KABANATA 3
Fairytale (2)
If I tell you would you believe me? I wanted to tell you but I can’t say it, it would only break your heart. I say it on my mind while staring at my mother. I shifted my gaze I can’tkike to my mother, but I know that it would break her heart. God! I’m torn.
“Honey, I know that you have a deeper reason kung yung pintura lang sa kwarto mo ang rason.” She really can read me easily. Why so transparent Paradise?! “Tell me Hindi, what is it?”
I don’t have any option though, I just need to take it slowly. A take a inhale and exaggeratedly exhale. Natawa naman si Mommy sa ginawa ko. “My, anong gagawin mo pag Ang isang tao ay nagtaksil sa iyo, kahit kasal na kayo?” tanong ko. Naging seryoso naman ang mukha ni Mommy.
“Bakit mo natanong anak? Kasal ka na ba para tanungin ako niyan? Or did you secretly married and now he is cheating? Magiliw na tanong ni Mommy. Alam kong may hinuha na ito kung saan ito patutungo. She just wanted it to be like I was joking.
Ngumiti ako para hindi masyado itong ma tense. “Ofcourse My, dapat pag kasal na ako alam niyo, dahil kayo po ang kasama ko sa pag pa-plano nito.”
Mommy let out a sigh. “May pakiramdam ako kung saan ito patutungo Ise. Spill it.”
“My, please believe me, hindi ko to gawa-gawa lang, I saw it with my eyes. I cannot afford to make this but this is true. So My please believe me.” Pagsumamo ko.
“Okay, I would believe you. So now Ise tell me.” Mommy caress my cheek gently.
“My…” a pause before spilling it. “…nakita ko si Daddy na may kasama na babae sa isang restaurant sa mall na pinuntahan namin nila Marah, Shaine, and Eva. My nagsusubuan sila. I didn’t believe my eyes, but My I took pictures of them and I reviewed it a hundred times but it’s true.” nag-uunahan sa ang mga luha ko padausdos. “My, I’m sorry kung iniisip ninyo na nagsisinungaling ako, pero My kahit ilang beses kong baliktad baliktarin ang picture pero My hindi eh, ganun parin, walang nagbago.” hikbi ako ng hikbi habang nakatungo. As much as possible ayaw kong tignan si Mommy. It will just make me feel more the guilt.
I heard Mommy chuckled. Naguguluhan kong tinitigan si Mommy, shouldn’t she feel sad and cry because of what Daddy did? Ba’t tumatawa pa Ito? “My, is there something wrong of what I said?” naguguluhan parin akong tumingin dito.
“There’s nothing wrong honey, but soon you will understand why your father did those things.” Sabi nito. She gently caress my face. “ Your eyes are just like your father, so dark that a person could fall and lost in that eyes of yours.” Ngumiti ito.
“My, okay lang sa iyo yun?” Inis na tanong ko. I cannot believe it, I just said the biggest fear of a wife to her husband but it seems like it’s just nothing to her. Oh God! Pano ko pa ba ito iha-handle?
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