I don’t know what to make of Jacob. Since he has completely moved on with Monique, I don’t think any talks with him is necessary. Even if I blocked his number, he could have done what Monique did. He could have reached out to me before. I just can’t blame myself for running away from him. I was deeply hurt. He was my first boyfriend and first in everything else we shared together.
Ever since that revelation of Monique that they are getting married, I could not control my emotions. It is a good thing I have my job to keep me busy. It was my outlet to forget Jacob temporarily. It is not easy to forget him. I thought I was already doing fine without him. However, any news about him affects me a lot.
I think I need to go to a shrink. I am not doing fine. Deep inside, I am struggling to put
