I love you. Forever.

Chapter 34: I Remember

CH 34: I Remember

Ben’s POV

Hell, this month has been f*****g crazy. Some things good and some things bad. She stayed with us for a few days before Lily and that bastard came home. She felt a connection to her mother but couldn’t place her yet. Her mom sat with her talking about their happy memories a lot like what we did earlier. It was going well until Tim and Zach showed up. Becs got insantly quiet and nervous. She couldn’t place either of them but I could tell she didn’t want anything to do with the father and son duo. She cried not wanting to go home with them. She latched herself onto me begging to stay. It ripped my heart out of my chest. I understood that Lily wanted her daughter with her but Becs was doing so well with us. What I didn’t understand was Tim wanting her back home as well. He was adamant that he look after her. My dad had to walk away. He was livid. I had to stay calm as Becs cried. That bastard said he is getting a new security system put in within the week and that she would be perfectly safe, especially since the 2 attackers were finally caught. But this guy is a snake. 

The video and the DNA helped ID the fuckers. They had a rap sheet a mile long for burglary, assault and drug related offenses. And they were hired by none other than Josh. Yeah, the Josh who assaulted his girlfriend and tried getting to Becs at the Ball. His daddy posted bailed within the hour after he was arrested that night at the fundraiser. Some things never change. He was arrested again as soon as the attackers dropped his name. Jordan and I paid a little visit to Josh in the local jail house before he was transported. Lets just say Jordan has connections and no one knows why the video camera in the interrogation room wasn’t working at the time. Josh had to make a pit stop at the emergency room before heading to the state prison system. I hear he had several broken bones and another concussion. Don’t worry, it was a fair fight. I wouldn’t fight a person who was tethered down. As far as the police know, he hurt himself.

I will say, this whole Josh thing still has me unsettled. He’s not smart enough or has the balls to do something like this by himself. I know there’s more too it, just no one is saying anything. Deep down, I feel Tim was involved in one way or another. Unfortunately gut feelings are not proof.

Anyways back to Becs, I had to drive her home and stay with her for a few hours until she calmed down enough to reason with her. Her mom stayed with her that night. After a week of teary phone calls at midnight, Becs adjusted to staying in her own room. I came over as much as possible until she was ready to attend classes a couple days of week. Becs may have not remembered a lot of classmates but she didn’t put up with anyone’s s**t. The more she attended class and spoke with her mom, the more she remembered. She was doing well until she remembered her dad and the accident. Her mom called me over at 2am in a panic trying to calm her down. Lily could barely get near her daughter to comfort her. She relived the whole thing in a nightmare. She woke up remembering. As soon as I got there I scooped her up in my arms and cradled her. She was a mess. She had a brief relapse with cutting that week but we have been working through that and she hasn’t cut since then and its been close to 3 weeks now. More memories are being restored as she gets into a normal routine. She even started up dancing again and teaching lessons to the young girls but only twice a month to start. I keep praying she remembers us but that day hasn’t come yet. I keep holding onto faith that my Becs will come back to me. My heart hurts still.

So that has been our month in a nutshell. Right now, Jordan is here hanging out for the weekend since my parents are away on a business trip. Not that I need a baby sitter. Think they are just worried about me even when I tell them I’m alright. Well I guess I should try to get some sleep. Its already 1am.

Wait a minute, I know this place. I look around and start smiling. I’m in the field of wildflowers again. “Becs, where are you?” I call out. “She isn’t here.” A older male voice says from behind me. I turn to see a middle aged man with red hair. I know him instantly. “Mr. Sampson, how are you here?” I am in complete awe. She looks like him. “Hi Ben. I’ve been waiting to meet you.” He smiled and pulled me into a brief man hug. “Thank you for taking care of my little girl.” He said. “I love her, Sir. Becs is everything to me.” I reply back still in complete awe. “I know you do son. You two were made for each other. The two of you have been through a lot already but I need to tell you to stay strong. You have more challenges to face before your happy ending. Can you do that? Can you stay strong?” He asks thoughtfully. “Yes, always, Sir. I’d do anything for her.” I answer honestly. “Good man. You two take care of each other. Its time to go now. Remember, I am only a thought away. I will take care of her from here when its time.” Steve said with a sad smile. “Her? You mean Becs?” I ask for clarification. What’s with the sad face? “No, Ben. Not Becs. Its time to go now.” He said giving me another hug.

I wake and sit up. That felt real. I think I actually met her dad. My mind is racing.

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Becs’ POV

I’m here again, standing in a pretty field of wildflowers. The sun is warm on my fair skin as I slowly turn in a circle enjoying my surroundings. “Hi my beautiful daughter.” I hear the one voice that I have missed so much. “Daddy, its you!” I turn and see him standing there with open arms. I smile and run into his loving embrace. “I missed you.” I lightly sob into his chest. “I missed you too Becs. You are doing so well, but it’s time for you to remember him.” Daddy whispered into my ear. I look up at him and give a confused smile. “Oh my sweet girl, he needs you and has been waiting patiently for you. Its time. Remember, I am only a thought away. I will take care of her from here when its time. I love you. Forever.” Daddy said softly. “I love you Daddy. Forever.” I smiled back as he kissed my forehead.

