THE FIRST TASTE OF FREEDOM

Episode 3: The Weight Of Goodbyes

She looked into her phone again, just to be sure of what she read and it was still nothing different from before. “We need to talk.”

Her heart skipped, thudding painfully against her ribs as she wallowed in seeming anxiety. For a moment, she just sat there, staring at the words as if they might change if she looked long enough. But they didn’t. They stayed; simple, sharp, and heavy.

A quiet sigh escaped her lips. The room suddenly felt too small, the air too thick. She dropped the phone beside her and pressed a hand over her chest, as though she could calm the storm inside. Ethan’s message replayed in her head, over and over, until every syllable began to sound strange, distant, haunting. She tried to distract herself scrolled aimlessly, checked the time, even opened her messages again but her eyes kept going back to his. It wasn’t like him to text that way. He was usually direct, playful, sometimes even teasing. We need to talk. It sounded final. Serious. Different.

Nia sat up, brushing her fingers through her hair. Maybe he just wanted to clarify something. Maybe it was nothing deep. Maybe… but the word maybe never did much to calm her.

When her phone buzzed again, her pulse spiked, but it was only a message from Vanessa, asking about her plans for the next day. Nia barely read it. Her thoughts were too tangled in Ethan’s text to focus on anything else.

She stood and walked toward her mirror, catching a glimpse of herself. Her reflection looked back a mix of curiosity, fear, and the quiet determination of someone who didn’t like being left in suspense. “If he wants to talk,” she muttered softly, “then we’ll talk.”

Decision made, she reached for her favorite blue jeans ,the snug pair that made her feel a little older than she was and a pale spaghetti-strap top. The evening light filtered through her curtains, soft and golden, brushing over her shoulders as she adjusted the straps.

She took a moment to brush her hair, letting it fall freely. A touch of clear lip gloss, the faint shimmer catching the light. She didn’t overdo it just enough to feel confident, like she had control over something, even if it was only how she looked.

By the time she slipped her phone into her back pocket, her nerves had steadied a little. She wasn’t sure if she was ready to hear what Ethan had to say, but she was certain of one thing: she couldn’t stand the waiting any longer.

Outside, the air was warm and smelled faintly of wet earth. The sun was sinking, painting the neighborhood in shades of orange and gold. Nia walked quickly, her sneakers crunching softly against the gravel as she made her way down the familiar lane, the same path she and Ethan had walked a hundred times before, talking about everything and nothing.

Each step tightened the knot in her stomach. What if this was goodbye? What if he was ending whatever fragile thing had begun between them?

And yet, somewhere deep inside, a small, hopeful voice whispered: “what if it’s something else entirely?”

Three steps forward and there he was .

Ethan. Standing a few meters ahead, hands tucked into his hoodie pockets, head slightly bent. The breeze toyed with his hair, and for a second, it felt like time folded… like the last few seconds didn’t matter, like there was no message, no dread. Just him.

Nia took three cautious steps forward.

He looked up. Their eyes met.

Before she could say a word, Ethan jogged toward her, closing the space between them in a heartbeat. His arms wrapped around her shoulders, pulling her in so tight that she froze, not out of discomfort, but out of surprise.

She didn’t realize how much she needed that hug until now. His warmth seeped into her, steadying the rhythm of her heart. She clung back softly, her fingers brushing against the fabric of his hoodie.

When he finally pulled back, his eyes lingered — first on her face, then her lips.

“You look… different,” he said, voice low, like he wasn’t sure if he should’ve said it out loud.

Her brows knit slightly. “Different how?”

He gave a faint smile, eyes softening. “Just… beautiful.”

Nia blinked, caught off guard. The word hung in the air between them, sweet and awkward, the kind that made her chest feel both warm and confused.

“Thanks,” she murmured, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. She looked down, half smiling, half wondering what on earth was going on.

He nodded toward the lane ahead. “Let’s walk?”

She agreed with a nod, and they began moving side by side, quiet at first. The silence between them wasn’t uncomfortable, just… loaded. The kind of silence that came before storms.

The gravel crunched softly beneath their shoes. A dog barked somewhere in the distance. Nia glanced at him once or twice, trying to read his expression, but Ethan’s face was unreadable — calm, yet distant.

She finally spoke. “You said we needed to talk.” Her voice barely rose above a whisper.

Ethan sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. “Yeah.” He paused, then looked at her with a softness that made her stomach twist. “Nia, I don’t even know where to start.”

