Taming The Billionaire's Heart (R18)

Chapter 7—Looking Back

(Aime's POV)

Looking back at the days that I spent a lot of time making Hiroko noticed me, even though we are both best friends, I know to myself that I liked him a lot and it will never changed at all, it is something that I must deal with at the same time. I don't like to think otherwise, I know that he is the one that will make my heart beat stay for a pause and I can't even think about it.

Perhaps, whenever he told me about his problems, that's the time that I will be able to know him even more.

"Dad, I am going now," I said. I am heading to Hiroko's place wherein I am going to meet him right now because I need to do something for him, regardless of what I need to make through, he seemed to have something to talk over with. Every about it makes me feel that there's a lot of chances that I needed to take in order for me to have a glimpse together with Hiroko.

I wanted to talk to him as much as possible and be able to rush things up to make him better.

"Goodluck on your date, sweetie," my father said.

"Dad, I am not going for a date, I am just simply going out to have fun you know, it's not that bad I guess, you should think that I am just going somewhere to make a treat for myself, nothing special that much, " I said.

"No, you should go ahead right now and have fun with whatever you wanted, you need to have a lot of moments that you can contribute for yourself Aime, you should always think that there's the moments that will not happened again so you should just cherish it as well, "

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After a few minutes talking nonsense with my dad, I got out and then got ahead to my garage, started my car and headed to the place where Hiroko is waiting for me.

I don't know what he will feel if he sees me wearing this dress, I feel like I don't need to make him feel impressed about this at all, I don't want him to think that I am impressing him either way, that's not on my vocabulary at all because he knows that I am a little bit boyish.

I don't want to make him fall for me, if I am like this right now, I just want to look pretty for myself.

I drove my car all the way to the coffee shop and after 10 minutes, I finally got there, I called him and told him that I am there already.

"Hiro, I am here already, where are you right now?" I said.

"I am on the second floor of the coffee shop Aime, where are you? "

"I'm here downstairs, look at me from a distance, " I said.

I swear, I am a little bit scared to face him and it makes me feel that I shouldn't be there at all, it was never my intention to feel like this, nevertheless, I still have this feeling right now. I don't want to bring misfortune to myself as well when I am in front of him, because I know that this will never be a good thing at all.

Sometimes, there are moments wherein I can spot what is the thing that makes me feel miserable.

Hiroko, perhaps is the man of my dreams, we are friends but I couldn't see him in such a way, I know that this should be something else that I cannot even comprehend.

I always thought that I am having troubles, I don't want to make myself feel that I am out of the way already as well.

"I can see you right now."

My heartbeat gets faster as I can notice it at the same time, I don't want to feel like this at all, I wish that if there's a way to get away from this one, I will do it right away.

I always thought that there is a complications whenever I think about our relationship as friends, because I cannot see him as one, I feel like it is just too illegal to call him a friend when I shouldn't be calling him that way.

I don't want to bring myself to something that will make me feel that I am not having a good day, I know that he is not going to see me in such a way like that, I know that he don't really find me attractive as well.

Hiroko was always been the man that is secretive enough, u don't know why he is like that. I always feel that he is having the time to make himself feel that he is the man with no other problems in his life but really, I know that he is struggling.

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"Aime, I think that I am gay, I don't know why I am feeling like this but it feels so bad that I don't even want to feel this at all, I hope that my parents will not be mad at me,I know that they have a lot of standards and they want me as their son, but I cannot stop feeling like this right now and this is very worst, I don't want to feel like I am having this moments right now, " Hiroko said.

I don't know what I am actually hearing right now, but I could feel the disappointment in my body, I don't want to feel this at all.

I know that I should not be the one that is going to feel like this, because what am I? I am just his best friend and I should not feel like I should bother him with what he is feeling, it is not right anymore to feel like this, I know that he will surely have the time to have himself feel that he is free.

I guess that I also lost the man of my dreams when I heard him say that he is a gay, but what can I do about it? I cannot push him to become a man if he doesn't want to, that's just not good at all. I know that I should not feel that I am that close to him, because never will it ever happened that I am going to be his favorite.

" Really Hiroko? What made you think that you are one? I don't want you to feel bad about my question, but i hope thst you are young to tell me about it because I am your best friend. You should feel comfortable in telling me afterwards, whatever you are feeling right now, " I said.

When I said that, I feel like I am having the sadness that I shouldn't be feeling, it feels so bad. I don't think that this will make me feel that I am worthy enough of the ways that I do, I know that this is as worst as it can be. Knowing the man that you liked is gay, it's just so bad at the same time. I don't want to feel this anymore, I wanted to get rid of the feelings thst I have for him.