Sealed Lips

Chapter 10

my heart ached in pain from the thought of sam appearing in my thoughts lately, after what i saw john do to that girl, it reminded me once again love is pain, pain bought by the person you thought you could trust. i hated the fact that my boyfriend of three years chose to cheat on me when i was enough for him, to think i was enough for a guy. nothing is ever enough for a guy, and go ahead prove me wrong or say i am wrong. i had experience and witness enough to know that after a guy gets what he wants hes gone, go ahead say its because i didnt meet my one.

a knock flew away my thoughts, as i realised my eyelashes were wet, before making my to the door i fix my self up and make my way.

'john' i said as now my open was wide open and we stood there staring into each others eyes.

'what are you doing here' i asked as he takes a step to closing the gap between us.

then hes hand is on my face, as his thumb rubs my under eyes, i guess i still had unwanted tears.

'i left my wallet' he said as he welcomes himself in.

i follow him to the living roo,. he goes to the couch and digs around for his wallet.

he hangs it up when he finds it.

'perfect' i said as i move aside as a sign he ccan leave now.

'its not pretty on you' he said as he wwalks besides me and leaves.

'What isn't' I asked.

'Crying' he answered.

'that is not your concern' i said.

he stops and turns to me.

'need help forgetting him' he said as my eyes widen.

'what no, if i wanted to your my last choice' i said as he walks back to me.

hes so temping, standing here, i knew what he wanted because i wanted it too.

'do you miss the feeling when i kiss every part of you' he said as i let out a breath that i was holding.

he follows my eyes trying to find out what i was thinking, thats when i did the one thing i said i wouldnt.

i crushed my lips on him, he pulls me back in the house without breaking our kiss. he picks me up and put on the living room table right on the edge of it, as he was between my legs, our body pressed against one another.

i slide my hands onto his hair.

he takes of my top, as i return the same option, he places kisses on both my breast then my neck and back on my lips.

he breaks the kiss, and looks directly into my eyes.

'what exactly did you miss'he asked as i kiss him as i bite his buttom lip to tease.

'kissing every part of my body' i said as a smirk appears on his face, i slap his arm. i plush him and took my jeans off, and used my idex finger to tell him to follow me.

he seem even more turn on. we went uostairs and finished what we started.  it was around 3 and since it was sunday, i had work early so i asked him to drive me.

after we had s*x, we stayed in bed, it was nice laying on his chest as he slept for a while.

My finger traced every aspect of his tattoo of his back, he moved and shift his back against the bed, my finger then traced the Tattoo across chest, it begun at the middle of his chest and spread across the chest but not covering all of it, it was a owl, with the same colours on the tattoos on both his right and left arm.

'What are you doing' he asked as he wakes up.

'What you can kiss me when you like but I can't touch your tattoos' I said.

'That's not what I'm asking' he said with a rush tone.

'Well it's hard not to notice your tattoos' I said.

He gets up, putting them his clothes.

the driver was silent, but i notice his hand was on my thigh. i tried so hard not to over think and calm. i wanted him to take me in this car right now. he remove his hand and leaving me emptry. we get out the car, he was ahead and i was behind him.

When he would come downstairs, and came behind the bar, we stood side to side, as he finger traced my leg, even though I wore jeans, I felt the effect of his touch.

'Hey' Samuel said, finally not busy with the customers.

'How's driving lessons' he asked.

'Not bad, hard getting used to keep my eyes on the toad and doing other stuff' I said.

'It gets easy' he said as he gives me a warm smile.

'Hey guys' June joins.

'Hey' me and Samuel say at the same time.

'Did you guys hear the reason for johns girlfriends out buss' she said.

'No' I said.

'Well turns out he was messing around with other girls' she said.

'Why is that a surprise' I asked.

'True' she said laughing.

I laugh with her, then we were inprutted by three customers asking for drinks, John had asked us to stay behind so he can teach us drinks.

He showed us how to make fancy drinks for rich people, and drinks people would order for bachelorettes.

After that we all cleaned up, June had somewhere to go so I told her I would finish up, Samuel had already left as he's had to pick up his parents from the airport.

I heard the office door close, then I wondered why I didn't hear no foot steps I had turned around and saw him staring at me with a smirk on his face.

'Yes how can I help you' I said as he rubs his jaw.

'I have few ways in mind' he said as I roll my eyes at him.

'Is that so' I said as I stop whipping the table.

He walks to me, now that we're face to face and our body are inches away, i want him. He didn't have to do anything, just standing here is enough to send my body in to shock.

'I think your clothes looks better on my office floor' he said biting his lip as he stared into mine.

'I disagree' I said with alongside a smile.

'You disagree huh' he asked.

'Do you have any idea how many bad things I want to do to you right now' he said as I crush my lips onto his.

He kept on teasing me, the whole way to his office.

When we got to the office, he lifted me up and place me on the desk, setting aside the papers, laptop. He was between my legs as I crossed them around his waist.

'John' I let out taking my time as I couldn't let out enough breath. He moves to my breasts, he sets his eyes on one, he licks it before biting it, as two of his finger worked inside me, no matter how many times this happened and happens it was always uncomfortable but with John, I didn't care. I ached for a kiss, what he was doing was sending fireworks to my body, he was lavishing my breasts, as his thumb rubbed around my sensitive part, as moan after moan left my mouth.

'jo-h-n' I let out as I came.

After we were done, we put our clothes back on,

It took me longer to get dress, so he watched me get dress.

'No don't even think about it' I said as a smile

Appears on his face.

He puts up both his hand up as in devesre.

'Good' I said as we make our way downstairs.

He took me home, but I didn't invite him in. I can't move my feelings from Sam into someone new without dealing with those old feelings first, John made me feel so different but he's not good for me or anyone in fact, and I can't afford to get my heartbroken again and let alone be a guy like John.

He doesn't feel any nothing but s****l attraction to me. And I was okay with that, not the s****l attraction the nothing part.