I shot up out of bed taking a deep breath. That dream felt so real. I can still feel my daddy’s arms around me. Wait a minute, I dreamed of him before. Even before I dreamed of Ben. Daddy guided me to him, to make me wake up. Now he’s guiding me to Ben again….because…..because I remember everything! Oh my gosh. I remember! I need to call Benny! But its 5am and too early especially for a weekend. Think I will take a nice warm shower and get ready for the day. I can think about how I want to tell him. I know this has been hard on my handsome boy. I can’t wait to see him. To hold him and kiss him senseless.

I lay back down after my shower and rest my eyes until 8am. I could never fall back to sleep. I’m me again with the good and the bad. I feel whole. But what did the rest of the dream mean? My dad will take care of her. Does he mean mom? I’m assuming she is who he meant. “Thank you for allowing me to see my daddy again.” I whisper to God as I lay there picturing my dad’s handsome face in my mind.

I finished getting ready and headed downstairs. Mom redecorated the foyer. It’s completely different now. I think she did it so I wouldn’t be reminded of what happened that day. I am thankful for that. I’ve come a long way and so ready to keep moving forward.

“Good morning, sweetie. Breakfast is almost ready.” Mom smiled while flipping the pancakes. “Morning mom.” I smile back and give her a hug. Zach and Tim were still upstairs thankfully. I wanted to tell mom about my dreams. “Mom, I dreamed about him. Twice now.” I started slowly. Mom turned and looked at me concerned. “It was daddy. I reunited with him in a field of wildflowers. He guided me to Ben right before I woke up in the hospital. And again this morning. Mom, I remember everything.” I explained cheerfully. “Oh Rebecca. Thank God.” She hurried over and gave me a bear hug. “Thank you Steve.” I hear mom whisper to herself. She was teary eyed when she cupped my face and kissed my forehead exactly where my daddy kissed. “I need to go see Ben.” I say softly. “Let’s eat first and I can drive you over. He will be over the moon.” Mom smiled widely.

“She shouldn’t be out gallivanting around Lily.” Tim walked in interrupting our moment. “Honey, she regained her memory. She just wants to tell Ben.” Mom said happily. “She needs rest. Its too much right now.” He argued. What a f*****g asshole. Yeah, I now remember him too…unfortunately.

“I feel great, Tim. I have been resting this whole month. I am even back to school full time. If I get tired, I can rest at Ben’s house.” I said keeping my voice even and calm. He goes to say something, smart I’m sure when mom cuts in. “That settles it then, we’ll eat and I’ll drop you off at Ben’s house.” Mom nodded before fixing our plates with food. Tim huffed but sat down sneaking in a glare my way. Yup, we are all back to normal now.

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I wore Ben’s favorite dress of mine but in the green linen this time. I added leggings and a sweater since it was cold. I quickly get out of mom’s car and run up to Ben’s porch. My heart is racing. It hurts me to realize that he had me all this time but I was still so far away. Thank God I remember our love story. I can’t even imagine how he felt all this time. I’d die if something happened to Ben and he didn’t recognize or remember me. That boy has my whole heart. Always will.

I knock and Jordan answers. He sees my grin and gives me a questioning look. “Yes Jordan, I’m back.” I whisper. He stepped out and hugged me. “Thank God girl, Ben has been miserable. Let me get him.” He whispered back at me. He gave me a friendly kiss on the cheek before turning around. “Wait, I’ll go to him.” I catch him before he steps back inside. Just then we hear Ben. “Hey Jay, whose at the door?” He sounds like he just woke up.

