LOVE BEYOND BORDERS

Photo brother is using you

Fuzhi stared at me coldly, this is the first time I have seen so much anger and hatred in his eyes. I don't mind if Lin hates me as I expects it from him but Fuzhi I can't bear to loose his trust.

Ammu : Fuzhi, let me explain...

Fuzhi : "" "(still in fierce look)

I didn't know how to explain to him so I just stood there with my head lowered out of guilt. Suddenly he held my forearms and pressed me to the pillar, and grinding his teeth he said.. Explain Ammu... Explain.... (shook her)

I cried and said, Fuzhi.... I.... Iam sorry(held his forearms) Fuzhi, I haven't done this purposely and not to cheat anybody. Its just to make myself comfortable. Fuzhi Iam scared to look beautiful so I made my face look ugly and displeasing , I wear such dress to cover my entire body so as to remain unappealing.

Fuzhi looked at Ammu doubtfully all confused....

"I swear upon God (pinching my throat), if you want you can ask grandpa. Enquire about me in my school, colleges or anywhere. None of them know that I have a clear face ,please believe me Fuzhi."

Fuzhi went without saying anything to me. I stood their watching him leaving.

I returned to the backstage downhearted and Kitchu came to me and held my hands. He said he wanted to talk to me a lot but he had to leave today itself as have another concert in Singapore. He took my phone number and gave his international number. Kitchu's real name is Sahil Varma and he is a renowned bollywood singer and internationally known violinist . He is too passionate of music but I didn't expect him to be here today.

Kitchu : Sister, how is my brother in law, are you happy with him.

Ammu : (sighed). Yes Iam very happy....

Kitchu : I haven't seen him yet, alas May be the time is not ripe.

Ammu : (Smiled) When are you leaving..

Kitchu :Tomorrow early morning is the flight, we will head to airport now. I came to say bye to you. Sister Iam sorry for revealing your face, I saw all that happened in the corridor with that lady and the guy and that two girls were eager to see your face . I thought you should no more be bullied by anybody. So I did like that, Iam sorry sister.

Ammu : it's fine Kitchu.... Anyway it's not possible to hide it for my entire life.

Kitchu hugged me and said bye.... I watched him moving away from me.I was happy atleast he didn't know that it was Lin who was shouting at me. Now Iam left all alone and I didn't know where to go, earlier Fuzhi was there to help me, but now I broke his trust and ruined our relationship. Today everybody left me, the oasis in the desert became a mirage in the very next moment.

I walked out of the hotel and it was raining mildly, I raised my hands to hold the rain drops standing in the porch. A black BMW car came closer to me and stopped. It was Fuzhi, he got down from the seat and opened the door for me without looking at me. I got in and buckled the seat belt. He got in and drove the car.I looked at him sideways, I could still feel that he thinks me as faithless and my eyes became moist at the thought of that.

I looked out to the window and saw that the car is moving in the way to Lin's villa.

Ammu : Fuzhi..please don't take me to home.....I don't want to go there.

Fuzhi :"" "

The car still went forward and I sat there in silence, now I lost my liberty on him, I can no more compel him like before. Earlier he used to satisfy all my wishes no matter how small it be. Tears rolled down my cheek and I was about to wipe it with my hand, Fuzhi offered me tissue to wipe my tears. I took it from him and gazed out to the darkness, car turned towards a riverside and stopped.

Ammu : Fuzhi, are you still angry with me. you don't believe me, right.

Fuzhi : Ammu, even if you are saying a lie, I will accept it.

Ammu : Fuzhi....

Fuzhi : You silly.... Are you crazy my goodness.....

Immediately Fuzhi received a call and spoke something in Chinese. After seriously replying to the call he asked

Fuzhi : So tell me, where do you want to go now.

Ammu : Take me to my apartment, today I will stay there.

Fuzhi : Ammu, wherever you be second brother will find you, then why...

Ammu (interrupting) that's what I want, I won't go myself, let him take me home.

Fuzhi : You are too stubborn....

He took me to my apartment and I went inside and immediately took bath and wore another churidar which I have left there . I called grandparents but Chinnu answered the call. She told grandparents are in temple to attend the festival. They gave phone to her as mobile phones are prohibited inside the temple.

Ammu : Where are you now....

Chinnu : Can't you see Iam sitting inside the car, waiting for them. They will come now. Bhaskaran uncle(standing outside) is there with me.

Ammu : so anything to report..... My. CCTV

Chinnu : Yes sister, Last week I saw grandma crying, They were talking about some email for grandpa. I heard grandpa asking "did you give it to the child(Ammu) , without fail".

Ammu : email! What email!

Chinnu : that I don't know..... But they seem worried. Sister will you be angry with me... I want to tell you something..

Ammu : No tell me vaava(baby)

Chinnu : I told Kitchu brother that you don't have scar... Sorry sister... (pinching her ears)

Ammu : it's alright Chinnu, but don't tell to anybody else. I believed that you never shares my secret to others, but you deceited me haah...

