Never Again

I regret falling for you

" We went to the boutique and God knows why Jessica was already there . Her boy friend got stuck in some work so he didn't show up and so my boy friend was acting too friendly with her . I felt like I was the third wheel and I was disturbing them . He could not get his eyes off her . And then out of no where he thought that I was dictating him and I was trying to control him . I don't know what I should do . "

Rachel thought for a while " I think that you should not be with him . He is toxic for you . he yells at you for no reason . He just uses you as a tool to get over Jessica when he don't want to get over her . "

" Yes but you said that I wanted to be with him so I should make a few compromises and I should show him that I am better for him that Jessica . What about all that ? "

" Yes , I was wrong but you know that I don't make good decisions when it comes to boys . "

" What are you saying ? Finally things are working between you and Jack . "

" Ya . . . . . I broke up with him . "

Emily was not able to believe this " What ? . . . . . When ? . . . . . . How could you not tell me this ? "

" Well you know that was the day when you got together with Matt you were very happy and I didn't wanted to ruin it for you by crying over my story . "

" Are you mad ? You are the most important person to me . You should have told me . And . . . . . Oh God , I am so sorry I have been crying over Matt . Tell me how are you feeling ? Are you fine ? And why did he dump you ? "

" Well you know it is not that bad . Because he didn't dump me I dumped him . "

" What ? . . . . . . . But things were fine you both were going to the prom what happened suddenly . "

" Yeah , I thought about what you said and then I also realized that he was a jerk . I deserve better . He thinks like he is doing a favor to me by being with me . I don't need him . When it will be time the person who will truly deserve me will find a way to me and till then I will wait for him . "

" You are right . . . . . Why should we take s**t from boys . Before they love us they should learn to respect us because there is no love without respect . "

" Exactly "

" I don't need Matt . If he thinks that Jessica is the better girl for him then he should be with her . He has no right to swing e around apparently for no reason . I will break up with him . "

Jessica and Matt were lying on the bed . They both were holding hands . Matt was trying to live in the moment without worrying about the future but it was bothering him what Jessica really wanted from him .

" It was good , wasn't it ? She stretched in his arms .

He kissed her forehead " Yes it was . " He caressed her head gently " Can I ask you something ? "

" Right now ? I am sleepy . " She said yawning .

" Just a small question you can even answer in yes or no . It will help me sleep . "

" Fine say . "

" Do you love me ? "

Jessica took his hands from Matt . There was an awkward silence between the two for a while . Jessica pulled the mattress and wrapped it around her . Matt held her hand " Tell me Jess that you love me . "

" Where did that even come in between from ? " It could been seen from her face clearly that she was not expecting this question and it was making her feel uncomfortable .

" Why are you acting weird ? I just asked a question you can say yes I do and then we can continue living like this but if you say that you don't then . . . . . . . then it will break my heart . "

Jessica got off the bed " I like you Matt for sure . . . . . . I love spending time with you . I love to be in your arms . "

" Wow that makes me feel used . " He said putting back on his clothes and moves to the door . " I don't understand what you want from me . "

Jessica runs and stops his way " No , no , no , you are getting me all wrong . I want to be with you . "