Althea's
As I go across a long bridge by myself, I can't stop myself from crying. I have no notion why I'm in this place, and I have no prior awareness of the surroundings. It was difficult for me to see clearly as I rolled my eyes because of the tears that were streaming down my cheek. I'm not sure what was making me weep as well.
There are beautiful flowers at the end of the bridge that is beautiful even from a distance, and I'm already smack dab in the middle of the booming field. My gaze was instantly drawn to the river, which was teeming with life and flowing with crystal-clear water. Because the water in the river was so fresh, I decided to stroll to the side of the bridge where it could be seen from all directions.
This is a very secluded, crowded, and windy area. My eyes had grown tired of staring at the river by the time I reached the end of the bridge, so I kept walking. Because I had seen them from a distance, I took a few steps closer to the flowers and plucked a sunflower. It was then that I understood how beautiful they were.
During my time spent appreciating the flowers, a man came up to me and I didn't know him at first.
He is 5'9" tall and weighs 150 pounds, which is a good combination for his size. Only medium in hue, but with a pointed nose and thin lips, he is slim with pale eyes and red lips, as well as thin lips and red lips. His shape was really beautiful.
Sorry for not noticing you before, Miss. It was my fault. When I heard his voice for the first time, I was even more taken aback. I'm not sure why, but I was able to identify it.
As she looked at me with such sad eyes, I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.
"Please accept my apologies, Miss. Was it too painful? Sorry. " With his stare running across my full face, he probed further.
I couldn't find my voice. I tried to speak but nothing came out, so I just shook my head again.
"What are you doing here? Do you know I just saw someone else in my dream?" I immediately turned to him when he told me about the dream.
"What do you mean dream?" Surprised and wrinkled when I asked him.
"It's my dream, this is the place I always think about when I have a problem and every time I fall asleep I go here .. and I'm always the only one here, so I wonder why you're here. I don't understand because it's not I know you. How did you manage to enter my dream? " I was dumbfounded by him, my brain couldn't process what he said.
Is it possible for me to enter into a dream? Someone else's dream? In the course of time, just now again I had a dream. Nakakapagtaka!
"I don't know what you're saying" and I turned my back on him, this one is probably just crazy!
I continued walking, but I noticed he was following me.
"Do you know I'm happy that you're here even though I don't know you? I'm always alone feeling like I've suffocated. It's awkward to be alone. Is it unfair that in reality I'm alone, as well as in my dreams?" He knew for a long time while still smiling ugly.
I slightly looked at him, he was wearing a black v-neck t-shirt, with the words alone in this world .. he wasn't that obvious because the letter was gray.
"Why are you alone in reality? If it's a dream?" I heard her laugh and sigh before answering.
"People who are important to me have left me, my parents died in a car accident, my siblings are already in another country and living there, they don't even greet me. My girlfriend, I thought we were okay and happy, but I was surprised when I surprised him at their house on our anniversary. When I opened his room, I saw them n***d with his man and doing a miracle. What hurts more is that this man is my best friend who I consider my sibling." Her voice was very sad.
"We're the same, but it's not like I'm alone. My boyfriend cheated on me too. We would have been together for four years if he hadn't left me and chosen his woman. The pain of when I need him the most is. He left me. We're happy or maybe I'm just right? He's tired of me because I'm so 'goody two shoes'. He's bored of me. Hahaha "I tried to laugh, and he went to the front. I, so I stopped and he stared at me. "What's that? Why do you look like that?"
"Are you beautiful? He's a fool and he changed you. I can see how good your heart is. Maybe because we're in a dream, there's no anger living there in your heart, with your ex or with his woman. How do you do that? " He smiled at the promise
"Hmm. Maybe it's because my parents raised me, they know I shouldn't send my anger and I shouldn't harbor resentment. It's okay for me to feel angry or any negative emotion, but I shouldn't prolong it because I will be destroyed then. And even though I am hurt, I still understand him and I always pray that he will be happy with whatever decision he makes in life. " I noticed that he could not believe what I said. That's why I laughed at his reaction.
"Wow! Just now I saw a person like you. You are very pure .. you are very pure in love to the point that it's okay to hurt you as long as he's happy. It would be enviable that I could do that too", he smiled, but his eyes were very sad.
"We're the same, but it's not like I'm alone. My boyfriend cheated on me too. We would have been together for four years, if he hadn't left me and chosen his woman. The pain of when I need him the most is there He left me, we're happy or maybe I'm just? He's tired of me because I'm so 'goody two shoes'. He's bored of me. Hahaha "I tried to laugh, and he went to the front I so I stopped and he stared at me. "What's that? Why do you look like that?"
"Are you beautiful? He's a fool and he changed you, I can see how good your heart is maybe because we're in a dream, there's no anger living there in your heart, with your ex or with his woman. How do you do that? " He smiled at the promise
"Hmm. Maybe it's because my parents raised me, they know I shouldn't keep my anger and I shouldn't harbor resentment. It's okay for me to feel angry or any negative emotion, but I shouldn't prolong it because I will be destroyed then. And even though I am hurt, I still understand him and I always pray that he will be happy with whatever decision he makes in life. " I noticed that he could not believe what I said. That's why I laughed at his reaction.
"Wow! Just now I saw a person like you. You are very pure .. you are very pure to love to the point that it's okay to hurt you as long as he's happy. It would be enviable that I could do that too" he smiled but his eyes were very sad niya.
