Ripped Away And Apart

Kafli 17.

The drive home was silent but that is only because Dr. Spinel calmed her down telling her that me talking to him is not so bad. She got into a very heated argument with him but then he calmed her down and I got my phone back. I texted Max telling him that I will talk to him later and he did not answer. When we came home she just went into her room and I stayed outside in the living room watching tv but around dinner time she came out and we ordered pizza. 

“Ana please explain this to me” 

I look at her and sigh, putting down my pizza. 

“I don't know how to explain this mom, when he touches me my skin tingles, when I am close to him I am calm because I know he is there. Yeah we both yell and have tempers but he is just somehow like my other half” I say not really looking at her but thinking about Max. 

“But he kidn*pped you and held you captive in one room” 

“Yeah but that is the only thing he ever forced me to do, he was nice to me and thoughtful”

That made her roll her eyes and look away from me. 

“All men are nice and thoughtful in the beginning but he would have gotten bored with you sooner or later so it is just better that you are home” 

My jaw dropped and I just stare at my mother stand up from the table and walk away from me. The next few days were just silence and family visiting me to see how I am but with every day I miss Max more and more. I can not sleep, eating just feels weird and I am just down. He calls every morning and evening but every time I talk to him, mom leaves the room or turns up the tv if I am in my room. Everyday Max sounds more and more different, he sounds more tired and more flat somehow, I asked him about it but he just denied it. I have not had any attacks since I got home and even though my body is healing very good I am still feeling just somehow wrong. I have been home now a week and I am waiting for Max to call on this lovely Saturday evening. My phone pings and I smile a big smile thinking it is Max telling me he will call soon but then I open my phone. There is a message request on messenger but I don't know the name or the pic so I open it. In the message is a video and a text. 

Told you, you were not imported and he would get bored of you.

I raise an eyebrow because I have no idea what this is so I open the video, on the video is Max's room but there is no one there. Then the door is busted open and Max walks in but right behind him is the girl I hate. She is smiling and almost jumping up and down. 

“Close the door” he orders. 

She does and then turns to him with a straight face now. 

“But what about that other girl?” she asks like she is mad. 

I see Max sigh but he just takes a step closer to her. 

“Shut up and get on your knees” 

She does and he walks all the way to her and she is quick to undo his pants. I just stare at the video of the girl on her knees giving him a b*****b. I feel everything inside me break, I feel my heart turn cold and I just go numb. I feel one tear run down my cheek but I just wipe it away and look around. I am home alone, my first thought is to hurt myself but I think I should not so I stand up and change clothes. While I am straightening my hair, I block his number and him on every social media. He can not call my family anymore because I blocked his number from their phones on the first day. I don't want him to call them if we would ever get into a fight. I look at myself in the mirror and I like what I see. I have my hair straight, red and black makeup and wearing a tight short jumpsuit. I take my phone out and dial a number I know by heart because I could never save it. 

“Hey where is the party?” I ask with a happy cheerful fake voice. 

“Daammm, am I hearing you right? Is that my little Ana bunny baby?” 

I roll my eyes but keep my fake voice. 

“You know it, sugar! Now tell me address and I am on my way” 

“Hahaha alright just meet us downtown on Kiki, I will take some extra for you” 

“Thank you master see you soon” 

“Oohhh daam baby I missed you” 

Then I hang up, I gag a little thinking about him but he has drugs and a party so I need him. He was my main plug when I was into that and doing drugs. He liked me always more then his other girls, he even got jealous sometimes when I showed others interest and that was sometimes a problem. I call an uber and go downtown, I have the image of Max and that girl just plastered into my mind and I just need something to forget. As soon as I get downtown I walk into the club, getting my ass slapped from the bouncer and I roll my eyes. I walked straight to the bar and order six shots and they were not long to go down. I walk around the club looking for my friend and soon enough I hear his voice call my name. 

“ANA!” 

I turn to the right and see him right away, he has his arms wrapped around two girls but they look like they are out of this world. He stands up and I sigh, even though he is a creep and a disgusting guy, however he is so hot. He is wearing a navy blue suit, white shirt with the collar open and black shoes. His hair is longer than from the last time I saw him, but he has it slick back with gel and as he is walking towards me I see that he is bigger as well. He is nowhere near close to Max but he is strong. He walks right up to me and gives me a kiss right on the lips, grabbing my ass and pushing me close to him. 

“There is my bunny, I missed you but I heard you moved to another country” 

I smile at him but before I could answer him, he leans to my ear.

“I was close to go there and bring you back my bunny baby” 

I hold down the shiver that ran all over me, I wanted to throw up from that kiss. It was horrible and I just feel like I should run away. 

“Oh sugar you know you can not hold me down, not even big bad Jónas” I say as I walk past him to the group of people he was with. 

Every single person on the table looks like they have been on drugs for a long time and it is beginning to show on their eyes and body. 

“You two move” he says and they move right away. 

He sits down but before I could find seat he pulls me down on his lap wrapping his arms around me. He gives me a little bite on the shoulder and then he begins to talk to the other people at the table. I have no idea what they are talking about so I poke my nose at his chin so he looks at me. 

“I need a drink, let me go” 

The guys all laugh and wow at me but I don't break eye contact with Jónas. 

“Alright but come right back or I will miss that ass too much” 

I smile at him so he lets me go and I stand up, I get slapped on my ass about three times just walking to the bar but I just breath through it. Usually I would snap at them and give them a piece of my mind but at this moment I am just not up for it. 

“Hey can I get a mango tango?” I ask the bartender and he just nods. 

While I am waiting I look around, I don't know anyone here and I am thankful for that but that made me feel a little lonely.

“Here you go” he says and hands me the drink. 

I hand him some money but he just lifts his hands up saying no, I put a confused look on my face and he point to Jónas and his team. I roll my eyes. I walk back to him and he makes me sit on him lap again and I just do so. I am listening to the story one of the guys was telling when all of a sudden Jónas runs his finger over my lips. I look at him and he is smiling but then he opens his palm and there is a pill there. I smile because even though he is a focking creep I know he would never drug me too much. He would never r**e or drug someone too much, atleast he has those morals. I open my mouth and he puts the pill at the tip of his finger but I take his whole finger in my mouth like he likes it. He moans and I fake a smile at him but I swallow the pill and take a sip of my drink. We start to talk to the people again and when I feel the pill start to work I stand up and make the girls come and dance with me. I get to the dance floor and just dance like no one is watching, one of the girls is dancing very close to me and her touch is burning my skin. She starts to kiss and lick my neck and that really hurt and I just smile now for real because the pain is helping with me forgetting the video. 

“Girls come” Jónas yells over the music. 

The girls quit dancing right way but I keep dancing and ignore him. 

“Bunny! Come!” Jónas says again. 

I look at him and he rolls his eyes and then he lifts up a black box from his pocket and shakes it. I know that box, that box 

I am literally taking a line when the door is busted open and in walk my mom with the police, everyone jump up from their seats and starts running around. I just lay back on the couch and sigh but then a police officer grabs my arm pulling me out of the apartment. They put me in the police car but I am alone in it when it starts moving. I am so high so I don't notice where we are driving until we stop and I stand up from the car. We are not at the police station but we are at the mental hospital but I am so high that I just follow when she grabs my arm and drags me forward. I don't really follow what happened but the next thing I know I am laying on this bed just watching the ceiling and feeling the world turn around.