Ben’s POV

My mind is racing from that dream with Becs’ dad. I did fall back to sleep eventually and just recently woke up. I heard the knock at the door as I walk into the bathroom to brush my teeth. I hear Jordan answer it but its quiet. I didn’t even bother putting a shirt on. I go downstairs in just my basketball shorts. I see Jordan turn to come inside. “Hey Jay, whose at the door?” I ask. We’re not expecting anyone. “Come see for yourself little cousin.” He smirked at me. He steps aside and I see the most beautiful girl in the world smiling at me as she comes inside. I love those dresses on her. “Hey gorgeous, I thought Tim had you on lockdown?” I ask. My voice is still raspy from sleep. “Since when do I give a s**t what that asshole says.” She smirked catching me off guard. I give her a questioning look praying its true. She runs and jumps into my arms. Her arms and legs wrapped around me as I hold her up by her thighs. “Yes Benny. I remember.” She said before smashing her perfect lips into mine. My heart is exploding with joy right now. But the way she is kissing me has my buddy at full attention. We finally part ways after a long passionate kiss. We rest our foreheads together. “Becs.” I whisper breathing her in. “Think I’ll go and give you two some privacy. Remember use protection.” Jordan smirked as he walked passed us. “Bye Jordan.” I mutter never taking my eyes off of Becs. Her eyes are dancing like crazy right now. We kiss once more before I carry her upstairs and into my room. I sit on the edge of bed letting Becs straddle me. Our lips rarely parting. My hands explore her back and her hair. We part ways to catch our breath still looking at each other. I bury my face in her neck as I hug her tight. “You have no idea how much I missed you baby doll.” My lips brushed against her delicate neck as I spoke. “Thank you for everything my handsome boy. I wouldn’t have come this far without you.” I feel her embrace tighten around me as well. “I thought I lost you Becs.” I picked my head up to look at her. “You looked so lifeless that night. You were so cold and broken.” My voice cracked and a tear escaped my eye as I thought back to that night. She cupped my face with both of her hands and kissed my tear away before kissing my lips. “I know Benny. I thought I was going lose everything that night. I kept telling myself to get to you. I could only think of you.” She whispered into my lips. We attacked each other’s lips once again. We got hot and heavy soon after as she ground into my hard on and my hands explored her clothed body. “Benny please.” She moaned out. I took her sweater off and started unzipping her dress. She stood up and let it drop to the floor before shimmying out of her leggings and panties. She straddled me again as I unhooked her bra and got it out of my way. I attacked her neck with kisses and left my marks along my her neck and shoulders as I gently played with her perfect boobs. “I missed all of you gorgeous. So much.” I groaned out against her neck. Her soft moans were making my c**k quiver. I couldn’t wait any longer. I stood up with her in my arms and turned us around before gently placing her on my bed. I kicked off my shorts freeing my throbbing member. I stroked myself a few times before lowering on top of Becs. “He missed you too.” I smirked. “We should be reunited then, don’t you think?” She smirked back seductively. “f**k, I missed you.” I muttered before smashing my lips onto hers again. I pulled away just long enough to feel her ready for me. I teased her core with my tip just for a few seconds. I was torturing both of us. “So wet for me, baby.” With that, I slipped into her with a gentle thrust knowing its been a while. She gasped lightly before relaxing. Her tightness wrapped around my c**k. “You’re so tight, I won’t last long.” I moaned out as I started thrusting into her. “I don’t care handsome. You just feel so good. I love you Ben.” She whispered out looking up at me. “Oh baby doll. I love you too.” I took her slow wanting to extend my contact with her. After a few minutes, I rolled us over so she was on top of me. She began riding me as I helped guide her hips up and down my length. Our eyes never leaving one another. Getting tired, she leaned over me after a few minutes. I held her against my body as she rocked her hips into mine. She got her second wind and started kissing me sensually before leaving a trail of kisses down my jawline to my neck. She then made her way over to my throat. I feel her lick the length of my throat before adding kisses to the warm trail. She stopped and paid special attention to my Adams apple knowing it drives me crazy. She ran her fingers down my sides, my body trembling under her touch. “You make me so weak for you.” I breathe out. I feel her smile against my neck before kissing her way back to my lips allowing me to swallow her moans. I fell her body begin to tremble as her orgasm takes over. She hides her face in my neck as I feel her body weak. “That’s it baby doll.” I coo as I sync my movements with hers. As she rides out her orgasm, mine is set off unleashing everything I have to offer.

We lay there holding each other as we were face to face. She traced my lips with my her fingertips as I played with her curls. “What did I do to deserve you?” She whispered. “We were made for each other sweetheart. You’re all mine.” I smile my Ben Wilder classic. “And you’re mine Benny.” She smiled back. I love hearing her claim me like that. “The boy from my dream is so handsome.” She cupped my cheek as I closed me eyes taking in her touch. It never gets old. I reached up and move her hand to my lips so can kiss her palm and wrist. “We had the same dream Becs.” I have been wanting to tell her this since she woke up. She was amazed once I told her mine. “You know Benny, my daddy guided me to you. He came to me in my first dream. He loves you Ben. Like you said just a minute ago. God made us for each other. As much as I didn’t want to let my daddy go, he told me you would help me. Then he came to me in another dream last night. He told it was time to remember you. He kissed my head right before I woke up. Our love story running through my head from the very beginning. He also said he would take care of her. I think me meant my mom.” She explained as detailed as she could. I was in complete awe once more. “Becs, your dad came to me last night as well. He hugged me and thanked me for loving and caring for you. He also asked me to remain strong as we face our lives together. Just like he told you, he told me that we were made for each other too and that he would take care of her when it was time. I didn’t know what he meant. But I guess it makes sense that it could be your mother.” We were both speechless after explaining our dreams to each other. “This has to be a gift from God, Ben. I got to see my him again, twice. He knew you already. This has to be God.” She smiled warmly. “’I think you’re right, my love. You really do look like him. I knew who he was instantly. He’s a wonderful man Becs. You have his loving spirit. He lives on in you.” I spoke softly wiping away the happy tears that escaped her beautiful hazel eyes. “Thank you Benny. I wish he was still here.” I caressed her cheek. “I know but he’s just a thought away.” I repeated his words. Her eyes grew wide for a second before she leaned in and kissed me. “Yes, he is.” She whispered before cuddling into my chest. Everything is so perfect in this moment. "My precious gem." I whisper an kiss her head.