Gabby.
Breakfast was so good I enjoyed it, Lawson gave me my phone to call Adina, I told her I was fine, but Adina being who was, she insisted on getting to know where I was, I didn't want her to worry so I didn't tell her now, I'll tell when I get home.
Am standing Infront of Lawson now for about a minute or two and he's not saying anything neither was I, I wasn't brave enough to ask the questions I have.
I didn't notice before but his study was very large, it was beautiful in here.
"come here Gab" I moved toward him, I was trying to be brave but honestly I am scared of him, and I was doing my best to not make him angry.
He allowed me sit on his lap, I didn't know how to behave now, I haven't experienced this before so I am very nervous right now.
"sit still Gab, if you move, I'll f**k you here, and right now" as if time stopped for me, I didn't move, was that what he is thinking right now. I know this wasn't anything special to him but to me was a was not expected. I didn't think he desires me.
"For today I'll only spank you for the bad manners at the hospital and at...."
I just defended the patient I did nothing wrong.
"But I did nothing wrong I was just protecting the patient" I defended myself.
"You shouldn't get involve in everything you see" yes he was right, I shouldn't have gotten involved
"There were two doctors, with Bernard and non of them even tried to save him, sometimes even the curious cat knows when the situation leads to death"
I did see the doctor there and they were superior than me, come to think of it, what I did was stupid.
"Am sorry" I said I meant it though
"Is too late now, be a good girl and pull down your panty" I immediately tried to stand up from his laps surprise at how shameless he was being right now, but he pulled me back his eyes telling me not to dare.
"I want my woman to be smart, Gab be smart, now pull it, since is your first time, I'll have mercy " . did I hear him call me his woman or, maybe am mistaken.
Was it obvious that it was my first time.
"But we can't work at the hospital again, the rules says ......" did he just roll his eyes, that was so charming.
"Am the rules, we make the rules, and I didn't fire you, am punishing you for what you did and not firing you, stand up love" I stood up, he hug me and before I could protest, my panties were down, he was serious about spanking me.
Well I've never seen him joking before.
He turned me to his laps, he lift my dress, although I couldn't see, I knew my butt was naked, oh this is embarrassing, was he really enjoying this state of mine.
"You're beautiful princess" and getting use to him calling me those, but am really blushing right now.
"You count for me, ok" I didn't know how to respond so I just nod my head.
That when I felt it, it was painful, he spanked me
"Answer me when I ask something ok",
"yes"
I was not ready for an extra punishment so is better I answer.
"Good girl"
he wasn't going as fast as I thought he would, this was torture, he moaned along with me, I can't believe this was happening, I've been thinking of it as a dream but no, this reality, and he was right here.
I know I may seems to be easy going, but this is Lawson and he have been my dream guy since the first day I met.
I know one day I'll have to give up what I've been preserving for so long in name of the right guy, but I've always wished for Law to be my right guy, that's actually why am letting him do whatever he wants even though I know better.
I know that he just sees me, as one of the girls he play around with and he's not wrong somehow because am not stopping him,
One thing leads to the other, maybe if I had stopped the kiss he would have find another way to punish me. it was my will to give him what he want but our meeting would end after the spanking and I hope so, because I know very well that I will never get him for myself.
I didn't notice I was tearing up, I made up my mind to endure this so I don't know why I was crying.
"Gab, baby did it hurt" was this how he treated all the girls he have been with, he should stop it or they will have the wrong idea.
he wipe my tears, he kissed my eyelids, I know best that, I shouldn't deceive myself, coming up with funny ideas, like he cares about me, he's worried and so on.
"did it hurt Gab" I knew he needed the answer but I just shake my head.
" then why are you crying, did I do something wrong" he did nothing wrong, he was really cute when he behave like this.
he opened his drawer and remove something, he helped me turn again and started applying it on my butt, why was I getting my hopes high right now, of course he had other women here, why would he have kept this here for.
"I ..I want to go home"
"I'll send you home, rest on the couch, I'll send you home after you wake up" I got up but I wasn't moving I want to go home before I start getting the wrong ideas.
"not now Gab" did he want more, I wasn't doing this anymore I enjoy being with him but what is the essence of being with him when I know he won't be mine.
"now!"
"Princess, you should never use that tone again with me, am I making myself clear" it was a slow, quite warning but a scary and dominating one. I don't like it when he talks like that, I shouldn't have shouted.
"yes"
"I'll get someone to send you home, dress up" he sounded irritated.
What was I expecting, that he would send me home, am not some princess he would treat differently from others and is not like he gets any benefit from me.
if I got what he said before getting out better, he said, he shouldn't have, was he regretting this already, wasn't I worth it or I did I hear wrong.
I dress up and stood still, my butt was sore, so I wasn't sitting right now, the door opened and an elderly man enter.
"Good morning Miss, Lawson wishes me to send you home"
I wish I could see Lizzy before I go, I should have taken her number after breakfast.
And I should probably warn her Lawson is not what she thinks he was, but maybe he have those he was kind to, and those he treat anyhow, who was I to judge.
it hurt though, here was moments ago thinking he won't ever hurt me.