The Lycan Alpha Queen Warrior

He kissed Me!

I’m walking back to the pack house deep in thought. What the hell happened. Did AJ really just kiss me??? Did I really kiss him back??? Someone please pinch me and tell me this is a dream.

“Heyyyy whatcha doing?”

“Earth to Crystal!”

“Oh hey A what’s up.”

“I’m board! Entertain me.”

“What?” I say laughing.

“Entertain me.”

“With what?”

“I don’t know that’s your job.”

“Um I don’t know. Want to go for a swim?”

“Ooh that sounds amazing. I’ll meet you there.”

This should help. I need to get my mind off of AJ and that kiss. I shouldn’t of kissed him back. But I couldn’t help it. He makes me feel comfortable and alive. The way my body responded to him was nothing like how I have felt before. To know that he saw me at my worst state and didn’t judge me for it makes him even more attractive.

He was so dominant but gentle at the same time. Those lips were so juicy and soft. The way he bit mine was hot and the way my body reacted was amazing. And those abs. God I might be blind but holy cow did those abs feel great. That six pack is filling up more since uncle Lucas has him training more; I can feel it.

I meet Alice at the pool and I hear her giggling. Ooh god who did she invite.

“Hey there sis. Look at you and that bathing suit. Dam your hot.”

“Thanks A.”

“Hey pumpkin.”

“Hi Jereme.” I say awkwardly

Ugh why is he here I thought it was just going to be Alice and I here.

“Heyy Jereme.”

“What’s up Diana.”

“Hey sis why is your lip swollen?”

“Ooh um. I bit it on accident. It’s ok though I’m fine.”

“Nice bathing suite Gonzalez. Where did you get Kids R Us?”

“Nice one Diana.” Diana’s how friends say

“Thanks girls.”

“Loook here b***h leave her alone before I knock your teeth out.”

“Alice it’s ok. She’s just mad that I can actually fill in a bathing suit. Now if you all excuse me I’m going for a swim.”

I dive into the pool letting the water hit my skin, man I forgot how relaxing swimming is.

“Hey Alice pick it up.”

“You got it sis.”

Alice picks up the music and I hear Lu and Mikey come into the pool area laughing like how they usually. I’m so relaxed it’s crazy. Can this day get any better.

I mean I had my first kiss with one of my best friends. Should it had happened, I don’t know, but it did. I’m happy it was AJ though. Aw man but what if he didn’t like the way I kissed. Oh my god what if I was a horrible kisser and that’s why he bit me. s**t what do I do now.

“Hi princess.”

“Hi”

“How have you been?”

“Fine and you?”

“Fine.”

“Ok. Well I’m gonna go.”

“Wait!”

“Please don’t go. I haven’t talked to you in a long time and I’m sorry if it’s awkward.”

“It’s fine Lu don’t worry about it. Look I’m fine I just have a lot going on right now. Plus I heard your conversation with AJ and you shouldn’t have yelled at him. I’ll see you later Lu.”

“Wait Crystal please. Look I’m sorry but…”

“But what Lu? It wasn’t called for. I have a lot going on and you could if asked me instead of yelling at him. Look I gotta go.”

“Princess I’m sorry. Crystal I said I’m sorry.”

I walk out the pool bumping into something hard. Good I really hope it wasn’t another wall. Two walls in one day, that’s more than enough.

“Hey there sunshine.”

“Oh god. Your out!”

“Yea Lu and Mikey picked me up about a hour or two after you left today. Aren’t happy to see me sunshine.”

“Um yea. I um.”

“Hey what’s wrong.”

“Nothing. I gotta go.”

“Wait where are you going? This was your idea sis.”

“It’s fine have fun without me. Ok bye guys.”

I grab a towel hoping it’s mine and run out. That was awkward. God he saw me in my bathing suit. What if he doesn’t like my body?

Great now I’m more anxious than before. Ugh why is my life so complicated. I go to my room to clean myself up. I put on some comfy pjs and decided to go to Sammy’s room. I really miss my brothers.

“Hey Sammy.”

“Hey mama’s. What’s up.”

“Nothing I wanted to see what you were up too.”

“I’m just playing Xbox with Max and Dave.”

“Ok babe.”

“You ok mamas?”

“Mmm hmm.”

“Hey what’s wrong. Why you crying? Guys something wrong?”

“I’m sorry I’m soo sorry. I shouldn’t have came. I’m sorry mini mi.”

“What’s wrong sis.” Max’s asks

“Nothing I’m fine.”

“Hey Crystal what’s up. Why you crying?”

