A Glance Through My Mirror

Chapter 6

A Glance through my Mirror

Awenganda

Chapter 6

“Is he still there?”

I peeked between our garden’s big flower pots, I was clutching here like a stupid child while trying to fit on the gap of the big pots. Our female servant secretly glanced at me and smiled.

“He went to the kitchen to fetch some foods, but I think he will be here in a minute”

I stood up and got myself off in between the flower pots, our female servant carefully held my hands and help me raise my long skirt. I stretched my arms and twist my hips, my legs felt sore even my knees. I have been hiding in there for a couple of minutes but it is already tiring, I really do not appreciate this body’s physique, it’s so weak and fragile.

“Why would you hide in very weird places, Miss?”

“It’s not weird; it’s a very perfect place to hide”

I shake off all the dust and leaves out of my dress, after that I also fixed my hair that was a bit tangled and sat on a nearby chair.

“I hope we won’t stay any longer…”

I murmured as I was fixing my hair.

Our female servant seems to hear what I said. She looked at me with a big question mark on her face as she was also helping me fix me braid my hair.

“Why are you avoiding Mr. Huasson, Miss; did he do something that upsets you?”

NO. It’s because I am not your ‘Miss’ and I am afraid he might find out about my identity too soon!

That’s… what I wanted to say. In reality, I am so confused, pressured, and guilty of the things I’m doing. They might throw me in a deep dark well and let me drown and rot. First thing first, I must survive. And to do that, I need to distance myself from those people who have potential risks of discovering my identity. One of that is Mr. Gilbert Huasson, the so-called best-friend of ‘Mnemosyne’.

“I… I am too shy to face him. We’ve been apart for too long that I---“

“2 months is not that long, Miss. And you constantly sending letters to him, well… it stops after that incident”

“Oww… I didn’t know that”

OF COURSE YOU DON’T YOU LITTLE ROTTEN b***h! Ugh! I want just to smack my mouth because it blabbers so much!

Even after I said that the female servant did not seem to be bothered. Her expression projects full of understanding but at the same time, she seems down. I heard that she was our worker and servant for a long time; she was still young when ‘Mnemosyne’ was born and she was also the one who took care of ‘Mnemosyne’ when she was growing.

Maybe she also witnessed the good friendship of ‘Mnemosyne’ and Gilbert in the past.

“It seems that… you also forgot Gilbert.”

I couldn’t say anything; I want to say something to comfort her but no words came out of my mouth; so I just sat there quietly and waiting patiently to finish her braiding my hair.

“It feels like it was just yesterday when I first witnessed your friendship with Gilbert.”

“You are just so frail, weak and a crybaby lady and Gilbert always nag me how he hates being stuck with you.”

She laughs; I scoff because of what she said. Yeah, indeed this physical body of ‘Mnemosyne’ is so weak. I can totally understand Gilbert well.

“But then one time you accidentally got lost in the Capital because you threw a tantrum, Gilbert was very worried about you. You can see his eyes swelling up and his expression being so terrified. He looked all over the Capital and then finally saw you crying again over your broken mirror.”

“You wouldn’t stop crying, you were wailing like crazy beasts just because of that mirror.”

I felt my cheeks burning heat because of so much embarrassment. I got embarrassed on behalf of ‘Mnemosyne’. I place my hands on my cheeks and slap it lightly.

“Why did ‘Mnemosyne’ did that? Is she crazy?”

I whispered, our female servant stop braiding my hair and I could feel her gaze on me.

“You are too young back then; young child tends to be immature at that age. It’s pretty normal, no need to feel embarrassed about it.”

“still… I could not help but feel slightly embarrassed just by hearing about it.”

“Oh, you don’t need to, there are actually a lot of embarrassing things that you did in the past and Gilbert was the one who always cleans your mess.”

“What?! What did I do?”

I forgot that she’s still fixing my hair and just turn my head around, I immediately squealed out of pain because I accidentally pulled my own hair. Our female servant looks worried and gently caressed my pained scalp.

“Don’t turn your head suddenly, I’m still fixing your hair, behave”

“I’m sorry”

I pouted and remain sitting there quietly.

“You always got bullied whenever you go, and lump yourself down when everyone’s dragging you down. Gilbert isn’t the type of person who lets people do what they want, and every time things like these happen to you, he will fight back for you.”

“There are also times that you blabber a lot, at first Gilbert was very annoyed by your fast high pitched voice. But as time goes by, it seems like he got used to it and just letting you blabber things that doesn’t even make sense, especially when it comes to you admiring the crowned prince hahaha”

I listened earnestly to what she said, all about Gilbert and how we end up becoming a best friends. I realized for the past minutes that Gilbert Huasson has a big influence on ‘Mnemosyne’ and how big his role is to her life. Thinking about it made me felt very guilty for trying to hide from him. It seems like; he really cherished her lot, even though he was very blunt and stoned-hearted.

Honestly, I couldn’t relate to what she said. In my entire life, I never really had real friends; all my friends that I have are all users. Like they just befriended me because it’s a must and they could take advantage of our friendship for their out motives and desires.

Must be nice to have a real friend for once…

“Syne? Are you still listening?”

I was back again to reality. Our female servant had finished fixing my hair, she held my hands and looked at me worriedly.