For a while, they walked without words, just the faint crunch of gravel under their sneakers and the soft hum of evening life around them. The sun had dipped low, brushing the rooftops with a tired orange glow. Children ran across the street in noisy excitement, chasing after a half-deflated football, their laughter spilling into the quiet like ripples on water.

From across the road came the rhythmic sizzle of akara balls frying in hot oil. The smell floated toward them — rich, comforting, unmistakably home. Nearby, a woman balanced a tray of roasted plantain, fanning the coals beneath it. Somewhere farther down, the sound of laughter rose from a palm wine joint, where men leaned on wooden benches, their cups clinking in slow rhythm with highlife music humming from a small speaker.

Nia and Ethan walked through it all like they were moving in a separate, slower world — a world where time hesitated for their sake.

Ethan’s hands were buried deep in his pockets. The glow from a nearby kiosk light hit his face just right, and Nia noticed how his brows knitted, as though his thoughts were fighting each other.

With a battle of calm and chaos inside him, he finally spoke. “I’ve been trying to find the right words,” he murmured, his voice nearly lost to the noise of passing motorcycles. “My head’s a mess. I know what I want to say, but when I try… it just doesn’t come out right.”

Nia tilted her head toward him. “Then don’t think too hard,” she said gently. “Just say it the way it comes.”

He breathed out, a soft, shaky laugh escaping. Then his tone softened. “Nia… I’ll miss you. Knowing you’re traveling soon brings me joy — and a little sadness too. You deserve all the good things coming your way, but it’s strange thinking I won’t get to see you every day. No more walking home together, no random gist after class… it’s just—” He trailed off, his gaze falling to the dusty path.

The words lingered between them, warm and painful all at once.

Nia looked ahead, pretending to be distracted by the glow of a streetlight. “It’s not like I’m disappearing,” she said with a small smile. “You’ll still text me, right? Maybe even call… if you’re not too busy pretending to forget me.”

That made him laugh, a real one this time…the kind that loosened something in his chest. But beneath it, there was still that sadness neither could name.

They passed a group of men seated at a wooden table, the scent of palm wine thick in the air. One of them called out playfully, “Ehen, lovebirds! Na evening stroll be this?” The others laughed, and Nia’s cheeks flushed instantly. Ethan only grinned and reached out, brushing his hand lightly against hers in silent apology for their little public embarrassment.

And for a brief moment, amid the noise, the laughter, the smells of home and it was just them.

The noise of the evening slowly faded as they wandered past the familiar streets and turned down a narrow footpath that led behind the school field. The world seemed to grow quieter there, as though even the crickets knew they needed a little peace.

A pale moon had climbed the sky, its light spilling through the palm fronds and settling softly on the ground. The grass whispered under their feet, and the air smelled faintly of earth and roasted corn drifting from some far-off stand.

“This place still feels the same,” Ethan said, breaking the silence. “Remember how we used to sneak here after prep just to watch the sunset?”

Nia smiled faintly. “You mean you used to sneak here. I was always too scared of being caught.”

He laughed under his breath, the sound low and warm. “You were scared of everything back then.”

“And look at me now,” she teased. “I’m still scared of everything—just better at hiding it.”

They both laughed quietly, and it was that kind of laughter that felt like home — effortless, comfortable, the kind that made the silence that followed even more meaningful.

They reached a half-broken bench near a guava tree and sat side by side. From where they sat, they could see faint lights blinking from the nearby houses. The air felt thick with memories — late-night study sessions, stolen snacks, shared secrets.

For a while, neither spoke. Nia fiddled with the hem of her top, her heart racing without permission. She could feel Ethan’s nearness, the way the warmth of his arm seemed to reach her even when they weren’t touching.

Finally, Ethan exhaled, his voice softer now. “I didn’t mean to make that text sound so serious,” he began. “I just… didn’t know how else to start.”

Nia turned to him. “You scared me,” she admitted, smiling nervously. “I thought something bad happened.”

“Not bad,” he said quickly. Then after a pause, “Just… complicated.”

She waited, her brows knitting in quiet concern.

He rubbed his palms together, staring at the ground. “Things at home haven’t been great lately. Dad lost his contract two months ago. He’s been trying to stay strong, but… it’s been hard. Mum started selling more in the shop, but even that’s not enough. And now I’m supposed to start university, but I don’t even know if we can afford the fees.”

Nia’s chest tightened. She hadn’t expected that. Ethan always seemed like he had everything figured out—steady, calm, unshaken. Hearing the cracks in his voice made him suddenly human in a way she’d never seen before.

