Moments when I feel like my brain has stopped working completely, I don't think about anything and I don't even feel. My whole body broke down.
I looked at my cup of coffee with my hand, letting my feet lead me where you wanted me to go, I wouldn't hesitate and try to control the repetition of a do-it-yourself word that screams in my mind.
I stood before him again, firmly, and I was not the one whose eyes had produced some dull tears. Before he could say anything, a cup of coffee was chopped over his head.
And I didn't care if it was too hot to burn or not, I just did what I wanted.
He inhaled his sleeve and when his body rose to stand, I surprised him by slapping him, and stuck to the front of his monthly branded shirt closest to me by surprise while he was still sitting. "Don't come close again, 'cause then I'll be your devil."
In a sharp, grudging voice I told him, and watched as his face shrank into anger with pleasure, his jawbone blurted out as his hand was placed over the seat when he almost stood pressed to whiten his joints. Angry, baby? That's how I felt when you kissed me, too.
I pushed him hard to push back, his back glued to the icy seat, and I smiled at him, amused. "Now we can only say... the game has begun, Patridge."
I deliberately turned around to make the horsetail of my hair slap his face, confidently stepping towards my friends who lifted their middle finger, Shathamin Lucas and his companions.
"To hell, you bastards."
He thinks that's my only reaction to crying about my first kiss? Funny, that's just a little snapshot of what's gonna happen to you and your f*****g buddies.
I finally breathed the air when we came out of the coffee shop again, when I pushed him out of the coffee shop and I couldn't breathe, as if I were being choked and an awful feeling of regret occupied me. Regret, regret that I didn't break his head. Because I cried in front of him.
But it was the drop that overflowed the glass, my feelings are not a game so I can mute all negativity with it, everyone has energy.
And at this moment I ran out of energy, I ran out cruelly and without warning. I felt let down.
Lucas let me down, I didn't expect him to get where he is now, to see me that way.
"Desire, but deserved." Scoundrel, he's only a scoundrel who can't perceive anything, stupid.
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An annoying ringing knocks on my head violently, and I barely opened my eyes to close them quickly because of the strong light of the sun coming from the window we had overlooked yesterday.
I wrinkled with grumbling and pain when that annoying ringing came back, I put my hand under the pillow looking for my phone, where the f**k is it?
She indignantly pushed the pillow to stick in the face of Georgia, who had just fluctuated in her sleep, and grabbed the phone and tried to see the caller.
JassOh, come on. Her name appeared in the middle of the phone.
Why are you calling now? Oh, my God. Gus is calling?
I straightened up quickly and my smile widened as I answered her, not taking another moment to absorb. "Jass! Finally, girl? I missed you so much."
I listened to her chuckle, to smile comfortably, I hope it's better now.
"I wanted to talk to you before I got home," she said over the phone. My eyes widened in disbelief and shouted at her. "You're not kidding? The truth is, Gus, or I'll kill you and Rose the b***h with you... Oh, my God, I miss you!"
Count my heart of joy, I can't believe it's coming, "Roz will be back too." I flattened around the room, avoiding running over my sleeping son on the floor and feet over the mattress.
Go down the stairs while listening to Gus. "But... Soulin, I need a favor, can you help me?" she took my place after she asked.
I tried to get the words out of my throat, but I wouldn't get out. Jass wondered again. "Soline?" Her tone is hesitant, she rang in my mind again and again with a scream that made my heart contract.
When I listened to her on the phone again. "Souline, are you okay?" She swallowed my water trying to moisten my dry throat. "Yeah, fine. What were you saying, sorry I just woke up."
She told me it was okay, while I opened the fridge and pulled out the water bottle to get my throat dry.
Sullen. I want my right back," she said in another way that made me fall over the seat trying to close any loophole that reminded me of something.
I closed my eyes trying to control my damaged feelings. I just feel embarrassed when she asks for something. "Of course. Of course. Gus, I'm with you for everything. I'll never give you my back. Your right will return, and you will come to find the road paved as well."
I uttered a little smile, and listened to her chuckle as she said. "I know you won't let me down. Thanks really, Sullen."
As soon as I hung up the phone, I found Bunny opening the fridge, taking out a soda and approaching with lazy steps sitting in front of me.
She pointed at my phone with a question. "Who made your face turn like that in the morning?" I sighed, lowering my shoulders as heavy as I could feel.