“Are you sick? Do you want to go inside?”

I shook my head and gave her a cocky smile.

“Don’t worry, I don’t easily get sick”

I even made a pose like making my thin muscles pop out of my arms.

“You silly child, you might not remember it but you easily get sick”

I crossed my arms and frown. But I really don’t get sick easily! If only I have my own body back, ‘Mnemosyne’s health is really a nuisance.

I looked at the window near where we seated, it’s peaceful. I wanna go around for a walk, but I don’t have anyone to accompany me.

Well, there is someone who might be willing.

I looked at our female servant; she was just also looking at me, waiting for what I wanted to say. I was a bit hesitant, but I thought of everything she just said to me. It might be good for me to know at least someone other than our servants. That way, I could rely on someone if I needed to.

“Where… Where he is right now?”

Her eyes grew bigger and she almost gapes her mouth, he face brightens like it was the best thing I have ever ask. It felt a bit uncomfortable, to be honest, but well… it is what it is.

“He was just right outside the garden---oh, there he is!”

Shee pointed at someone in my back; I immediately turned my head around just to see Gilbert Huasson’s frowning and smug face. Like a wind that just passes by, I immediately regretted what I have asked for. I gulp hard because of the overwhelming nervousness; I felt my hand sweating so I just held my both hands.

It was at this moment I knew, I f****d up.

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“ahh… it’s so nice to be in here.”

I dreamingly said while sipping at my very cold and delicious mango drink. The wind that passed through my thin dress is very relaxing, my eyes also felt very relax whenever I looked around the area. Out family’s field is really wide and greenish. I never had such slack time in my previous life, I was so busy back then that I even forgot how to relax. Thinking about it made my head and back hurt, ugh! All the paper works are hellish!

“What’s that frown on your face? Did you not like the snacks and drinks I bought for you?”

The way he said it was a bit rough and harsh, but after what our female servant told me. I, at least know that he is just this kind of person. Rough but soft-hearted man in the country.

Like what I just said earlier, it’s like a wind that just passes by; what I thought earlier was just an impulse, I did not regret asking for him. He treats me well as you can see.

“I just remember something from the past, a very stressful one”

“I thought that you cannot remember anything?”

I almost choked on my own drink. I felt my mango juice went through my throat up to my nose which is very… very disgusting! Gilbert took something from his pocket and handed me his hanky which I immediately oblige.

“Careful”

He said with a disgusted face. As soon as I saw it, I then threw his hanky on his face. He was even more disgusted by it and picked it up while lifting his pinky.

I am at the edge right now if I really did regret asking for him or not. My rationality is in chaos.

“Can you be at least be more hmm… gentleman?  Or do you even know what gentleman is?”

“I am gentleman, I gave you everything you want but don’t expect me to accept everything in you because I really despise your lack of… hygiene”

“You son of a b***h…”

I mumbled but it seems like he heard it because he raised his left brow like a girl.

“That’s the first time I heard you curse. You were a total girly back then. Seems like, drowning yourself in the river made you like that huh.”

“Do not start with me.”

He raises his both arms like he was surrendering, but his cocky smile didn’t even vanish on his face.

“Chill, I’m just saying”

“Just finished your drink and snacks.”

“You just ate it all”

He giggled and stole my Choco chip that I was biting. I did not argue with that and just let him have it, since I already have enough.

“So, after days of hiding. Why did you suddenly look for me?”

I did hear what he said but it made my mind go blank. For a couple of minutes, we were silent. He let me have my own though first, seems like he is being so considerate with me, as always. The scenery in the green field made me though of positive things, and that positivity made me smile.

I turned my head and looked at him. I am trying to unleash this body’s memories with him but I couldn’t think of any. He was like a total stranger to me, but it’s funny that I felt assured and relaxed with him. Maybe her memories cannot remember but her body does.

 “It was very tough for me, not remembering anything from my past…”

Lies

“I was still adjusting for this normality, and it’s a bit too much for me to face someone who’s dear to me… which I cannot remember.”

More lies…

“But for the past days of hiding, I thought of it very well. I realized that I should’ve hidden from you, it might be nothing for me since I’m the one who cannot remember but it is different for you guys.”

Another white lie…

“So, even if I cannot remember anything; I decided to face all of you and start a new life... after all, you guys are still part of my life.”

I smiled in a very sincerest way. I’ve become more and more expert on telling lies, I will not be surprised Satan was to pick me up personally.

He did not say anything, we were just silent for a couple of minutes. Later on, he sighs heavily, he looked at the sky sadly and then looked at me. For a moment I thought that he already found out the truth. My heart is pounding so loudly, my hands are shaking a bit but it all vanished when he suddenly stood up, walk towards where I am, and hugs me tightly.

I don’t know the reason why he did that, it made me so confused but at the same time emotional. It was the first time someone comforted me other than my family in this world. I hug him tightly and couldn’t help but to cry. He caressed my hair lightly and softly whispered to my eyes.

“I miss you, I will always miss you. I know it’s hard but hang on there.”

 I sobbed loudly and held him tightly. Minutes past and we were just like that, silent and at peace until he spoke.

“Do not snort on my clothes, it's expensive.”

“Shut up you wealthy freak”

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End of Chapter 6