Cosmic Chaos!

The perfect beginning.

Once in your lifetime, you need to have some experiences that can make you see some parts of your life in a different way. You need to take a spiritual journey, sometimes beautiful and sometimes a hard one to appreciate what you have in life and to be grateful you are alive at that exact moment. It had been a while since I was on the bad side of that, experiencing events that even in my worst nightmares I would never thought of. I have been at my worst, but I also got the power to rise back again. And I had realized as time was passing, that one thing that kept me getting back on my feet, was hope. Without hope, we humans would not be able to exist. Hope gives us the strength we don't have. Hope makes us rise back on our feet when we think we are totally finished. And hope makes us find reasons to make every day, a better one.

But at that exact moment, at that date with Nick, I was experiencing the beautiful side of a spiritual journey, a journey that I would never thought I would take. And that gave me strength, gave me power, gave me hope. It was so beautiful to experience and share a feeling with a person, that understands and listens, and makes you the most important person in the world for the moment you are living. You might not be the greatest person, but if you find a person who makes you feel that way, it gives you a feeling that words can't perfectly describe. And at that moment, for me, Nick helped me develop a better side of me that was still unexplored, but in some way, he had the key to that side of me, a beautiful one.

The time was passing quickly, and at some point I wanted to stop it. I didn't want that moment to end somehow. Because if there was a point in that reality that I was feeling the most alive, it was that exact moment. In all my time in this new reality, I had never felt alive. And in that moment, I felt as I was part of that reality the most. But in that moment, I didn't know if it was love or not who made me feel that way. But I guess, I learned as time passed, that love felt that way, and it felt so beautiful. We had been talking hours and hours together. We had taken each other to the best and worst moments of our life. And there was so much more to tell. Looking at the moon and the starts, me and Nick were both time-traveling in some way together. All the things took us back to the some of the greatest and some of the worst moments we both ever had. And I felt as with Nick, we were both flying with the stars place to place. And we were totally enjoying it and we didn't want it to finish.

But everything has an end. Also the moments we never want to end. Sometimes we hope time passes, but sometimes we hope it freezes. But we can't control time, can we? If I could control time, I guess I will never had to ask anyone if I had to travel in that part of the past or in that part of the future. I would just travel. And that is all. But no one, no one is capable of controlling time. We can manage it, but time dictates what our next move should be. The sun was about to rise and we had been talking and talking all night long. Our conversations were getting deeper and deeper and we wanted more and more.

-"See Martha, the sun is about to rise.. When the sun totally rises, we will leave. We have to enjoy this moment too. And you know why? Because first of all, is gonna be a beautiful sunrise and secondly, that sunrise will match the beauty of tomorrow and the beauty of what is starting right here. So that is our start point. And we have to enjoy it, breath deeply and enjoy the tomorrow."-said Nick.

-"I don't want this night to end..."-said I kinda sad at that moment.

-"The night is already ending..But the morning will bring us with warm and happiness. So don't feel sad, I guess now we gonna have more and more time together."

-"I just can hope Nick, just hope..Because I am still insecure about was going to happen next, or if I will be here in the future, or maybe one morning I wake up and find myself in another reality or in the reality I was before. I am still insecure about all the things, and the most I can do is hope, as I did the first time, I ended up in this reality. And that hope I guess took me here and helped me make the right decisions."

-"You just have to know we are doing our best, it is still something very new to us. And with this technology it is going to be hard to find a solution, but I promise that my father is working hard to help you, and I am sure he will be able to find something out of this.."

-"There is no need to promise me anything. I know it, Nick. I am sure that all of you are working hard each day to help me. And it is not something that you are obligated to do, it is something you are doing of your desire to help me. And I will always be thankful, no matter what happens next.."

-"I know I should not make promises I can't keep. But I am making you a promise. No matter the outcome, I will always try to be by your side and help you. And even if you find a way somehow, to go to the future, I will be so grateful I met you, and I will try in some way to make work in the future too. I don't easily give up for the things I want..."

-"Just hope Nick, hope for the best.That is all I want you to do..just hope that things become better for all of us..."

Little did he knew, that the exact promise he made, someday would lead us to a hard decision to make. But that is another story to tell, the time hasn't come yet.

-"So did you find a solution about the asteroid? How will it be able to crash with Earth?"-I asked.