“I’m fine guys. I just missed you. I really missed you guys.”

I hug all three of my brothers and I can feel the tears come down my face. I haven’t been there for them the way I should be. I’m keeping my brothers in the dark completely about what’s wrong with me. I’m a horrible sister.

“Hey how about we go watch a movie.”

“What about your game Sam?”

“Max is right. How about you guys play in here and I watch you guys.”

“You sure sis.”

“Yea it’s fine guys finish your game I’ll lay in bed and watch.”

I get comfy in Sam’s bed and lay there hearing them play. God I wish I could see their faces. But based off their screams I can already picture it. Max is ready to throw a fix at the tv, Dave is trying to save his men and hid at the same time, and Sam my poor Sam is getting gained up on by Max and David.

I miss their laughs, their screams, but most importantly their smiles. I miss seeing their faces. Everyone has been more tense around me and it needs to stop. This kiss with AJ just made things more complicated though. I need to make things right. Man Sammy’s bed is so comfy and soft. I feel a kiss on my cheek making me smile and I end up drifting into my sleep.

The next day:

“Hey sis good morning”

“When did I fall asleep last night?”

“I don’t know but you fell asleep and then started crying. Is everything ok mamas?”

“Yea babe everything is fine. I’m going to go get dressed and head downstairs for some food before training.”

I give my little brother a kiss on the cheek and let him finish getting ready for the day. I on the other hand head directly downstairs because my stomach is growling like there’s no tomorrow and I’m not turning away regular food when my body asks for it.

“Morning everyone.”

“Hey baby girl good morning.”

“Ms. Abigail it smells really good. Can I help you in something ?”

“Someone’s in a good mood this morning?”

“Don’t push it Mikey. I haven’t had my breakfast yet.”

“Thats my girl. She’s back.”

“Whose back Mikey.”

“My little one is back.”

“Hey princess.”

“Hi Lu.” I say avoiding eye contact

“Hey sis how you feeling?” Max asks me

“Hey baby. I’m fine. It’s nothing for you to worry about. I promise.”

We all start to serve ourselves and I’m hit with his scent.

“Hey look who it is Mr. Bullet proof.”

“Hey guys. Hey sunshine.”

“Hi” I say looking down at my plate

“Your hungry that’s great.” AJ says picking me up and spinning me around

“Yea just a little. I’ll be in my office if you guys need me. Excuse me.”

“Wait baby girl please stay and eat with us.”

“Uncle Xavier, it’s ok. I really don’t mind.”

“Please stay. It’s been a while since you’ve been here with us.” My uncle Xavier says hugging me

I nod my head agreeing and I can hear chairs moving. Ms. Abigail calls my name so I can follow her voice and sit down without hurting myself. I take a seat next to Sam and Max with AJ directly in front of trying to play footsie.

On my plates I had a waffle with some strawberries, bananas and some maple syrup. Then on another plate I had some bacon, eggs and some fruit. I haven’t had a breakfast like this is such a long time it was delicious. Well it was until I didn’t start to feel good.

“Sis you ok, you look a little pale.” Max says

“Mmmhm yea I’m fine babe.”

“Mamas you sure you ok?”

“Mmmhm”

Breath Crystal breath. You need to keep this food inside. Nope! Nope that’s not happening. I get up from the breakfast table and run to the bathroom slamming the door behind.

I start puking everything I just ate. It’s even coming out of my nose. I hear my grandma knocking on the door asking if I’m ok but I can’t speak. I’m puking my guts out and it’s starting to hurt. I don’t feel good. I need blood. Once I was able to stop puking I clean myself off and break down crying. Here I am thinking I was actually getting better. I’m so stupid for having that thought cross my mind. I make my way to the kitchen and I feel everyone tense up.

“You ok baby girl.”

“Yea uncle Xavier I’m fine.”

“Ms. Abigail please take me my things to my office.”

“Mija estas bien?”

“Si ma estoy bien.”

“Princess come here let me feel you.”

“Uncle Lucas I’m fine. I just need to go get some stuff done.”

“Ms.Abigail please.”

“Yes Miss. Crystal. It will be there in 5 minutes.”

Why. Why did I even think that I was going to be able to hold down the food. I’m so stupid.

****knock Knock****

“Come in”

“You can just leave it there. You can go. Thank you.”

I feel arms wrap around me and I know exactly who it is. Why. Why is he here. I don’t want him to see me this way.

“Hey what’s wrong.”

“Nothing. What do you need AJ?”

“Hey hey hey. What’s wrong?” AJ says cupping my face.