"Jas will come back." I told her to sniff the water out of her nose. She knocked twice and felt her shock. Jas had cut off all communication between us a while ago, arguing that she needed time to forget.
I don't think she can do it, she's lost her trust, her body and everything since that incident. f*****g Justin.
"We'll help her, won't we?" I wondered faintly as my heart almost came out of my chest, a slow pulse but it beats in my head echoing in my ears and limbs.
A fearful, vindictive pulse that pulses slowly because he feels powerless to kill them one by one, so that they taste bitter so that they can feel what they are doing to others.
She smiled quietly and put her hand over mine. "Of course, the secret women's club is at the service of all females." She told me, with a slight of confidence over her loophole, and her chin went up and down in confirmation.
I smiled sarcastically, despite the many emotions that had come to me since yesterday, and she didn't leave me even in my dreams. "Secret."
She bit off her lips trying not to be affected by my words and laughing because she made this slogan, she raised her shoulders and closed her eyes confidently showing that it was. "You know!"
This time I smiled sincerely, pushing away my feelings and not knowing how to express them until I ignored them until the time came. Yeah, I know.
Georgia leaned on the kitchen bar and almost climbed over it and continued to sleep there while she said sleeplessly. "Should we go to school? Why don't we go? My parents aren't here, I can do whatever I want."
Damn it. I don't have the energy to face the f**k.
Damn it! You have to see this." Jessie shouted as she went down the stairs and stuck her face in her phone, we quickly approached with curiosity to rally around to see what she was talking about.
My heart fell into my stomach, a picture taken of me as Lucas kisses me. Damn it! Whenever you even grab his shirt collar!
My features fell coldly Read the description of the photo. "Did Solin finally give up and kiss her ex-boyfriend? That seems to be true, Sullen Parker hasn't surpassed Lucas Patridge yet. Drinks, dude, never fail to show true feelings."
The post was shared and the reference was to me and to dreaded Lucas, the corners of my lips rose sarcastically and one word reverberated in my mind dirtyly 'her ex-boyfriend'.
"From an anonymous account?" I wondered when my view was attached to the image of the account that posted the post, black and with many signs of error glowing in many colors.
"Lead Lucas and beat him up?" Georgia asked with angry eyebrows, when everything was on my mind when she dated Lucas.
"Not Lucas." I cried out as my father looked away from the published picture, Lucas is not that stupid to publish this, thinking he'll bother me.
And he's not stupid enough to publish this curse because then I'll be victorious and he shows he wanted me back so badly.Either way, I'll crush them all, just a little while.
"Her ex-boyfriend! They're insane, aren't they?" she shouted excitedly, and Jesse exhaled in anger. "To make you look like a b***h who can't stand her boyfriend getting away."
Her sentence danced in my mind to the devil's tune. "Why don't we start with something small, then, by showing the truth?" She tells them faintly and enthusiastically slams Bunny's hands with Georgia's and walks away to fetch her computer. But where did he get the picture? It wasn't anybody else at the restaurant. Jasper was holding me, Mark? Maxness?
The picture was taken from their corner, bastards.
"Who is this son of a b***h who took this picture?" she shouted angrily as Georgia approached, sitting at the bar and tapping her fingers over the keyboard, bored. "One of the bastards, of course not Lucas, was kissing Solin, wasn't free to film anything, Jasper grabs Solin so she doesn't pounce on Lucas, I took a picture of them, but I f*****g show up in the background while I take Mark away from you!"
At the end of her talk, she yelled grumbling when the picture reappeared on her computer, and Georgia stopped looking at Jesse like Bunny did.
She hung her hand halfway to her mouth, "Hell, I'm not in doubt! You bitches, Maxie's the only one left." She uttered his name mockingly from Georgia, ending her words by flipping her eyes bored and sitting on one of the chairs while she finished eating the crisps.
That's how the vision was. s**t. Everybody with two faces?
"As you know, we always like to spread the facts and nothing else. As you can see, this is the official Breaking Hills scandal account and there are no other accounts.".
Bunny continued by looking at the picture posted by the anonymous account. "Here we have the real picture, not the previous one, because we all know how much the hands look like they put on at the age of five."
Jesse nodded her head as if she were listening to a breathtaking music, and it was my turn to say the sentence that would heal my grudge a little bit by now. "Lucas, the brilliant Bricken Hills kissing Solin, and if you want confirmation, we'll publish it tonight, so wait for us."
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