Our Stop

03. Kiss

"Nao, are you coming at the reunion?" Rin asked me as I clean the table.

"I don't know" I answered coldly.

"Why not? Let's go together" He said facing me.

"If I have time" I said and went to the kitchen.

"You're not that busy though. Let's go" He said following me.

"Ha~okay okay" I said and he immediately smile from ear to ear.

"I let them know" He said excitedly.

Reunion ah! I don't know if he will be there but I'm hoping he is. I don't know if he's still alive but I have a gut feeling he is. And I'm holding to that little chance that he's there.

"Rin, I'll get going. See you tomorrow" I said as I walk to the door.

"Okay. Be careful on your way" He shout and I went out and walk to the bus station. My usual routine is like this, house, cafe, to our place and then home.

As I get in to the bus I plugged in my earphones and repeatedly listening to our theme song. As I touched our couple ring. I don't know if you keep it but it's my treasure. All of your belongings are my treasures and all of our places we have been are all my special place. Every corner of it, I still see you clinging into my hand and smiling like you hold the whole world.

As the bus gets near to that bus stop, I saw a man standing in it. It's not that clear but I'm hoping it's you. As it's stopped, I immediately walk out of the bus and a look of dismayed face when I get out. It's not you. It's not even close to you.

"What do you want dude?" The guy asked me as he notice I was looking at him.

"Nothing. Sorry" I said. And he immediately get in to the bus. It's quite dark now.

"Reunion ha" I said as I remembered what Rin said.

I remember again when the times we get closer to each other.

You got surprised of how many part time jobs I'm taking. You offer to help me and I became your personal tutor although the whole class know that you're smart enough to pass the exams. You double the price of it but I feel kinda guilty receiving a massive a mount just to teach a lesson we all know you knew.

I can't take off my eyes of you. The sight of your long eye lashes and your cold blue eyes. Sometimes I got nervous just by looking at you for so long. I feel like falling deep in the ocean.

"Nao? Nao?" You called me as you look at my eyes.

"Yes?" I asked you as I removed my hands on my chin.

"Are you okay? Are you not feeling well?" You asked me as you placed your hand on my forehead.

"Ah no. I'm kind of tired from the part time job" I said as I smile at you.

"I told you can quit your part time job and you can be a full time tutor for me" he said giving me a worried face. It's been months since I started to be your tutor. And we get closer and closer each day. You treat me like I'm special to you.

"I don't want to. And also can you lower the pay. I think it's not necessary for you to pay me that much. We all know that you're smart. Can you?" I asked you. 'Cause I'm feeling really guilty about it. Although I'm broke but I'm not that greedy.

"I don't want to" he said and look back at the question we've been studying.

"But it's not feel right to pay me that much" I complained.

"Well, what if you work for an extra job for me?" He asked me and smirk. Although I don't feel good about it. I agreed. The kind and soft but dark Ryuu came. What happened to my innocent Ryuu?

"What kind of job is that?" I asked him nevously.

"Date me" He said calmly.

"HUH?" I said in surpised of what he said.

"Are you nuts?" I asked him.

"Nope" he said as he flipped the page of the book.

"I'm a man" I said.

"And so?" He said as he looked at me.

"I know you're not naive. I know you're smart too and not dumb. I knew you know why I'm like this Nao. Want me to say it?" He said. Is he drunk or something?

"Ryuu, are you drunk?" I asked him. This is not the Ryuu I knew.

"A little bit" he said. He got closer to me.

"You'll regret what you said tom--" I stopped with a kiss on my lips. 10 seconds... 20 seconds... 30 seconds... 40 seconds... he keep on kissing me and I don't have any strength to pushed him or I really don't want to push him and stopped him from kissing me.

"Nao" He said gently as we stopped kissing as he softly looking me in the eyes. Like he's asking for permission. I got closer to him and he start kissing me again this time it last longer that I imagine. It was passionate and full of love. His hands crawling inside my shirt. All of the parts he touches is like burning into the fire.

What am I doing? He's drunk.

"Ryuu! Ryuu. I think is not right" I said and push him. Although I really want to be touched by him. I got really embarassed.

"I-I'm sorry. I-I got to go" I said and immediately stood up and took my bag and run for it.

"W-Wait Nao" He said and chased after me but I don't look back until I reached the bus stop.

What are you doing Nao? He's drunk. Get it together Nao. I said repeatedly in my mind as I lean to the window.

The next day we got awkward. I avoided you. On the hallway, to the classroom and I even went to the places where you can't find me.

"Nao, let's talk" you said as you chased me.

It's not the right time to talk. Whenever I saw your face all the memories from that moment flashes back.

"Did you two fight?" Rin asked me.

"N-no" I said

"Why are you avoiding him?" He asked me again.

"It's nothing. I got to go. Bye" I said and run from it as I saw Ryuu walking towards us.

How silly of me right? I stopped going to your house for the tutorial thing. But it still vivid to my mind how I felt on that day and just looking at your face gave me a weird feeling. I got nervous all the time whenever your are close to me. My feet starts running whenever I heard your voice. It scares me.

"Guess your not coming here today to" I said as I hopped in to the bus. I've been waiting for you. And I can't stop waiting although it's been years. I got home in my dark and cold apartment. I didn't turn on the lights. I lay down on my bed looking at the ceiling. I can't forget. I can never forgot those words as you barely breathing beside me.

"Don't be scared. I'm here. I'm not gonna leave you"

"Damn you liar. Just be sure you can fulfill all your promises when i meet you bastard" I said as I placed my arms on my face and my tears flows again. Another night without you feels like an endless winter.