Since the last incident,I decided internally that I don't want to meet anyone.I haven't met anyone. I'm served food by the servants in my room and I leave only for the library. Once I'm in the library, I spend my entire day there and I go to my room very late at night.
Ryan has left for some work and we didn't talk much apart from him apologising for this situation and me reminding him that nothing is in our hands and that he is not at fault. I know he is blaming himself but I truly do understand the way I'm stuck in a web of revenge ,it's not because of him but for my past that I'm here. I genuinely appreciate how much Ryan is sincere with me. Even though we share a complex dynamic he is still like a friend to me.
Right now I'm in the library ,it's been a whole day since I came here. I
