The Choosing Game

I’m Sorry

Lilliana's POV:

The car ride to the beach was the most fun I've had in months. Eric wasn't so bad after all, I didn't know Alex had a best friend, i guess i did not know Alex that well though. Since my meeting with the queen I've been thinking about what she said, does he really like me?

Ha! I think it's some twisted joke, I don't believe it. He just wants to toy with my emotions, guys like him always do.

Emily, Anna and i have been in the water for a while just relaxing and talking about random things.

"We should go get something to eat" Emily suggested. We all agreed. We got out and put on some bottoms. The guys were buy the food stand with Amy, Sasha and Ruby talking and laughing.

I picked up a plate and started serving. I felt someone beside me, looking up i saw Eric with a goofy smile playing on his lips

"what?" I asked, looking at him suspiciously.

"Nothing" he lied.

"Alright". He started serving himself too. We walked together in silence to the picnic table where everyone was seated. Anna went and sat next to Jason and Emily took the seat in between Luke and i.

I noticed Amy and Sasha snickering about something and ruby whispering something in Alex's ears. I dug into my plate ignoring them all. For about a minute i was in my little bubble eating and it was ruined by a stupid screechy siren voice

"You eat so much carbs! What sort of lady are you?" Sasha said. I looked at her and she was looking back at me in disgust.

"The kind that doesn't starve herself to impress anyone" i shot back silently promising myself not to let them get to me.

"Who are you kidding? She wasn't raised to be a lady. She doesn't even have enough qualifications to be in this race or rather how they keep you on" now it was Amy ' the oh so perfect girl' smirking at me

I noticed everyone shifting uncomfortably except for Ruby who had a smirk plastered on her face and Alex with a blank expression that said he didn't really care. I don't know why but it made my blood boil.

"Oh? So Lady Amy with all the qualifications and the perfect daughter status wasn't taught to never judge a book by its cover?" I asked quacking my eyebrows trying to annoy her.

"What do you mean? I'm better than you!" Whoop whoop! It worked. She was annoyed.

"If you say so!" I said satisfied with her reaction I heard Eric and Luke chuckle at her expression.

Just as I thought that was it, I heard Ruby say "you know at first I thought how can you eat that much food and not be like super fat but then i saw you had a habit of going to the gym regularly" I didn't answer her because i knew that wasn't it and i knew what she wants to imply. My blood was already boiling "but then sluts don't need the gym to exercise they have their ways" the whole place went dead silent

"What did you just say to me?” I gritted through my clenched teeth. I was fuming. I'm sick and tired of her attitude!

"Well you heard me. A SLUT! Your talent. You know when you spread your legs to get whatever the hell you want then act like an innocent little bitch." She has called me names before but she never did it in public and she was never this direct. "You know the sad part is that is all you will ever amount to, a lonely bitter old bed warmer" she giggled and smiled

I didn't know what came over me but I felt driven by so much anger. I leaped over the picnic table and pushed her out of her chair, she fell flat on her back. Before she had time to react i sat on her stomach and started throwing punches directly to her stupid face. The noise behind me was only music to my ears at that moment, the screams, the people calling out my name telling me to stop; all that muted by my anger.

She pushed me off and switched positions. I fought her hard but she managed to throw a few punches and scratches in. Jason pulled her off of me. As soon as she was off i was on my feet and i pounced back on her this time i aimed and threw a punch directly at her perfectly shaped nose, blood came gushing out. I felt someone strong wrap their hands around my waist trying pull me off but i kept kicking and screaming for them to let me go. I could here voices screaming for me to stop but i just wanted to keep bashing her face.

She kept screaming and crying. The hands holding on to me gripped tighter onto my waist, i want to set myself free but it was to no avail. I was pulled away from the spot into the beach but i kept on screaming "let me go!" Then the person finally spoke "only if you promise to calm down" Alex! It was freaking Alex! Now that it was his b***h that was at the receiving end he decided to intervene.

"Let me go!"

He held on tighter. "Calm down" he tried soothing but i wasn't working.

"Don't tell me to freaking calm down. Just let me go!" I said jabbing my elbows into his rock hard body.

"Ok ok. I'll let you go" he slowly loosened his grip on me i swiftly turned to him and i felt my anger rising again.

As i was about to speak he beat me to it "what the hell is wrong with you?" I was taken back by the question.

"What!?" I managed to ask in disbelieve.

" why would you just attack her like that?" I was in so much shock that i couldn't mouth the words.

"Yes?" He asked waiting for an explanation.

My chest ached with so much anger, i could feel the inside of my cheeks burning, i knew by now i was red all over. "You have some nerve you know! Where were you when she was insulting me?" I asked with so much anger and hurt in my voice, i wanted to stay strong but i was slipping.