"It's not hard for him to do, for me ha. I'm putting myself in their situation, I'm trying to understand what they're going through even if it's hard ..." I smiled knowingly and looked into his eyes. "I was wondering if I could be in their situation I would be able to do that?"
"You're right, even if I'm in their situation I won't do that I'll choose to be hurt more than other people, I can't let my conscience eat me tho sometimes I make hastily decisions, sometimes I'm selfish too .. but I swear I understand them so I never planted resentment in anyone. And I think that's the problem because I forgive so easily, even they don't apologize. Even though I'm still hurt, I've forgiven them. Because I think that's one of the reasons for speeding up the healing of heart wounds. " Then I pointed to his heart.
"Wow! It's like that's all I can tell you! Hahaha but seriously, you're strong .. forgiving someone is not that easy, it takes a lot of courage and you are mentally capable when you forgive, it must spring from your heart. And I tell you, for someone like you .. you are tough, because I I can't forgive someone that fast, it takes time .. really really a lot of time. of anger. It's hard to forgive for someone like me "he was sitting on the grass and looking up at the sky.
It looks like the weight of the weight he feels. I know for some it’s really hard to forgive, especially if you’ve been hurt by people you thought wouldn’t hurt you and fool you. But isn't that so? Expect the unexpected. What else can your anger do? Just hold back from the past, it will be difficult for you to move forward .. when your anger eats away at you, you sometimes lose yourself and that's not good, you can do things you shouldn't do and eventually you will regret it.
"I know. You can blame and be angry to them, as long as you want but don't do stupid things, don't let your emotions consume you, because maybe when you wake up from the anger you feel it's too late "Everyone, you've done what you shouldn't have done. And that's what's going to make you suffer." I stared at him, he barely turned to me. "You know you can't be free, if there's anger in your heart. You can't move"
"Why did you move on?" I was surprised by his question but I laughed.
"Not yet"
"Eh why are you saying that as if you've already moved?"
"Well, honestly it's not like you know it takes time it's not porket I haven't been able to move yet I'm not free yet .. do you get my point?" He nodded. "If I'm angry, I'll find it harder to move on, maybe what else can I do. I'm not that good, you know. I still love him, nothing has changed, so I respect his decision even if it hurts. me, but because I'm not angry with him or them I don't feel that heavy in my chest. "
"It seems that your heart is free from hatred, you love him but you are not angry with him .. for what he did, that's good. I hope I can handle that too."
"You can, take it easy .. because when there is no anger in your heart you can gradually move forward not so fast at least you're making a progress. It's not really the person that's hard to forget, it's the feeling and the memories that they gave "
I stared at the sky, so calming to feel like there is such a place in reality? I want to go. I closed my eyes and felt the wind.
"By the way, I'm Nixon .. we've talked before but we don't know each other yet." She was smiling at me and now her smile was reaching her eyes.
He immediately shook his head "I don't think you can do that, no matter what they did. It's like you said you're putting yourself in a situation .. think straight, I know you'll still do what's right. " I smiled at his answer, because he was right.
"I'm alt ----"
I suddenly felt intense dizziness as if my body was being pulled.
"Althea !!! Wake up! We're going to eat, we're going to go to work so we don't get sick!" I woke up to Fritzie's slap.
Bwisit na babaeng 'to ang sakit manampal. I got up and looked at him. He pretended to back away and smirked at me.
"Bes!" I called him when he came out of the room, he turned to me "the weird of my dream .. I entered a man's dream."
"Omg! Omg! Is that X-rated huh? Romance? Thriller? Is he handsome?" I even threw a pillow in my face.
"Shunga! No, we're talking and I kind of sympathized with him for his problem like that"
"You can think of a plot in the story that Madam is finishing for you! Write down the deception of your skinny -looking jowa! Then kill him in a morbid way!!" He was still shouting. So I winced.
"You know, let him go. I'm not the one who lost. And as long as he's happy I'm okay there" I sighed.
"I don't know about you! Stupid! Martyr! All right!" He left the room.
I was pissed while looking at the closed door .. in fact the pain I felt even two months ago was still fresh .. I want him back but that's impossible!
So instead of crying I cried again I got up and went into the bathroom, I washed but when I closed my eyes I remembered the man's face. The sadness in his eyes.
"Are you real? Or are you just a dream?"
I just cleared my mind and brushed my teeth. I also took a shower because the locker outside will probably just stare at me.
When I came out, he was already eating and in uniform.
"Eat that, because later when you haven't passed the draft yet, the dragon will hit you again"
Aish! Madam is dreaming of me, it's hard to think of a plot, what does she think of me? Psh.
When we finished eating, Kame left to join the publishing company, Kame took the bus. Tinatry king sleep again because I might see him, Nixon.
When I couldn't sleep I opened my eyes, while the bus was stopped there was someone sitting on the bench at the top of the bus he looked like Nixon !!
That's why I looked at him even though I almost looked out the window.
I can't go wrong! That's nixon! What he was wearing in my dream was also what he was wearing.
When he raised his eyes our eyes met, he stood up and his eyes widened .. he pointed at me.
I was amazed at what I saw. Like what the heck ?? Suddenly the bus started moving and we kept looking at each other. Until he disappeared from my sight.
So it's true, Nixon is true. Omg!