I had finally built enough courage to face Giulia, I felt stronger and weak at the same time, those were the results of not eating properly, berries and fish was hardly a balanced meal but it kept me alive. I finally returned to the training grounds and resumed my daily life.
I trained all night till morning, I ran 40 laps on the running tracks, I did 700 pushups and I lifted the weights with no problem, I kept repeating the exercises over and over until they became easy, it wasn’t a pain considering all the training I did solo. Whatever exercise Giulia had for me next I'm sure I could handle it.
I finally had self-confidence, enough to get up and train, Eanraig wasn't my driving force, it was me, I was my driving force. Maybe he was for Sasha at some point but our new driving force was
