Ryder's PoV :
I felt my heart sting at the hearing of Simon's words, wondering how much persuasion would be needed for Carter to forgive him. What if Carter's love for Simon was deeper than the one for me and he decided to bring him back into his life and give up on me? They shared so many memories together, who knows how many firsts? What did I have to offer though ? I was an inexperienced virgin with the looks of a playboy and the judgement of a child. I was shy, but easily angered, impulsive, goofy and naive... Could someone really like this mix?
I looked at the ground, wishing I could evaporate into this agonizing hollow of silence. It was torturous to even breath louder than the others, thinking that you might intrude their chains of thoughts. Chains which not only