"Is that any reason why you should damage her face like that?" This guy is unbelievable.

"You are an asshole! You stood there as three of them called me names like a freaking statue and now you want exert authority" i laughed humorlessly. The bitterness in my throat kept increasing as i spoke. So i decided to walk away.

"Don't walk away from me" he demanded

"I'll do whatever i want" i spat.

His large hand caught my arm and slowed me, he then used his other hand to turn me around. As soon as i turned around, i started pounding into his rock hard chest. He stood still, not saying anything. I pounded hard until and unconscious sob escaped me.

"s**t!" He cursed.

"This is all your fault!" I said now sobbing fully.

"How?" He asked confused.

"You are the reason they call me a slut! But you are too selfish too care" he doesn't deserve my tears I kept chanting in my head "You wont let me go and now they all think i'm sleeping with you that is why you keep me on"

There was a long pause then he said "s**t! I'm sorry!" Trying to sooth me. Keyword 'trying'. "I'm sorry. I didn't know. I..ah..I'm sorry" his apology just made me angrier. I managed to get out of his grip, mumbled a "whatever" and ran further into the beach.

I has been awhile since I cried... I mean really cry and it not going to be today. I'm trying so hard to control the tears but they keep on coming. It's not what they said that hurt me but how he is trying to defend them. His mother and sophia were wrong after all. He is a jackass.

I sat on the sand burying my toes in it's warmth, looking at the beautiful ocean. My anger was slowly subsiding. I heard footsteps behind me, I turned to find Anna and Emily. Emily was holding a first aid kit and a pack of ice. They sat beside me in silence.

"Hey" Emily whispers.

"Hi" I said.

She hands me the ice "for your head" i took it. Then the first aid and said "for your wounds". All of a sudden they hugged me tight and said "for your heart" in unison causing me to laugh.

I didn't even know I had been injured until now, I looked down on my chest and there were a few scratches that only started hurting when I noticed, my knuckles were slightly bruised from all the punches but my head didn't hurt.

Anna took the kit and cleaned up the wounds "we wouldn't want you to catch rabies now, would we?" She remarked. We giggled at the meanness.

"How bad do I look?" I asked, knowing the answer.

"Oh honey. You should see how you left her" Emily said trying to make me feel better.

"She's going to need a new nose" we all burst out laughing. Our laughter died when we heard someone clear their throat behind us. We turned around and to my surprise it was Eric holding a pack of potato chips and soda.

I gave him a small smile and stood up. "Hi" i said shyly.

"Hello tiger" he said teasingly. I heard Anna clear her throat. The all stood up at the same time "I'm going to go check on Jason. You coming Em?" Anna asked "yup" Emily said popping the p. The left without waiting for a reply.

"How are you feeling?" He asked softly

"I'm wonderful" i said with a fake grin. He chuckled

"Hey.. Uhm.. Would you mind taking me home?" I asked hoping he would say yes. I didn't want to stay here for one more minute.

"Yeah. Let's go" he said with a smile. We walked back to where everyone else was since the cars were packed there, he had his hand on my small waist leading me to the car.

We got to where they were and first ran into Jason, Emily and Anna. They all eyed me suspiciously and asked where we were going and why i was leaving . "Honestly, I don't feel like being here anymore. I just want to go home and..well not be anywhere near them, but i'm fine really " I answered them sincerely.

They all said there goodbyes and offered to come with me which I declined. We walked further and spotted the four girls seating on the same bench where it happened, naturing Ruby's broken face. They spotted me and all huffed turning their face away. Eric snorted which made me giggle.

We got to the car and by it Luke and Alex were standing. They seemed to be in a heated argument but it dead down when they spotted us coming. Alex noticed Eric's hand on my waist and his whole body stiffened, he narrowed his eyes and clenched his jaw.

"Where are you going to?" Luke asked worriedly. I stayed silent not wanting to talk anymore.

"I'm taking her home." He said glaring at his best friend. "You and Emily should ride with Jason in the morning, I'm not coming back either" he said to Luke.

Luke nodded. He came forward doing something that surprised me greatly. He hugged me tight and whispered "I'm proud of you" I smiled at his action. We never really fought after the gym incident but we were always formal with each other whenever we meet.

Alex kept his eyes on me not once taking them off. Eric guided me to the car and opened the door , I entered and he closed it walking to the other side. The door was pulled open by Alex, he stood there looking at me with eyes swelling with emotions. I put my hand on the inner door handle trying to pull it but he held the door tightly in place. I looked at him with so much distaste and he looked down for a second before looking at me again.

I turned my face away from him, looking straight ahead. "I'm sorry" he said sounding almost broken. Just like that he shot the door and we drove off.