A Fresh Start

Settling into a routine

after a couple of days, Mrs Rowe called me to set up my GED classes. we schedule them for three evenings a week, mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays from 6:00 p.m. to 8:00 p.m. also, one of the employment agencies that I had registered with called and asked me if I could come in on Friday morning at 10:00 a.m. for an interview at a juice factory. I was so excited, finally it seemed like my life was looking up. since my first GED class didn't start until Monday I decided to do a little webserving on the internet in the den. I found an awesome book site and found an interesting murder/mystery book and started to read it. after what seemed like no time I heard the front door open and then her Joyce say, hello, I'm home. I shut off the computer and walked into the kitchen where Joy was getting herself something cold to drink. hi joy, did you have a good day at work? I asked her. yes it did, how was your day? she asked me. I got my GED classes scheduled starting next Monday and I have an interview on Friday, I said excitedly. wow that's wonderful AJ I am so happy for you, she said as she gave me a hug. so do you want me to help you fix dinner? I asked. sure I would love the help, she said. I am going to run upstairs and change clothes if you want to go ahead and get started chopping the vegetables, she said as she rushed off upstairs. I started washing the vegetables and then chop them up. we were having stir fry for dinner. Joy came back downstairs and wash your hands and then started cooking the chicken to go in the stir fry and she put on water to boil for the rice. we talked about our days and books and movies that we enjoyed. it was so easy to talk to joy, in a way she had become my best friend. I told her about wanting to get a divorce from Rico and I asked her advice on how to go about filing the papers. there's a little office downtown that lets you do all the paperwork yourself and you only have to pay $99 and it will be final in 6 weeks, she told me. I was happy about hearing that it would only take 6 weeks to finally be free from the biggest mistake I've ever made in my life. that sounds good now if I get that job then I can get a divorce. joy smiled at me she knew what all I had been through because I told her everything. we finished up dinner and I set the table. joy went to Carl's office which was located over the garage to let him know that dinner was ready. we all sat down at the table and enjoyed the delicious stir fry that joy and I had fixed. Carl and joy talked to each other about their days and I just listened while I ate my dinner. after a while Carl spoke, so aj, Joyce said that you are starting your GED classes on Monday. yeah I can't wait, I told him. that's great if you need to use the car anytime just let me know, he said. thank you carl, I replied. they were so nice to me. we finished eating and I helped Joy clear the table while Carl went to find a movie for us to watch. after we loaded the dishwasher and then got some sodas from the refrigerator we headed to the living room to watch tv. Carl had picked out the movie country Strong because it was the one that joy and I had wanted to see. we all sat there and silence watching the movie until the final credit started to roll then we all started talking about how good the movie was. it was getting late I was so tired that I said good night to Joy and Carl and headed upstairs to my room. when I got to my room I turned on my radio and laid out my pajamas on the bed and went into my bathroom and took the hot shower. I stepped out of the shower and wrapped my hair in a towel and wrapped another around myself and walked back into my room. I sat down on my bed and took the lotion out of my nightstand drawer and started to rub it on my feet and legs. a song came on the radio it was the one that used to be Rico and my song. I started to think about how good he had been to me when we first started dating and I started to cry. I didn't want to think about everything because I had done a pretty good job of avoiding my feelings. in all honesty Rico had been good to me at first and that is what I had missed the most. I had always thought about what if he had never changed into the horrible monster that he had become in the end. we could have been happy together and had our beautiful baby girl Adriana if only. I couldn't help but cry even harder. I had lost my baby girl and I would never know what she looked like or what she would have been like. I had imagined that she would look just like me. I lay down on my bed and allowed myself to grieve for the loss of my baby girl because I had never allowed myself to do that. I woke up and looked at the clock and it was 2:00 a.m. I must have cried myself to sleep last night. I got up to go to the bathroom and I saw myself in the mirror and my face was puffy and my eyes were red. I look ed a mess. I washed my face and cold water to try and take some of the puffiness out of my face but, with no luck I went back in my room slipped on my pajamas and tried to go back to sleep.