was in the parking lot, from his office's balcony without his suit jacket and it looked like his hair was disheveled. Ya, no thanks! I don't want to be involved with him."

I was getting so worked up again thinking about Keiran being with Jennifer that I made my anger spike up again. Why do I keep getting this feeling of jealousy over Keiran. I don't care about him anymore. Is that what you're going to keep telling yourself. You know you still love him and you are getting possessive over him. You should end things with Seth and try to rekindle with Kieran. No! I do not love Keiran anymore, I love Seth. He is my person

Amelia: "Ayls is that jealousy I am hearing in your voice?"

Ayla: "I am not jealous Ams!

Amelia: "Haha girl u don't have to lie to yourself or me. You know it's okay to admit you still love Kieran. He is after all basically your childhood sweetheart. You want my opinion on this situation."

Ayla: "What is your opinion?"

Amelia: "I would tell Seth that you need time to think about being with him for how he acted, which I think you do need to think it thru. He got aggressive towards you which could lead up to abuse later Ayls. Tell him he needs to work on that anger and that he needs to change his views on having a wife. While you two are on a break you should get to know this older new Keiran and see if these feelings you and him have are true or just lingering feelings from the past. You two need either closure or you never know you two are actually meant to be and end up together again."

Ayla: "It's easier said than done Ams, but I will think about it. I'll let you go Ams I'm going to shower and get ready for bed."

Amelia: "Okay Alys really think about it. If you need me I'm just a call away. I love you Ayls. Goodnight. Bye.

Ayla: "I love you too Ams. Goodnight. Bye.

Sigh I don't know what to do. I am just going to shower and go to bed. I am too exhausted to deal with this.