“Nothing AJ just go.”

And he does it again. I’m puddy in his hands. Ugh.

“AJ please stop. We can’t”

“But I don’t want too.”

His lips taste so good against mine but I can’t. Especially after I puked my guts out 10 minutes ago. I give him bunny kisses and I can’t help myself. I need more of him but I can’t make things worse right now. People are always going to try and kill me and now that I’m blind I don’t need anyone taking hits like that for me. I need to end this.

“AJ please.”

“What’s wrong sunshine.”

“I’m sorry AJ. I shouldn’t of kissed you. I’m your queen and right now I can’t do this. I’m sorry.”

“What do you mean you can’t do this.”

“No AJ stop.”

“Hey hey hey. Look at me. What’s wrong. What’s going on in that head of yours?”

“That’s the thing AJ I can’t see you.”

“Then feel me sunshine. Please give us a shot.”

“I’m sorry AJ I can’t. Everything is really tense and this, this won’t help anything.”

“Sunshine please.”

“No AJ. Now please I need to get back to work.”

I hear him close the door behind him and I break down into a million pieces. Why do I have to be so stupid. He can’t be with someone like me. Im broken. He deserves someone whole and who can give him what he wants and needs. Im not her. I’m not even close.

I destroy my office throwing everything. I hear shattering of glass everywhere. I hear hear things breaking all around me. I sit in a corner and just cry it out until I had no more tears left.

I walk into my bathroom in my office and stand by the sink. I’m a complete mess. I punch the mirror above the sink and I hear the glass shatter. I feel the blood run down my knuckles, dripping off on to the floor.

I clean my myself up and change into some work out cloths and get ready for my training. On my way out to the grounds I find Ms. Abigail and let her know I need my office cleaned. She sees my puffy eyes and asks me if I was ok I of course said yes no matter how shattered I felt.

Making it to the training ground I hear my uncle Lucas yelling at the warriors to pick up their speed and be more accurate with their moves.

“Ready princess?”

“Yes sir.”

“Your with Mikey today.”

“Ok.”

Mikey and I take our stands and I throw the first punch; giving him a right hook. He does a double leg take down knocking of my feet putting me in a choke hold. I give him a couple of elbows to the ribs with a head butt. Mikey releases me I give him a round house kick making me win our little sparring session.

“Nice job princess. Your improving well.”

“Thanks uncle Lucas. Iv been trying plus AJ helps when I need extra training me.”

“Ok. Go do a couple of laps and you can call it a day.”

“Ok uncle Lucas.”

“How are you feeling by the way?”

“I’m fine. Is 5 laps ok or do you want 10?”

“5 laps is fine. If you feel yourself starting to feel bad I want you to stop ok.”

“Yes sir.”

I start running my usual laps around the whole boarder. I’m a creature of habit at times plus I need to run the way I remember because I don’t want to have any accidents.

I run a couple of extra laps since I’m still feeling ok for being on an empty stomach. Walking back to the pack house I can feel something’s not right. I have that feeling again as if being watched like how I did at the beach. I need to go home now. I run it back home huffing and puffing. I tell our head night patrol guard to keep his eyes and ears on extra high alert and to call my uncles if they need anything.

I head to my room and I text Derek to ask him if he can pick me up from school tomorrow since I don’t have a ride. Of course he agrees without a second thought. After my shower I go back to my office to make sure it’s clean and put back together. It seems to be fixed from what I feel from my finger tips. I grab my picture of my parents, brothers and I. It’s the last family picture we took, I was 6 at the time. I lay down on my couch in office and cry. I want my parents back. I want my dad back. If my dad was here this wouldn’t of happened. That’s all I want. I want my parents back I want my dad back.

I start dozing off in my office when I hear my door open. I’m so mentally exhausted that I don’t even bother looking at who came in but I know who it is from his scent.

“My poor sunshine. What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours.”

“Here let’s warm you up a little.” He says putting a blanket on me tucking me in.

“Please don’t shut me out. God what am I doing. Your sleeping and can’t hear me. Good night my sunshine. I know you don’t want me to kiss you but I need one last one.”

He kisses me again. I love the way AJ kisses me. He’s so soft and tender with me. I can’t get enough of his kisses. If it was my choice I could kiss him all day everyday at this point. I get these butterflies every time he’s around. Just him looking at me makes me nervous. I know he won’t hurt me but I can’t run the risk of him getting hurt especially right that I can’t see. I need to figure out how to go about my daily life without as much help. This is going to be hard but my uncle Lucas is right; I need to learn how to fend for myself.