I couldn't sleep last night. I spent hours just watching Patrick sleep, committing his peaceful state to memory. The rest of the time I spent second guessing my decision, but no matter what I tried to tell myself, I couldn't talk myself out of this. It feels like I'm being drawn to Kerry, like I have no choice.
I got up early, before Patrick woke, to finish packing in the dressing room. I hide my bag in the closet near the front door and sit down for breakfast, trying to act as normal as possible. I'm too nervous, I'm afraid I'm going to give myself away.
Angie serves me bacon and eggs for breakfast and I thank her more than usual. I just can't calm myself, horrible thoughts run through my mind. What if this all goes wrong? What if something happens to Jessica and I, and we don't make it