-"For the moment, we have no clue at all. And that thing confuses us. How is that going to be possible at all. It needs some kind of force that the trajectory of that asteroid to come close to our planet and hit it. It is actually quite hard. Because for the moment we are not seeing any other object interfering the way of the asteroid. What we do daily, we make all the calculation possible and as our calculations say, the percentage of that event happening is still the same. Luis has developed some new technology that helps you detect and predict faster, with some excellent mathematical calculation. It is quite on the best but he is still trying to be convinced that his creation is worth doubling and creating more of it. It is still on test. But if it is proven to be working perfectly, it is going to be a multi-milion dollar creation. Luis developed it while on College, but later on, he perfected it, but he is confused at some point right now. Because that device collects all the data needed and predicts quite faster than the whole devices available on market but as time of the crash is approaching, he is still confused why the device isn't predicting anything. Because if we knew how and where it will hit, we may possibly find a solution about it. The faster we know, the higher the percentage we can do something. And as time is flying, we hope that in one year we find something, or it is going to be to late for all of us to prevent on what is going to happen next. And all this work will turn into dust. And we hope we are lucky enough."

-"What do you think happened to me? I know you are working on some other thing but I guess you may have discussed with your father or even develop an idea of yours of what happened to me?"-asked I as I wanted to know more information about me.

-"For me, it is quite confusing on how you ended up here..To be honest, when I first listened to you, well I couldn't believe that. I was telling Luis that this can't be real, like how? But Luis was convinced from your story and some facts that you had given. When I talked to my father, well he was more convinced that Luis. He said to me that we are dealing with something out of our control and that you, Martha, are going to revolutionize the entire science, if we were able to make a discovery out of you. It will be one of those rarely documented time-travelers because most of them have disappeared somehow or their stories have been totally incomplete. That is why he is trying to project you. If the media knew, if the governments knew first, that would make you life a misery. So unless we are sure about this thing, we are not going to make it public to anyone. The only person that may know later are the government people. We don't want to spread words about the end of the world too. You have no idea what it would cause to the markets and companies all over the world. People would go insane. Some would believe, and some not. But it is for sure a fact that if they knew even a little detail, the conspiracy theories would never end. Some will panic, some will not, but for sure that the world we know will collapse faster and before that asteroid hits Earth if they know or doubt something. That is how soft the world and the people are, they don't base their ideas on facts, they need chaos, they need to be delicate or to be desperate and find comfort. And we need to keep you as far from other people as possible. It is a delicate event that needs facts, calculation and ideas. And even if we find the reason why the asteroid is going to hit Earth, we won't make it public yet. Because we will talk to other people, people in whom we believe that the information is going to be fully secret, and even if we find a way on how to solve it, most of the people won't know about it, until the very last day. This is how it works. It is not that we don't want them to know what kind of danger is approaching them, but we don't find it reasonable enough to create more chaos than we should. It is not that we are evil, I think we are reasonable. We try to predict the outcome of everything we do basically, and we know that the outcome of us telling the world with no facts, that an asteroid is going to approach us, we either would be classified with mental problems or probably be jailed for creating chaos, as there rules that can put you behind bars if you spread fake news that make the world collapse, or on the other side, some people would believe us and chaos will approach once again as they will lose their hope and will do things that are unacceptable, just because of the fact that they know they are going to die, so at least let us do some things we have never done before. Or some others would pray and hope we find a solution. So it is very complicated. What is happening right now, with you being here, even if for us looks pretty normal, for other people would be a crazy event. So we would let the know when time comes, as we work in the shadow, trying to protect them. At least when this is finished, maybe they will know, maybe not, but at least we will have done a great thing protecting them all. So until then, we need to work in silence, it is that simple and complicated at the same time..."

I was just being silent, as I knew that most of the things he said were true and he was right. I just had to listen, to be reasonable, because as much as this work matters to me, at some point of me, it will matter to the entire world.

