Del I couldn’t stop myself from hurting him… Dzhan’s last words for me after he begged me for help ring in my ears like doom as I drive to his dorm room, not giving a f*uck who might see me or what kinds of laws I am overstepping. What I feared for such a long time, what I allowed to happen, has finally happened and someone has paid the price for my selfishness. It’s late when I park outside of the dorm, the lights of the tall building glistening n the fog that creeps up over the ground like demonic eyes and a shiver runs down my spine, my heart beating faster and faster as I cross the sidewalk and hurry inside. Dzhan has to buzz me in and he takes his time doing so, probably still in the stupor he was when he called. He’d never sound so lost, so distant before, his voice an echo of the

