I love you. Forever.

Chapter 32: Reunited

Becs’ POV (3 days prior to waking up)

“Rebecca, baby, wake up.” I hear the one voice that brings comfort. “Don’t move her son…” I hear another familiar voice as I fade deeper into the darkness. Before I lose all awareness, I feel something being lifted off me. It’s my cat. ‘Help Maya, please’ I try to speak up but my voice remains still as I fade deeper into the darkness.

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I’m alone. I walk around in a maze of darkness when I hear a completely different voice guide me. “Over here, Becs.” This voice is different from the first one but it also provides comfort. It’s a voice I haven’t heard since I was 10 years old. “Daddy? Where are you?” I call out turning in circles to find him. “I’m right here, my sweet Becs.” Daddy says right behind me. I turn quickly and 5 feet away stands my hero. As my eyes focus on him our surroundings change. I am in a beautiful field of wildflowers. Its smells like heaven. Dad was leaning against a tall oak tree. “There’s my girl.” He smiles brightly. I run to him and jump into his arms. “Daddy, I’ve missed you! You left me too soon.” I Cry into his chest. “I know my Becs. Daddy didn’t want to leave my beautiful girl.” He holds me tightly and kisses my head. “Let me see you.” He says slowly pulling away to look me over. “What a beautiful young lady. But I don’t like these scars Rebecca Everly.” He said in a sad tone looking over my arms before pulling me in close once again. “I know daddy. I’m getting better. I found someone who is helping me. He loves me daddy.” I smile through the tears. “Yes, he does my sweet sweet Becs. God made him just for you as you were made just for him. I am so thankful he is there for you when I cannot be. You will have a beautiful life but there are more hurdles you have get through my precious child. Stay strong and remember Daddy is always in your heart.” He cupped my face and kissed my forehead. “I have to go now. He’s waiting for you.” Daddy said lovingly. “But daddy, I want to stay with you longer. Please don’t go.” I sob. “I know my Becs but its time for you to go back. I love you my girl. Forever.” He whispered embracing me one last time. “I love you daddy. Forever.” I say trying to give him a smile through the tears.

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In an instant, I am alone. I am laying down in the middle of the field of wildflowers watching the clouds. I am completely at peace. I have no idea how I got here but I am enjoying it as long as it lasts. I hear birds singing beautifully in the distance and leaves rustle among the trees as a light breeze comes through. All of a sudden a large shadow casts over me. “Hey there gorgeous.” I smile knowing that voice. I look up to see the most handsome boy in a leather jacket. “Its you.” I say softly as he reaches out his hand to help me up. “Its me, my love.” He chuckles pulling me into a warm embrace. I stand on my tippy toes for a kiss but he pulls away smiling. “Not so fast Becs. Gotta catch me first.” He says laughing and running away. “Oh, I’ll get you.” I giggle running after him. He teases me playfully letting me catch up to him just for him to take off in another direction. I finally reach him and jump into his arms as we gently fall onto the soft bed of flowers rolling around. “You have to come back to me, Becs. I’m waiting for you.” He smiles sadly. “But I’m right here my handsome boy.” I whisper softly. “I’ll help you.” He leans in and I close my eyes ready for his kiss. “Open your beautiful hazel eyes for me, sweetness.” He coos in my ear….

The singing birds turn into high pitched ringing and the beautiful field turns into a white room as my eyes focus. I panic, there is something in my mouth and I can’t swallow. That comforting voice is trying to calm me down. I feel someone take my hands as I try to pull at the wires and whatever is in my mouth. “Baby doll, its okay.” His voice soothes me. I finally see his face. He calls to someone to get a doctor. I am so confused. My eyes start to burn due to the tears building up. “Hey Becs, the doctor is coming. Just relax for me.” The boy from my dream says. I am so scared so I hold his hand tight. He said he would help me. This is all a whirlwind, before I know it the doctor comes in. The boy helped me sit up as the doctor pulled the tube out of my mouth. It was awful but I’m glad its out. I lay back down and catch my breath. I slowly let go of his hand. I held him so tight I was hurting my own hand, though I hurt everywhere. I am so tired after all of that. “Are you in any pain?” The doctor asks. “A little.” I answer in rough voice. My throat hurts like hell. He asks me where and I tell him. He said it was all normal and that he would get  me pain meds. I rest back and look around the room. I don’t recognize anyone around me but the boy. The boy who woke me up is from  my dream. But I don’t know his name. I am so confused.  The doctor asks me questions that I can’t answer. I hear the boy whisper something to himself and he looks sad. I cry. This is too much but the boy takes my hand again. “It’s okay sweetheart. Your name is Rebecca.” He says softly. His touch makes my skin tingle just was his voice brings me comfort. I want him to stay but the doctor asks everyone to step outside. But the older boy stays behind. Maybe he is my family. I rest back for a few minutes trying to take everything in. I don’t understand what’s happening to me. Maybe the boy can tell me. He said he would help me. I gather the courage to talk to the older boy. My heart skipped a beat when he said the boy’s name. Ben, I feel drawn to him. He said he would get him for me.

The nurse is cleaning my face and changing the wrap on my hand. I wish she would leave me alone. He finally came in and sat beside me taking my hand. “You’re the boy from my dream.” I whisper looking into his blue eyes. They are so pretty. He asked what my dream was and I told him what I can remember. “Yes, I will help with whatever you need baby doll.” He told me. He touched my cheek. It felt so nice, I wished he would keep doing that but I am so tired right now. He spoke softly to me telling me go to sleep and that he will be here. Why can’t I remember anything? I feel so safe with him.

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I don’t know how long I slept but I awoke to the boy sleeping with his head resting on my bed. He looks so peaceful but still has a sad expression on his face. I hope I’m not causing that. I’m trying but its like everything is blank in my mind. I get flashes of faces and places but just as fast as they come, they go again leaving my head spinning. I do remember I had another dream about someone, but its fuzzy. I hate this.

Just as I come out of my thoughts I catch myself running my fingers through his hair. The action felt so natural. He woke up and I quickly pull away and apologize but he wasn’t having that. He let me touch him. I glide my fingers along the contours of his face. He is so handsome. I feel him lean into my touch ever so gently like he craves it. I see hope and sadness in his eyes. I want him close to me. I feel drawn to him. He adjusts my bed and sits next to me. I let him wrap his arm around me. For being a big guy, he is so gentle. I can tell he treats me like I will break in half at any time. His warmth cascades through  my body and I relax into him like its second nature. I fit perfectly by his side. “Who are you?” I ask looking down. I can’t place him no matter how hard I try. I feel like I’m hurting him not knowing. But I don’t even know myself. “I’m Ben, your boyfriend.” He said softly. Ben is my boyfriend, no wonder he looks sad. He cares for me and I can’t remember s**t. But maybe with him by my side, he’ll help me to find myself like in my dream. I have to get better.

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We spent the next couple hours looking at pictures on Ben’s phone. He told our love story from beginning until now. My heart is bursting seeing all these pictures of us together. We look so happy. I am going through the whole range of emotions. One minute I am laughing and the next minute I want to cry because my brain is f****d up. I have to get better. I will get better. Every time Ben touches me or kisses me waves of warm tingles flow through my body. I want more. I need more. I feel only love in my heart for him. He confirmed it when he told me he loved me. He said I didn’t have to say it back but I want to because he has my heart whether I remember or not.