Chinnu : No sister, it's because he is your brother...

Ammu : yes but he is my cousin brother.. Why did..

Chinnu : interrupted.. No sister he is your own brother...

Ammu : What....

Chinnu : Do you remember the day when shanthy aunty shouted at Grandpa that you will take Kitchu brother away... You went out to the house pond crying, I overheard their quarell ... Grandpa told shanthy aunty that it's Mini aunty's (Ammu's mother) grace that Shanthy aunty is having till now.

After Kitchu brother's birth Mini aunty had some illness so she was not able to take care of baby and at that time Shanthy aunty's baby died on birth, to save her from depression they gave Kitchu brother to her. She looked after Kitchu brother as her own son, when Mini aunty became healthy she refused to give back the child. Kitchu brother was also attached to aunty thinking her as his mother.

Everbody was scared to reveal the truth to Kitchu brother as Shanthy aunty may become insane if brother leaves her. So he was upbringed as their son. That's why aunty gets angry when everyone says he looks exactly like Siva uncle(Ammu's father).

Ammu (whimpers) :Kitchu is my brother.... I...... How will I tell him..

Chinnu : Sister, that day Kitchu brother also heard everything....grandpa thought since we all were practicing in courtyard and also at late night we won't go to his room, so they just spoke out their mind.

Ammu remember that Kichu was also there when she was about to go from there. May be that's why he came to talk to her... Ammu cried thinking how she treated him that day when he came toq talk to her in house pond.... Today also he said he want to talk a lot to her.....

Chinnu : Sister don't cry, then I will not tell any more secrets to you..

Ammu : No chinnu, Iam happy... I have my own brother in this world....

Chinnu : Own !... Then what about me.....

Ammu :Oh chinnu kutty..... You are always my cutie pie my vaava(baby).... Only mine.... Ok

Ammu : Chinnu, you didn't tell me who made that sound in the house pond when me and Lin was there....

Chinnu : It's grandma...

Ammu : What.... (covering her mouth with shawl and closing her eyes tightly)

Chinnu : Sister, I heard grandma telling to grandpa that Photo brother did vulgar things to you in front of her, even after he saw her standing at the door.

Ammu: (astonished and her nose soured) Chinnu what did you say....

Chinnu : When grandma made that sound I ran from there and was hiding under the stairs, grandma cried and told grandpa that you are having relationship with the photo brother and is beyond limits. She said Photo brother is just using you, he has some other purpose otherwise he would not have behaved so in front of grandma... Sister is it bad to hug in front of elders...

Ammu could no more bear the truth, she said to Chinnu "I will call you later ,we can talk then... Bye dear

Chinnu : Sister are you angry with me.... Did I worry you...

Ammu : No chinnu, you opened my eyes.... Bye dear goodnight.....take care

Ammu after hanging the call cried her eyes out..... She no more wanted to go to Lin. She everyday cherishes that moment she had in the house pond , she never thought that it was shameful and disgusting. Her cherishing memories were thorns to her grandparents.

Now I understood why grandpa told i had made a wrong decision... I hate you Lin... I hate you.... .... But I don't know why I still love you... Jerk....

Ammu immediately switched off her phone as she know he will track her location. She took her handbag and left the apartment soon and walked through the street aimless.

I was so desp that I didn't bother to go out at late night, it was almost 10:30 pm. Since it was weekend the streets were busy. I went to the nearest shop and bought a long sleeve trench coat and wore over churidaar so that nobody notices me easily in my attire . I felt like someone is following me, may be Iam feeling such insecurity as Iam trying to hide myself .

I continued walking and saw the familiar Limousine heading to the apartment. I lowered my head and walked with hands digged inside the pocket. I couldn't leave without checking what they were about to do so I turned back and walked towards the apartment until I could see the apartment from a safer distance that they won't find me.

It was dark in the corridor so I could see only the dark figures moving along the corridor and someone entering the room, may be its Lin. After few minutes the lights were blown and could see people moving inside. Since there was window curtain the vision was blocked.

Later I saw a dark figure standing in the balcony and looking down to the streets. Even In that darkness I could easily recognise the person by his posture, it's my beloved husband. I looked at him with moist eyes from the footpath. I felt like he is looking into my eyes and suddenly he went inside,. I got afraid whether he had seen me, so I walked back fast crying, my vision blurred with tears and I bumped into a broad chest but I didn't raise my head and cried... It was Fuzhi... When I was about to walk forward without looking at the person I hit, he held my wrist... I sobbed on seeing him, I said hug me Fuzhi... Please....

Fuzhi hugged me and I don't how unknowingly I kept my hands on his chest so that my chest doesn't touches his. I rested my head on his chest and stood there and saw the Limousine crossing us and Lin looking outside with phone on his ears. He didn't see us as he was just looking out and was not looking for me in streets,may be he didn't expect me to move out late night.