-"You asked me what I think on how you got here..I have two ideas to be honest. Both are just theories because these things arguably most of the time have never been discovered practically. One idea, which I think is quite crazy, is that you got here due to a universal glitch. You know how the computer, games and the internet works. So you are playing and having fun but at some point a glitch happens and weird things happen. So you maybe can win easily while having that glitch or your computer while having a glitch may turn off. It is always dependable on how that glitch happens and where it occurs when we are talking about the technology. What I am trying to tell, is that at some place and point in the universe, a glitch has happened. A major one. And that glitch, as for the rule that what goes round, comes around and the rule of attraction, occurred in different timelines in the universe and in different galaxies. I mean, this would create a domino effect. The generated force of some glitch in the universe which may be an explosion or a collision or something, has generated an unexplainable force which has travelled throughout the entire galaxies, realizing its energy and causing a domino effect on all the dimensions and galaxies. So what I mean is that the asteroid approached Earth at the same time that this energy was expected to come to Earth. So it created an unexplainable force that changed completely the magnetic field of our planet and caused big release of energy in some hot spots on our planet which already are potentially dangerous all the time due to their high risk of having much energy into them. It is this energy that already travelled through the universe or that the asteroid which we are still trying to discover it's a remain of that collision that I told you about. So as long as they travel through the entire universe, that energy will be with them all the time. As it approached Earth, the asteroid, part of the glitch I said to you, has had an unexplainable force and energy, which made Earth's energy go insanely high. And for that fact, with so much high energy and that kind of potential, it has created somehow in that lake, a portal to time-travelling. Because there is not possible to time travel or to teleport if there is not enough energy and speed. There is so much force needed for that to happen and it is actually quite impossible to even think that this energy exists. Because it would be a devastating force. And as you said all the phones were off work that day. Well the energy from the asteroid had already screwed all the satellites up there, as it was entering Earth's atmosphere. Nothing would be able to work and none of us would be able to connect with each other. There would be already tsunamis, earthquakes, fire balls from the sky as the asteroid would burn a few particles in the atmosphere. And it will be for a fact that most of us would be dead by the time you were still alive. And the radio frequency that you received from Luis, I think it may be a registered message meant to be repeated time by time or it was another glitch. It is so hard to explain it in simple terms. This is my first theory. The other one is that the speed you were traveling with your car may have been multiplied with a huge number due to the fact of the energy around the area there. One possibility for time traveling is to travel with that much high speed, that you could just disappear. Let me take a quick example. If you have a car traveling and you capture it on video, and put it on normal speed, you will see the car driving with a normal speed and you will be able to look at it. But if you make the speed higher and higher, in that video you won't be able to see that car. It will just disappear. Because speed coexist with time. If there is no speed, time makes no sense. Earth rotates with a speed, the light coming from the sun travels for at least 8 minutes until it reaches Earth and we can all feel it. It travels with almost 300 million meters per second. So you can find speed everywhere in the universe. But somehow you reached an unexplainable speed and that speed broke the barriers between time and speed. So it was an uncontrollable amount of speed that just make you disappear and until that force of speed was totally consumed, you reached the year you got here into. Because you are not able to control that type of speed and force. If you practically do that and break the fastest speed, no matter the technology, that machinery would be on dust in seconds and with the people in it. Because our human body can't resist that speed. We would get totally destroyed in seconds, but I would be sure that would happen in a few milliseconds. That is how terrible and devastating that kind of speed can be. It just kills every living creature inside of it due to the fact of our human anatomy..."

-"Sorry to interrupt, I somehow understand how this all works but how did I not die, if your theory is this one?"-asked I while I was really trying to understand what he was saying.

-"Let me explain it to you a little more. You didn't die because your car didn't achieve that type of speed. But the impact of your cars speed multiplied with a huge number. And it is not the fact that you car reached that speed, the energy around made the cars speed impact, multiply and multiply as the energy was just raising and raising. It is not the speed you were traveling, it is the impact that the speed while crashing with the water caused. Due to high energy levels, it just broke the entire barrier and somehow until that energy disappeared you were able to arrive here in this reality. If the energy was higher and higher, well you might have ended hundreds and hundreds of years back in the past. So if you could have survived a little more, you might have ended up somewhere really lost in the past. So this is one of the reason I think why you ended up here. It is all theory. Maybe nothing of all I said is true. We don't know much about time-traveling yet. And I am not really specialized in that kind of field. But as much as I can think, maybe it can be one of these two. Maybe not. Or maybe you were just meant to arrive here by a bigger force that we humans can't imagine. Maybe it was destiny. Nothing is known for sure..."

-"I get it. I can't even myself imagine what can cause all this cosmic chaos. But I wonder, why didn't I end up in the future but I arrived in the past? Why that time-traveling didn't take me to the future but took me to the past? I am also confused about this..."

