And she walked home the long way, avoiding the main road, avoiding anyone who might have already heard—because word traveled fast in a pack this size, faster than she could outrun it even if she tried—and she let herself feel, just for those last few minutes of darkness and privacy, exactly as broken as she was.By the time she reached her aunt's porch light, she'd rebuilt the stillness in her hands. She'd practice it every day from now on, she understood. Not because it came naturally.
Because it was the only armor she had left.---Behind her, in the Pack Hall, Kane stood in the same spot for a long time after the doors swung shut.The hall was emptying slowly around him—pack members filing out in twos and threes, some throwing him careful glances, most avoiding his eyes entirely, the way people avoided the gaze of someone who'd just done something they didn't understand and weren't sure they wanted to be near. Reyes was still close, watching him with the patient, satisfied look of a man who'd gotten exactly what he came for."You did the right thing," Reyes said quietly, once most of the hall had cleared.
"The pack will forget this by the next full moon."Kane didn't answer. His eyes were on the doors Elena had walked through, still swinging faintly on their hinges."She'll forget it too," Reyes added. "Eventually."Kane's hands, at his sides, curled slowly into fists.He had not forgotten the look on her face when she'd asked him why. He didn't think he'd forget it if he lived three hundred years.
He'd stood in front of the only woman he'd ever wanted to claim and let her believe he simply didn't want her anymore, because the alternative—telling her the truth, telling her what Reyes had threatened, what the council had voted on behind closed doors two nights ago while Kane sat trapped between two impossible choices—the alternative would have destroyed her faster and worse than the lie he'd told instead. A clean rejection now, or a forced separation later, done by the council instead of by you, in whatever manner they decide is necessary.* Reyes's words, delivered flat and reasonable four nights ago, in this same hall, with the doors locked. You have one night to decide which kind of cruelty you'd rather live with, Alpha.*He'd chosen the one he could control.
The one where at least the words came from his own mouth instead of a council decree. He'd told himself that was mercy.Standing here now, watching the doors settle still, he understood it hadn't felt like mercy to her at all."Alpha." Reyes's voice, patient, testing. "Is something wrong?"Kane looked at him for a long moment—long enough that Reyes's expression flickered, just slightly, with something that might have been the first thread of unease."
No," Kane said. "Nothing's wrong."He walked out through a side door instead of the main one, because he couldn't make himself pass through the doors Elena had used, couldn't make himself retrace her exact path out of this hall, out of his life, out of the future he'd let himself imagine for four months before Reyes and the council decided it was a future the pack couldn't afford.Outside, the night was cold and clear.
He stood on the side steps and looked toward the edge of the property, toward the direction he knew Elena's aunt's house stood, though he couldn't see it from here.For one second—one single unguarded second, alone in the dark where nobody could see his face do what it wanted to do instead of what the ceremony had required—something in his chest gave the same way hers had, a tearing, a wrongness, a voice in the back of his skull screaming that he'd just made the worst mistake of his life and there might not be any fixing it.