By the third week at St. Catherine’s Rewrite Academy, Naledi had learned the rhythm of invisibility.
Arrive early. Sit in the same seat. Don’t speak unless necessary. Leave before anyone notices you stayed too long.
It worked.
Mostly.
Except for the fact that being invisible didn’t make the loneliness disappear.
It just made it quieter.
⸻
Zinhle changed that—just a little.
“You think too much,” she said one afternoon, not looking up from her sketchbook.
Naledi blinked. “You don’t even know what I’m thinking.”
Zinhle shrugged. “I don’t need to. I can see it on your face.”
Naledi huffed softly, but there was no real irritation behind it.
They sat behind the school building again, their usual spot now. The ground was rough, the wall slightly warm from the afternoon sun.
It wasn’t much.
But it felt like somewhere she could exist without pretending.
***********
“You ever feel like your life paused… but everyone else’s didn’t?” Naledi asked quietly.
Zinhle finally looked up.
“Yeah,” she said. “That’s kind of why I’m here.”
Naledi studied her. “You don’t seem like it.”
Zinhle smirked a little. “That’s because I don’t tell people my business.”
Naledi almost smiled.
************
She noticed him again that same day.
Kabelo.
He sat two rows ahead in class, as usual, leaning slightly back in his chair, his pen spinning lazily between his fingers. He wasn’t paying attention—not in the obvious way—but somehow, when the teacher asked him a question, he answered without hesitation.
Naledi frowned slightly.
How does he do that?
“Stop staring,” Zinhle muttered under her breath.
“I’m not staring,” Naledi whispered back.
“You’ve been ‘not staring’ for three minutes.”
Naledi quickly looked down at her book.
Zinhle snorted softly. “Relax. He’s not even looking at you.”
But that wasn’t entirely true.
Because a second later—
Naledi felt it.
That strange awareness.
Like someone had just noticed her.
She glanced up.
Kabelo looked away.
************
It wasn’t a big moment.
But it stayed with her longer than it should have.
A few days later, it rained.
The kind of rain that made leaving school feel heavier than usual.
Naledi stood under the small shelter near the gate, hugging her bag to her chest, waiting for it to slow down. Most students had already left—picked up, rushed off, disappearing into lives that seemed easier.
She didn’t rush.
There was nothing waiting for her at home.
“Waiting it out?”
Naledi turned.
Kabelo stood a few steps away, hands in his pockets, his expression calm like always.
She nodded slightly. “Yeah.”
He glanced at the rain. “It’s not going to stop anytime soon.”
“I know.”
A pause.
Not awkward.
Just… there.
Then he stepped a little closer, still keeping distance.
“You live far?” he asked.
Naledi hesitated. “Not really.”
That wasn’t the full truth—but it wasn’t a lie either.
He nodded like he understood more than she said.
“I’m Kabelo,” he added, even though she already knew.
“Naledi.”
“I know.”
That caught her off guard.
“You do?”
He shrugged lightly. “You’re in my class.”
Something about the way he said it didn’t feel dismissive.
It felt… intentional.
Like he noticed things he didn’t talk about.
They stood there for a while, listening to the rain hit the pavement.
“You don’t talk much,” he said.
Naledi let out a small breath. “Neither do you.”
“Fair.”
For a second, she thought that was the end of it.
Then—
“You look like you have a lot to say,” he added.
Naledi blinked.
No one had ever said that to her before.
Most people assumed she was just quiet.
Not… full.
“I don’t think anyone’s listening,” she said before she could stop herself.
Kabelo looked at her then.
Not quickly.
Not casually.
Fully.
“I am.”
Something in her chest shifted.
Not loudly.
Just enough for her to notice.
*******
That night, the house felt worse than usual.
Her aunt was arguing on the phone, her voice sharp and relentless. The kitchen was a mess again. Her cousin cried until his voice gave out.
Naledi sat on the edge of her bed, her body heavy with exhaustion.
She hadn’t eaten properly.
She hadn’t rested properly.
She hadn’t felt okay in a long time.
Her thoughts started creeping in again.
Slow.
Familiar.
You’re tired.
You’re stuck.
Nothing is changing.
Her chest tightened.
For a second—just a second—that dark thought brushed past her mind again.
The same one she kept pushing away.
This time, it lingered a little longer.
Naledi closed her eyes tightly, shaking her head.
“No,” she whispered. “Not today.”
Her voice cracked.
She reached for something—anything—and her hand landed on her Bible.
She didn’t open it.
She just held it.
“I don’t know if You’re listening,” she said quietly. “But I’m trying… I’m still trying.”
Silence followed.
But this time—
it didn’t feel as empty.
The next day at school, Naledi didn’t sit alone.
She sat with Zinhle.
And when Kabelo walked past, he gave a small nod.
Nothing big.
Nothing noticeable to anyone else.
But Naledi noticed.
Days turned into something softer.
Not easy.
Not better.
Just… softer.
Kabelo started sitting closer during breaks sometimes. Not always. Just enough that it didn’t feel planned.
Their conversations stayed simple.
“What did you get for that test?”
“Did you understand yesterday’s lesson?”
“You look tired.”
He never pushed.
Never asked questions she wasn’t ready to answer.
And strangely—
that made her want to answer anyway.
***********
One afternoon, they sat together behind the school.
Zinhle had left early.
It was just the two of them.
“You ever feel like you’re trying to hold everything together… and it’s still falling apart?” Naledi asked quietly.
Kabelo didn’t answer immediately.
“Yeah,” he said finally. “But I stopped trying to hold everything.”
Naledi frowned slightly. “Then what do you do?”
He looked ahead, his voice calm.
“I just hold what I can.”
Naledi sat with that.
It didn’t fix anything.
But it stayed with her.
That night, lying in bed, staring at the ceiling again—
Naledi noticed something different.
The thoughts were still there.
The exhaustion was still there.
Her life hadn’t magically changed.
But there were small things now.
Zinhle’s quiet presence.
Kabelo’s steady voice.
Moments where she didn’t feel completely alone.
She turned her head slightly, looking at her Bible again.
“I don’t have big faith anymore,” she whispered.
A pause.
“But… I have something.”
Her voice softened.
“Even if it’s small.”
And maybe—
just maybe—
that was enough to keep her here.