Honey (bxb)

~49~

Jesse

"J-Jesse?" Tristan called me, his voice barely above a whisper for me to hear.

I felt my vision blur. s**t! I can't cry now. Not in front of him.

So I ran. I ran as fast as I can. I heard him call my name. He is chasing me but I didn't look back.

I heard heavy footsteps behind me. Damn! his long legs.

I felt my hand being grabbed by him and I flew back to his arms.

"NOO!!" I thrashed around in his arms. "Let me go!!!" I cried and struggled to free myself. He didn't listen, of course.

"P-please listen to me. Please...give me a chance. P-please..." His voice broke as he whispered the words into my ear. He was hugging me from behind. I felt something wet on my shoulder.

Wait, is he crying?

I thought for a moment before taking a deep breath and relaxing in his arms.

"Okay," I said, looking down. I felt him lift his head from my shoulder."Let's talk," I said removing his—now losen—hands from my waist.

"Thank you," I heard him say but I didn't respond and walked to the nearest bench I saw.

He sat down next to me but kept a fair distance from me. I stared straight ahead, not bothering to look at him. I had to talk to him sooner or later so why not now.

"I'm sorry....God, I'm so sorry. I swear I didn't mean to hurt you. I would never want to hurt you intentionally. It was all just a mistake. I-I... It's all my fault. I should've told you... I'm sorry," He frantically apologized.

I looked down with a pained smile. "It's not your fault," I said and took a deep breath before leaning back to look at the sky. "There was this kid named Jacob. He was my classmate in middle school. He was a cool kid. Everybody liked him... So I was really surprised when he said he wants to be friends with me. I was the silent kid in my class....so nobody really made the effort to hang out with me. He was really nice. We hung out, played video games, and did all the school projects together......"

"One day.... he stopped talking to me. Like completely ignored me. I was confused. I tried to talk to him but he didn't even look at me. One day he got annoyed and told me to leave him alone. He told me that he didn't want to be friends with me. It was all just an act so he could get high marks in the project. Teaming up with me was the best option cause I was the nerd in the class.... An easy target." A humorless chuckle left my mouth as I wiped my tears.

"Dylan is my best friend. We basically grew up together. He moved to my school when we started high school. It was nice having him with me. I finally had a friend to talk to in school.

Then Paul came.... We met when we were cleaning the library. He was a popular guy at school. Had the looks and all. He hung out with us most of the time. He was a funny guy and really liked books. He complimented me daily for almost everything about me. He........ " I trailed off thinking about those days and how stupid I was then.

"He was my first crush. A-and I told him about that....I told him that I liked him and h-he just laughed at my face. He called me names that I don't want to say out loud. Apparently, the reason he hung out with us was because of a bet. A bet to prove that I was gay...... and he proved it to the whole school.

They bullied me, called me names, and trashed my locker to make my school life hell... " I looked down. It was some memories that I wanted to forget. "But this is different. I-I was really happy. I thought you were the one. I was finally confident for once in my life. We were so close. B-ut then-then—" I broke down, sobbing into my hands. "I-it's all m-my fault. I s-should've know-" I was cut off by Tristan kneeling in front of me and taking my hands. He was crying. He looked exhausted.

"I'm sorry..." He looked down. "I admit I'm a douche.... I-I had a crush on your sister for a long time. But she never even looked at me. So Jake came up with this plan to get her attention and that was to be friends with you.... Only friends. But whenever I spent time with you, I couldn't help but feel these things for you. I was attracted to you in ways that made me lose my sleep. You are so cute and gorgeous I just couldn't stop myself... " He looked at me and caressed my cheeks.

"The day when I kissed you, I vowed to never go after your sister. It was just you and me from thereon. You turned my world upside down. I just wanted to be with you all the time. I-I admit that I was scared. It was all new for me..." The rain finally poured.

Tiny raindrops flowed down his face mixed with his tears. We were both getting wet but neither of us cared. "All my life I thought I was straight and then you came and made me forget everything. I didn't say Jake about what happened between us. I was scared. I wanted to be sure about what I'm feeling. That's why you heard us talking about those things... But now I'm sure... Four days without seeing you and hearing your voice, knowing that you probably hate me right now was hell. It gave me the time to come to terms with my feelings........a-and Jesse, I-I like you... I like you so much that it hurts. P-please believe me. Please....." He cried, clutching my hands.

"T-Tristan..." He looked up, his eyes wide, waiting for my words. "I like you too... " I whispered and that was all it took for him to slam his lips into mine.

Tadaaa ╮(╯▽╰)╭