-"I think that I may answer this. There was no future. Everything would be already destroyed and it would take Earth millions of years after that impact to create a living atmosphere. Because the atmosphere would be full of dark clouds and tons of poisonous gases. Also the surface of Earth would be all in fire with the volcanoes erupting and erupting. There would be no future for human beings. So if there is no future for a human creature, how would you be able to be there? We would be just lost species at some point of time in the history of universe that somehow existed in the universe. It doesn't make sense for you to be part of the future when you aren't possibly existing as a planet and as creatures. So that moment you time-travelled it was the end of the existence for human beings. No future. That was the end. As we have had a beginning, that would be a beginning for other creatures to exist after millions of years in our planet. So if things have ended, you die, how are you going to see the future? You won't. Because there is no future when you stop existing. That is why time limits us a lot. We have a beginning and an end. What keeps us alive is the fact the we never know when the end will come. So you were meant to travel into the past, I guess you had no other choice besides that. Future would not exist at all. So if there was no future, I mean where else would it take you besides the past?"

-"I guess, what we are doing right now, will impact all the lives on Earth..."

-"Probably it will be a new beginning or an end for all human creatures. It depends on how we do and the things go."

-"I guess I have been a little egoistic, this is not only about me, this is so much bigger than I thought. This may be the end of our existence. And somehow it is on our hands to save and protect the people. I had been worrying so much about myself that I forgot what would happen to the rest of the world..."

-"You are not egoistic. But we are used to think of the good of ourselves than the good of all the people. And I can't blame you, you have been through enough, and if it wasn't for you coming back to the past, I guess we would never knew and we would have had 0 chances of surviving. So you aren't egoistic, you are the reason we might survive for some thousands of years more in the universe. And we will be capable to develop new technology and new theories that we never knew that existed, if everything goes as planned. So I guess you are our chance for us to survive now, so I would not allow anything bad to happen to you..."-said Nick as he hugged me trying to tell that there were so many reasons he would not let me go.

-"As I talked about new beginnings, look at the sun, it is rising...The day we find a solution about the future events, that day we know how to fix it, I will take you here and we are going to see again the sunrise, as the new beginning for all the human creatures. But this time this sunrise will symbolize our new beginning, trying everything we have on our hands to make each other better, to be by each other, and find a solution to make it work..isn't it beautiful...?"

It was beautiful, it was magical. It was one of those endings and beginnings that give you hope about everything. What goes down, may rise again. And that is how life works. It may have been the ending of that beautiful night, but it was also the beginning of a greater thing. Was it love? Was it hope? The air had never felt any fresher filling my lungs. Fresh thoughts on my head. Fresh reality. It was a journey of big emotions that night, that you may never experience in many years in your life. Your life doesn't change because of the fact that time passes and you grow up. Life changes because of this specific moments at some point of time in the universe, that give you a new perspective on how things will be. And those specific moments live forever in the universe, doesn't matter if you are alive or not, at some point of time, in the universe's history, that moment mattered, to one, two or more people. It doesn't matter if you are lost on time, and you feel as you are not living in the right reality. All you need is one moment, one moment to exist forever in the universe. That sunrise will forever remain in my memory. But not only in my memory. That sunrise will remain forever important. It was one of those moments that impacted the entire universe. You get lost in time, maybe sometimes you feel you are just a small thing existing for some time on universe. But we are much bigger. Every decision we make, every moment we live, impacts the universe's energy. We are small but at the same time we are so much bigger than we think. Because we have an entire universe inside of us. An universe full of energy and emotions. But we can't see clearly until moments like this impact us forever. That is when we decide to be greater and bigger. It doesn't take years to remain forever in the universe. It takes just a second to be an unforgettable creature. Because you make your own reality. None tell you what you should do. Nor the universe, not the giant forces. It is that force inside of you that decides. That is why decisions are so hard to make. Because their impact is much bigger than we think, but we always forget the force they have. We coexist with time, and time would never make sense without us in it. As much as we need time, it needs us too.

There are some moments that make the universe stop. The last hug for the night that Nick gave me, that kiss on my forehead, made the time stop. I wasn't traveling in time, I wasn't controlling it. But that moment made the universe stop and write that moment on its timeline. I guess some things are meant to exist forever in the universe, and some others make the time freeze. Or maybe both. I mean, we never disappear in the darkness and in the infinite places on the universe. We are just meant to exist somewhere for a reason. And I guess I was meant to travel back in time and to be there, for a bigger reason. A reason that words would never be able to express it.