Chapter 12: Cracks Beneath the Surface
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The days after Alex’s visit lingered in Joy’s mind like a beautiful echo.
His laughter in her apartment.
The warmth of his presence.
The way everything had felt… right again.
But once he left, reality slowly returned.
And this time, it didn’t come gently.
It started with small things.
Missed messages.
Shorter replies.
Delayed calls.
At first, Joy told herself it was nothing.
He’s just busy.
Work is demanding.
Don’t overthink.
But the pattern continued.
And this time, it felt different from before.
Less temporary.
More… distant.
One evening, Joy sat at her desk, staring at her phone.
She had sent Alex a message hours ago.
No reply.
Her fingers tapped lightly against the table as her thoughts began to spiral.
Maybe he’s in a meeting.
Or maybe… he just didn’t feel like replying.
She shook her head.
“No,” she whispered. “Not again.”
She picked up her sketchbook, trying to distract herself.
But her pencil hovered above the page, unmoving.
Her mind was elsewhere.
With him.
Her phone finally buzzed.
Her heart jumped.
Alex:
Sorry, long day.
Joy stared at the message.
Just four words.
No warmth.
No explanation.
No effort.
Something inside her shifted.
She typed back slowly.
Joy:
It’s okay.
But this time, it didn’t feel okay.
Later that night, Alex called.
“Hey,” he said.
“Hi,” Joy replied.
There was a pause.
“How was your day?” he asked.
“Fine.”
Her answer was short.
He noticed.
“You sound distant.”
Joy let out a quiet breath.
“I could say the same about you.”
Alex frowned slightly.
“What do you mean?”
Joy hesitated.
Then decided not to hold back.
“You’ve been different lately.”
“Different how?”
“You don’t talk as much. You barely text. And when you do, it feels… forced.”
Alex sighed.
“Joy, I’ve just been busy.”
“I know you’re busy,” she said. “But this feels like more than that.”
Alex ran a hand through his hair.
“You’re overthinking.”
The words hit her harder than she expected.
“I’m not overthinking,” she said quietly. “I’m noticing.”
There was silence.
Tense.
Heavy.
“I didn’t realize I was being analyzed,” Alex said, his tone slightly defensive.
Joy’s chest tightened.
“I’m not analyzing you. I’m telling you how I feel.”
“And I’m telling you it’s not that serious,” he replied.
The distance between them suddenly felt wider than ever.
After the call ended, Joy sat still for a long time.
Her phone rested in her hand, the screen dark.
Her heart felt heavy.
Not just from the conversation—but from the feeling that something was slipping.
Something important.
The next day, Joy met Sarah again at the café.
This time, she didn’t try to hide how she felt.
“I think something is wrong,” she said.
Sarah looked concerned.
“With Alex?”
Joy nodded.
“He’s been distant. And when I tried to talk about it, he said I was overthinking.”
Sarah sighed.
“That’s not a great response.”
Joy stared at her cup.
“I don’t know what to do.”
Sarah leaned forward.
“Let me ask you something. Do you feel secure in this relationship right now?”
Joy didn’t answer immediately.
She thought about it.
The missed messages.
The short replies.
The defensive tone.
“…No,” she admitted.
Sarah nodded slowly.
“Then that’s the real issue.”
Joy looked up.
“But what if I’m pushing him away by bringing it up?”
Sarah shook her head.
“No. If someone cares about you, they won’t be pushed away by your honesty. They’ll try to understand it.”
Joy felt a mix of relief and fear.
“What if he doesn’t?”
Sarah held her gaze.
“Then you’ll have your answer.”
That night, Joy sat by her window again.
The city lights shimmered below, just like they always had.
But tonight, they didn’t bring her comfort.
Her phone buzzed.
Alex:
Hey.
Joy stared at the message.
Simple.
Casual.
As if nothing had happened.
She took a deep breath and typed.
Joy:
Can we talk? Properly.
There was a pause.
Then:
Alex:
About what?
Joy felt her heart sink slightly.
But she didn’t back down.
Joy:
About us.
A longer pause this time.
Then:
Alex:
Okay. Call me.
When the call connected, neither of them spoke immediately.
The silence felt heavier than ever.
Finally, Joy broke it.
“I don’t feel okay.”
Alex sighed softly.
“Joy…”
“No, let me finish,” she said gently but firmly.
“I’m not trying to start a fight. I just need to be honest.”
Alex nodded.
“Okay.”
Joy took a deep breath.
“I feel like you’re pulling away.”
“I’m not—”
“Please,” she interrupted softly. “Just listen.”
He stopped.
Joy continued.
“I understand that you’re busy. I really do. But it’s not just that. It’s how you talk to me now. It feels… different.”
Alex looked down for a moment.
Then back at the screen.
“I didn’t realize it was affecting you this much.”
Joy gave a small, sad smile.
“That’s part of the problem.”
Alex’s expression softened.
“I’m sorry.”
Joy’s eyes searched his.
“Are you still happy with me?”
The question hung in the air.
Raw.
Honest.
Alex didn’t answer immediately.
And that silence…
hurt more than anything.
Finally, he spoke.
“I don’t know.”
Joy felt her heart drop.
“I’ve just been… overwhelmed,” he continued. “Work is intense. Everything is new. And sometimes I feel like I don’t have enough energy for anything else.”
Joy swallowed hard.
“Am I part of the ‘anything else’?”
Alex closed his eyes briefly.
“I don’t want you to be.”
“But right now I am,” she said quietly.
He didn’t deny it.
Tears filled Joy’s eyes, but she blinked them back.
“I need to know something,” she said.
“What?”
“Are we still trying?”
Alex looked at her.
Really looked.
“I don’t want to lose you,” he said.
“That’s not what I asked.”
The silence returned.
Then Alex spoke again.
“Yes,” he said. “I still want to try.”
Joy nodded slowly.
“Then we need to do better.”
Alex agreed.
“I know.”
Joy took a shaky breath.
“Because I can’t be the only one fighting for this.”
“You’re not,” he said quickly.
“Then show me,” she replied softly.
After the call ended, Joy sat quietly.
Her heart still hurt.
But there was also something else.
Clarity.
For the first time, she wasn’t just reacting to her fear.
She was standing up for herself.
For what she deserved.
Later that night, she opened her sketchbook.
Her drawing had changed again.
The two figures were still there.
Still connected.
But now, the line between them was strained.
Not broken.
But tested.
Joy traced it slowly.
Maybe love wasn’t just about holding on.
Maybe it was also about knowing when to fight for it…
and when to demand that it fights for you too.
As she closed her sketchbook, one thought stayed with her:
Love could hurt.
But it should never make you feel alone.
- Writer