“I’m so sorry, Ethan,” she said softly. “You should’ve told me.”

He shrugged, forcing a weak smile. “Didn’t want to sound like I was complaining. Besides, you’ve got your own thing going on. You’re leaving soon. I didn’t want to add more to your mind.”

She shook her head. “That’s not how friendship works. You don’t get to decide which part of your struggle I’m allowed to know.”

He smiled — really smiled this time — and looked at her. “You always know the right thing to say, don’t you?”

“I’m just being honest,” she said, her voice small.

A moment passed between them, one of those moments that stretch far longer than they should. The wind rustled through the grass, and somewhere nearby, a night bird called.

Ethan leaned back against the bench, his eyes still fixed on her. “You know,” he said slowly, “sometimes I wish time could freeze. Just like this.”

She glanced at him. “Why?”

He hesitated, his throat moving as he swallowed. “Because… when I’m here with you, everything else fades. The noise, the stress, even the fear of what’s next—it all disappears.”

Nia blinked, unsure of what to say. Her pulse thudded in her ears. She’d never heard him sound so vulnerable, so unguarded.

“Ethan…” she began, but he turned to her then — really turned — and the words died in her throat.

Moonlight traced the edges of his face, highlighting the quiet exhaustion in his eyes, the uncertainty shadowed behind his smile. He wasn’t just the boy who made her laugh anymore; he was the boy standing at a crossroads, trying to hold on to something real before life pulled him in another direction.

“You make everything feel lighter, Nia,” he said quietly. “Maybe that’s what scares me the most.”

Her breath caught. For a moment, neither of them moved. The night hummed softly around them, and the distance between their hands felt smaller than it was.

She laughed lightly to break the silence. “You sound like one of those poets who can’t finish their sentences.”

He chuckled. “Maybe I just started reading too many of the things you like.”

“That’s impossible,” she teased. “You barely even finish your assignments.”

“Touché.” He grinned, eyes glinting with warmth.

Then silence again — comfortable this time. The kind where hearts do the talking.

Nia tilted her head back, watching the moon peek between the clouds. “Do you ever think about what it’ll be like after we leave?” she asked.

“All the time,” Ethan replied. “I think about how everything might change, how people move on, and how scary that is. But then I also think… maybe some things won’t change. Like this. Us.”

Nia’s chest tightened. “Us?” she repeated softly.

He nodded, his voice barely above a whisper. “Yeah. You and me. No matter where you go, or what happens next… just don’t forget this.”

Something flickered in her — something she wasn’t sure she could name. Fear, maybe. Or hope. Or both.

“Promise me one thing,” he said, looking at her now with quiet intensity.

She met his gaze. “What?”

“That you won’t stop being this version of you. The one that smiles even when she’s scared. The one that believes things will still be okay.”

Her lips trembled into a small smile. “Only if you promise not to forget how to laugh at everything.”

He grinned. “Deal.”

A faint rustle came from the trees, followed by distant laughter from the road. They didn’t move. They didn’t need to.

Nia felt something shift quietly inside her — like the world had paused just for this moment. And even though they hadn’t said the word, she knew what lingered in the air between them. Something delicate. Something dangerous. Something that felt a lot like love.

Ethan reached out then, slow and hesitant, brushing a strand of hair away from her face. His fingertips lingered for a heartbeat too long, tracing the space just behind her ear. She didn’t flinch. Didn’t breathe.

When his hand fell away, the space between them felt heavier, charged with things left unsaid.

“Ethan…” she started, but he only smiled — that same soft smile that said everything words couldn’t.

“Let’s just stay like this for a while,” he whispered.

And they did.

The night stretched on,

Morning sunlight streamed lazily through the curtains, spilling across the Adetolas’ living room. The soft clinking of plates and the low hum of a fan blended with Mrs. Adetola’s voice on the phone.

“Yes, sir, we’ve gotten the email confirmation,” she said, pacing near the dining table. “Yes, her student visa came through yesterday. We’re only waiting for the flight booking details now. Alright, thank you, Mr. Kelvin. God bless you.”

She hung up, exhaling deeply before folding her hands against her chest. The tension on her face softened slightly, replaced by something like pride mixed with disbelief.

At the far end of the table, Mr. Adetola sat with a pen in hand, carefully arranging a small pile of papers — Nia’s passport, visa printout, international admission letter, and a yellow vaccination card. His brow was furrowed in the way it always was when he had too much to think about.

