I lay in bed while the household is asleep. I don't want to be here I rather be in my mind closed off to the outside world. At least there my mates can't hurt me. At least there I feel loved. Sighing I head to the kitchen and sit at the counter deep in my thoughts. I put up a barrier and the guys couldn't come near me. I don't even know how I did it and that freaked me out. Hell I managed to piss off Nick and Caleb but I don't even know how I did that. I should be the one upset they had a mate they all truly loved and never told me about it.
I barely notice Alfred coming in and sitting beside me. He looked at me and he looked sad.
"Bella you okay sweetie? ",he asked handing me a bag of blood. I just looked at it before feeding. I felt unwanted but pushed it down to speak with Alfred. It
