Like A Butterfly

Chapter2

Sasha! (Only Attharva calls me by this name)” Busy now. Call me later”

“No I can’t wait long “it’s very important “I am calling you now. Please receive my call.”

“For 5 secs “Sasha….

“Thank God you picked my call.”

“How are you??” “Do you still have my phone number??”

“Yes, so you too. “” I am glad you have not yet forgotten me in these years. “

No, I have forgotten none of my friends.

“Friends??”

“So when did I become your friend?”

“Umm ! So I overheard you got married to your gf”

“Ahhh Sasha ! Who committed such a crime to tell you all this?

“ Apologies ! I missed your happy wedding.

“You just embarrassed me “ ______ Pause____

How can I invite you to my wedding ? Will that be worth it?“ I knew how you would feel “.

……………………………a second pause…………………….

Ummm…….

“Congratulations! You sound so balanced and happy.” “.Your wife must be very lucky “

“Have you not forgiven me yet?

………………pause…………..

“How do you know Trasnav ?? What is your relationship with him? Is he your friend or one of your cousins ?

“So desperate to know Sinesha ?” Have you already started liking him ? Have you guys started dating each other?

“What Rubbish “ Just want to know”

“I knew no girl could deny his charm for long. That guy is born with all lucky stars on his head.”

“It is not so funny, Attharva. ?” “He messaged me last week “.

“Oh ! I see” …… “Then why are you ignoring him ?”

“He wants to know you closely . He wants to be your friend .” “ He can be your that friend whom you always have dreamt about . “

“I do not need any friends in my life .. I am absolutely fine and I do not need anyone’s empathy now. I have learned to live my way. “

“Listen - I can’t see you locking yourself up in the darkness. The darkness is powerful. It will swallow you one day. Your life is more important to me. Are you blaming yourself ?? Give yourself a chance and feel how beautiful everything is and was. Just being friends with Trasnav won’t cost any harm . I will die seeing you die every day, Sasha .” “ What are you so scared of?

“It is not someone or anything I am afraid of “. I am living the way I like it and always loved . ” My darkness is my light. And when I am lost in the light, I can find myself. I can still scream and not be melancholy. Nobody has ever embraced me. I have felt being accepted here. I selected this darkness for me “.

…………………….I hung up the phone …………………………..

“I have never ever been angry with him before . He was the person I have loved with all my heart. He rejected me, saying I was “ unsuitable “ for his family. I cried and begged a lot, but he left me all alone and never returned. All these years , he didn’t even care if I was alive or not . I know how hardly I kept myself alive . I have restored myself all these years to become this strong.When I have just learnt to live my life , my way. What does he want from me now? He didnt show up when I needed him the most and today he wished me to give another chance to my life. “Does he even know how broke I was ? “ “ Or does he even feel guilty ?”

I cried a lot , I became the same hopeless girl whom he left alone to suffer.

When I opened my eyes the sunset was about to start. I looked around and I lay on the floor mat. It feels as if I have been cocooned but something has freed me from that . To recollect all my memories,I stood up and sat for a moment. Thanks ! I cried a lot, something I have always wanted to . Thanks, everything that has been holding me has gone away . Thanks , I am feeling a little lively.I want to live again.I have been wanting to start over again. I was longing

“Hi Trasnav! I know who gave you my ID . He is my friend “. “It was surprised that Attharva and you are friends .” So how did you get to know me?” Does he talk about me ? “

“Yes, that’s what I know about you “

“Bad or good”

“I heard him talking about your painting and dance.” “He recalled you helping him with his homework and reading.”

“Anything more

“No “

“So you been to be my friend?”

“Yes , if no harm in being your friend. “

“Do you have w******p?”

“viber”

“Shall I ask for your number?”

“Now ? this quick ?”

“When we have become friends , I think let’s not be late to start good things”.

“918………”

I shared my number .After the turmoil,peace has been restored. I was eager to change the whole dimension of the way I used to look at my life . I wanted to yell loudly so everybody hears my missing voice. I have been trying to attempt something bold and I was judging my own test. While I was doing this, I did not pant. I felt liberated . I pulled out a pen and a paper from a drawer to express myself in the paper of my memoir . I can’t recall my last writing about my happiest moment of my life.

I haven’t heard from him yet . In fact,, I have no idea if he would call me .I was just feeling so proud that I had come out of the darkness and embraced the light . It is impossible for the light to be completely obscured by the darkness . Anyway, Light finds its way out of darkness. I celebrated that victory. I was happier to conquer the world of darkness at the moment , which I have been yearning for so long.

Early this Sunday morning was unlike other days, I sat on my chair and worked on my laptop . I didn’t wait to follow my morning routine at first . I took a huge responsibility to set up the pile of worksheets for my students. I was so dedicated to my profession as a teacher. Being a teacher is a huge responsibility . First, you are contributing to a student”s life ,family and ultimately the nation .Actually, all my colleagues were building the foundation . I felt so satisfied and peaceful. Thinking about such a thought makes me motivated to work harder.

I hear my phone vibrating on my bed . I could not reach the phone so I ignored it.

Again , I heard my phone was vibrating on my bed. I stood up to reach my phone. I caught the new number starting with +4190......

I tried to find out if I know any country’s code that starts with +41......

“Shall I ignore it or pick it up ?

I didn’t pick that number out from a different country code. A week before, when I went to renew my bank account, an old guy from the customer service alerted me about hackers who would call from different international countries. I thought it was a scam.

I kept my phone in silent mode. I can’t tolerate being disturbed while I am working hard . Really ,so distracting.

I wrapped up my work, I tilted my head up to see a clock . It was already 9am in the morning.Oops ! I did almost 2 hours’ work on my laptop. I grabbed my phone and went to cleanse and wash my face. When I finished all my morning routines, I stepped ahead to my kitchen to make my breakfast.I have started to prepare pancake. I realized my happiness is my small world; my kitchen. Who would have thought, the possibility to learn a life hack recipe in the kitchen too . It teaches people to serve an exclusive recipe by just adding a new ingredients into it. Life is like a recipe, it can be created or recreated, shaped or reshaped by anyone who is willing to live it with joy and happiness…………………

………….like a butterfly ……transforming self from the the ugly past……………….

I turned on my phone to check my messages . I saw a message on my notification from the same international number.

Hi Sinesha , Trasnav here ,

“Please receive my call “