All yours

Chapter 8

First kiss

Hannah POV

It’s been 2 weeks i met him, we have been friends, had some lunch and dinner together. Last week we went for a movie, he is so nice to me but not with others, he is only sweet with me i heard him talking on calls with other, he is very rude and can be very cruel. I liked his company, honestly i was imagining us as a couple but i can’t do that, I’m sure he will also hate me for God knows why when i want someone to love me support me they ended up hating me like my dad. 

Ben is a charming person and i love the way he puts me first as if I’m the love of his like but how can this be possible, me a girl who is hated by her own dad cannot get anyone’s love. I love my father alot but he doesn’t love me back, why he is like that?  i still don’t know we were living happily when mom was with me, i was so happy that i will be a big sister but karma has it’s own plan, i hope one day i can get his love.

Yesterday while i was leaving hospital, Ben called,he asked me to come to the caffe. We sat there for almost 2 hours, how easily i can spend time with him, time always feels shorter with him, we were enjoying each other’s company. he told me that his parents fight is almost over now. What aches me that he won’t be meeting me, why does it felt so bad? He was just a random patient, helping humans is what my job is then what is happening with me. The way he calls me sweetheart, love, beautiful, telling me his life, asking about mine, showing concern towards me, ‘why you liked all of these things Hannah what’s happening to you this is not you’ Am i started liking him, no i can’t love anyone ‘No one will love you hannah’ my inside told me again ‘he will also hate you the way your dad does’. Tears started forming in my eyes, i put my head down on the table and screaming in my heart ‘mom i wish you were here with me, why you left me look im so lonely no one will love me’ i was screaming crying silently but my little sobbing was heard by someone. My Cabin door was knocked once and Ben came in, 

“Hannah” he called my name with so much concern in tone.

He came near me and kneel down near my chair, he hold my hand, sweetly caressing the back of my hand and said “what happened, tell me Hannah i can’t see you crying?” 

I rolled my lips inwards not wanting to show him my problems,it was really hard for me to stop my crying while Ben was holding my hand, i want to hug him cry on his shoulder but I can’t, he will hate me too. With alot of difficulty i spoke up.

“N...no...nothing happened, j..just the work load” i shuttered, trying to keep myself together.

“Don’t lie to me sweetheart tell me, I promise

Hannah trust me i will do anything for you” Ben said assuringly, our eyes locked all i could see was sincerity and love. Love? No how is that possible, no he doesn’t love me, i wont let this happen i like being his friend i just can’t see him hating me too.

Flashback:

“Dad please tell what have i done?” Little me sobbing crazily holding his leg.

“You are asking me what have i done, how could you accuse me for that, i cant believe you are my daughter. I loved you and your mother this what you have done to my care?” He yelled pushing me away from him. 

“Dad please tell me I didn’t do anything wrong, i love you dad” i said with sobbing. 

“I dont want to see your face, go away Hannah it is a shame to call you my daughter. Leave me.” He said with hatred clearly visible in his eyes.

“Oh poor child, honey dont throw her out, let her stay here. You will hate her is the enough punishment for her” my step mother said.

“Megan you are such sweet person, I’m blessed to have someone like you in my life.” Dad said giving her the best smile of him. “If you want her here then i won’t say anything to you” he further continued. And walked away.

“Of my sweety no one will love you, they will hate you, you will never get anyone’s love, i will make sure of if” she said while giving me a sympathetic hug with evil smile.

They both left me there for sobbing and cryings.

 *flashback end*

 “Hannah”

“Hannah” i heard my name again.

“Uhh.. you were saying something” I replied him. Trying to be strong but the tears are filled in my eyes.

“Whats bothering you, why were you crying?” He said with concern in his eyes. What the hell is wrong with him? Can’t he leave me Alone.

 “Nothing that should concern you!” I replied angrily and got up from the chair. 

I was about yo walk away from him but soon he pulled me into him arms his hold on my waist was so tight, i tried pushing him but he didn’t budge at all.

“Everything that effects you makes me bothered now speak” he said to me with his face few inches away from me, A shiver ran down my spine.

“Ben you are hurting me, let me go” I snapped at him. 

“So you won’t tell me right” he said with mischievous smile on his face. What make him smile hell i want to punch him hard.

I started wriggling in his arms telling him to let me go but wht he did next froze me at the moment. His one hand on my waist and another hand was on my chin he forcefully made me look into his eyes and then he bend down to my lips and i could feel his hot breaths near my lips soon i felt his lips on my lips.... what the hell is happening i tried pushing him but he was kissing me more hardly. It felt good but i cant give in, i cant let him hate me too. He tried pushing his tongue inside my mouth. But I didn’t give him the access. 

“What the hell is happening here” Dr. John said.

With all the strength inside me i tried to pushed him from me.

“Dr. Hannah you are in the hospital, we don’t pay you for doing cheap things with rich people, your type of women’s can do anything to get in men’s pants.” He spoked with so much hatred in his voice. 

Without saying anything I left the room, leaving both of them.