The b***h Luna

22. Let's give it a shot

Morning after calling Keith was harsh, I felt like a zombie with swollen eyes and red nose, thank God it's Sunday. I thought for so long about my Mate's reasons to be angry with me. Yes, I left him, but in the end it was his accusations and horrible words that led me to it. He had every reason to be hurt, like just every wolf suddenly left without a mate, but angry? I couldn't quite understand why.

Ana must've sensed that I'm out of my element because as soon as I stepped out of my bedroom she greeted me with a steamy mug of coffee and stack of pancakes waiting on the kitchen counter. I really love her and it's good that after such a horrible night she didn't have to work today!

I could tell she won't bother me with exciting new things I could find a release in. No, today she decided to become a silent companion.

We ate breakfast and went for groceries, all the time kept in a forced silence.

By the time we returned home I decided I needed to talk to someone or I'll torment myself with questions and doubts about what my life had become in the short period of the last two months.

"I called Keith last night." - I admitted feeling incredibly guilty.

She looked at me with wide eyes not saying a single word but nodded letting me know she will listen to everything I want to say.

"He seems mad at me, but I can't understand why. He's the one who practically told me I was a shitty Luna, he brought that to himself but I can't shake a filling I let him down."

"Ok, what exactly did you guys talk about?"

"Actually we didn't talk."

"What do you mean you just said that you called him and he had been mad for some reason."

"Yeah, about that I called him but I didn't speak."

Her brows flew up her forehead in shock.

"Ok, that's… Creepy. Why the hell didn't you talk with him?"

"I wanted to hear his voice. I do miss him. A lot to be frank, and yesterday when you mentioned him… I… I just couldn't help myself."

"So you decide to play a stalker card?"

"I know I'm stupid, I don't know what I was thinking. I hoped that maybe he feels the same way and misses me too, but he seemed rather annoyed by the fact that I dared to call him."

"Can you blame him?" - she muttered to herself more that asked me.

"What?!" - I screamed in shock

"Well, did you even for a moment thought about the position you left him in?" - she asked me.

"I can't believe you're taking his side, after all he put me thru…" - I wanted to continue but she interrupted me

"Yeah, I know he was an asshole he shouldn't have said those things to you but you didn't even give him a chance to make it right. You left! And it's not like he could just run after you leaving everything behind. He is an Alpha, hundreds of his people are relying on him. And you left him alone with no comfort from his other half. If you feel broken by your break up then think about him. He didn't have a privilege to start over with his family money. He had to face everyone in that pack and tell them their Luna had run away."

" I thought you are my friend…" - I started with watery eyes but before I finished she interrupted me again

" I am, and that's exactly what friends are for, to tell you when you make a big mess and shitty decisions but always stay in your corner."

We became silent for a moment. Her words run through my brain iver and over again.

" You're right. I made a shitty decision. But I can't turn back the time." - I finally admitted

"No you can't. But you can take a lesson out of it and move on."

"What would you have done?"

"I wouldn't leave my Mate but I don't think that's helpful at this moment. So in your position I see only two reasonable paths. Either you make things right with Keith and get back together if he's willing to or you move on and do something with your life that makes you forget and be proud of yourself." - she said.

" I am proud of myself. I decorated this house all by myself, and before you came along lived here alobe doing just fine and that's huge."

" Oh, Really?!" - she asked sarcastically while crossing her arms -" Cece, stop being such a brat, you came here and lived off your father's credit cards, spending his money isn't an achievement. Make something for yourself or admit to your mistakes, and whatever you choose I'll be standing right beside you holding your hand."

" You know what, no need for that, I think I have enough of you. Please go back to you grandma's cause us living together isn't working for me." - I told her slamming the door to my bedroom

" Fine!" - she shouted after me

Form behind the doors I heard muffled sounds of Ana packing her stuff. Around ten minutes later I heard the front doors clicking and went outside to check if she's really gone. She was nowhere in my house, all of her clothes were missing, but she left behind most of her stuff like pottery wheel, tripod and some other photographer accessories. From the corner of my eye I saw yellow post it note sticked to my favourite photo, which said:

"I'll be back for the rest of my crap, but this one you can take, I know how you like it"

I felt like a b***h once again. Even when I threw her out she thought about me. I took my keys and ran after her. My car drove from the garage with breaking every possible speed limits. I thought that Ana would take a bus rather than a taxi since she didn't like to unnecessarily spend money. I drove to the nearest bus stop, and as I approached the place I anticipedet her to be I saw Her getting on a bus. And of course I chased after it honking like a mad woman. My car was driving next to the bus window I saw Her through, I opened my window and shout:

"Ana, get out of that bus we need to talk."

She just shook her head answering 'No' to my request.

"I mean it! I will follow you to your grandma's place if I have to"

I saw Her taking a deep breath of resignation. Then pointing to her forehead what was supposed to indicate I'm crazy, but as a bus got near to the next stop I saw Her standing up from her seat and getting closer to the exit.

"Cecilia you have a BPD you know that!?"

"Maybe, I don't even know what that is."

"Ok, so what did you wanna talk about? Haven't you said enough?"

"You were right!" - I admitted

"What?"

"You are right about me, and I can't lose you too because of my stupidity so please forgive me and help me."

"Ok"

"Ok?!" - I repeated shocked

"Yeah, I knew you would come around but you needed to do this on your own"

"So I did all this dramatic chasing even though I didn't have to."

"Oh, you did have to! You can be really a pain in my ass, but you are my friend. We can argue but at the end of the day we will make things ok. Now let's go. You're buying me 'I'm sorry' lunch."

"Done, but maybe after you could do me some shots?"

"You mean pictures or drinks?" - in her eyes appeared familir spark

"Pictures, maybe something like a portfolio, I'd like to try to make something on my own and modeling sounds like a good plan."

"Ok then, let's go eat and after we can work on some photos, but I must warn you I'm not a cheap photographer."

"Will pizza and a welcome back home party for two be enough?" - I asked with laugh

"Sold!"