“Nike,” he said, addressing his wife without looking up, “the agent says her flight is next Friday. That gives us just six days to get everything ready. We’ll need to convert some of the money to dollars before then.”

Mrs. Adetola nodded slowly, her fingers still fiddling with the hem of Nia’s travel jacket. “Six days,” she murmured, almost to herself. “My baby’s really leaving.”

From the staircase, Nia watched silently, her heart a strange mix of excitement and ache. The words “her flight” sounded both thrilling and terrifying. She had dreamt of this moment — of stepping into a new country, of freedom, of possibilities — but now that it was here, it didn’t feel like she imagined.

Her mother noticed her standing there. “Nia, come down and eat before your food gets cold.”

Nia descended slowly, wearing a loose shirt and joggers, her hair pulled into a bun. “Morning, Daddy… morning, Mum.”

“Morning, dear,” Mr. Adetola replied, his tone soft but busy. “Come and sit. We’ve been talking about your flight plans.”

She sat opposite him, picking at the toast on her plate. “It’s really happening then?”

“Yes, it is,” her father said, finally looking up with a faint smile. “All those nights of studying, the long wait for your admission, the embassy interview — they’ve all paid off.”

Her mother smiled gently. “You should be grateful, my dear. Not everyone gets this chance.”

“I am,” Nia said quickly, though her voice sounded smaller than she intended.

They talked about packing lists — sweaters, documents, medications, snacks, Nigerian spices — and how she’d need to open a domiciliary account for her upkeep. Mr. Adetola scribbled reminders on a notepad, muttering about international student insurance, vaccination cards, and how they’d visit the travel agency in town the next day to confirm her ticket.

Then, as her mother began folding clothes into a suitcase, Nia’s chest tightened again.

She watched the red Ankara gown her mother held — the same gown she wore for her graduation dinner — being neatly pressed and tucked away. It felt like pieces of her life were being folded, one memory at a time.

Mrs. Adetola must have sensed her silence because she paused and said softly, “You know, Nia, when I was your age, I wanted to travel too. But life didn’t let me. That’s why your father and I promised you children would have what we couldn’t.”

Nia blinked, trying to hide the moisture forming in her eyes. “I know, Mum. I’m grateful. Really.”

Her father stood, stretched, and looked at her with quiet seriousness. “You’re our last child, Nia. Your siblings are already settled abroad. You’ve always been the soft one, the one that feels things deeply. Don’t let that make you lose focus when you get there.”

“I won’t, Dad,” she said with a small nod, though her mind was already somewhere else — back under that tree with Ethan, where his laughter still echoed in her chest.

Mrs. Adetola smiled wistfully. “Ah, my daughter,” she sighed, “just don’t forget where you came from.”

“I won’t,” Nia whispered.

The fan hummed, the radio played an old Asa song, and for a brief moment, everything in the room felt heavy — like the calm before a storm. Outside, a rooster crowed, children shouted in the street, and life went on, unaware that inside this small house, a chapter was closing and another was opening.

Nia dropped her fork, pushing the last bite of toast aside. Her mother, Mrs. Adetola, sat across the table, glancing at her with that soft but knowing smile.

“You didn’t eat much,” she said gently.

“I’m fine, Mum,” Nia replied, trying to sound composed. Her stomach was a twist of emotions — excitement, nerves, maybe even fear.

Her father, Mr. Adetola, folded the newspaper he had been pretending to read. “Your flight details are confirmed,” he said. “We’ll go over everything this evening — your passport, visa documents, and school forms. Just make sure your bags are ready.”

Nia nodded. “Yes, Dad.”

There was a beat of silence. The clinking of cutlery from the kitchen filled the air. She could feel their eyes on her — proud, yet unwilling to admit how much they’d miss her.

“I’ll go upstairs,” she said softly, rising from the chair.

“Alright, dear,” her mother replied. “Just rest a bit. You’ve been restless since yesterday.”

As she climbed the stairs, her heart thudded gently against her chest. Every step felt like it was carrying her closer to something bigger than herself — and farther from everything she knew.

Inside her room, sunlight filtered through the curtains, spilling across her half-packed suitcase. She sat on the bed, running her hand over the fabric of her favorite sweater — the one Ethan said made her look like “a soft cloud.” The memory made her smile faintly.

For a moment, she just sat there, breathing it all in — the faint scent of home, the echoes of her parents’ voices downstairs, and the quiet hum of a future she wasn’t fully ready for, but couldn’t wait to meet.

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