falling for you

chapter 8

Corbin.

I haven't slept. I look myself over in this filthy mirror of sages she's laying naked on the bed giggling from her new high, yeah we've been doing the coke for a couple days now. I just did mine and I'm hoping to run home real fast and get cleaned up before meeting mark.

I hear a knock at her door and groan it's probably some of her friends or the landlord, he apparently wants some money for rent.

I'm not really sure how she survives she hardly goes into work And from what I've seen most of her money is in booze and drugs.

" I'll get it lover"

she says as she stumbled into a robe

" why are you here"

I hear her and then my world falls apart

" I'm looking for Corbin"

fuck! why is mark at the door? I thought I was meeting him at my house at 8. I pull my phone out looking to see if maybe I missed a call but no no missed call but my time is flashing 930

shit!

" yeah he's here. wanna come in"

I can hear her tone she's probably trying to poke her flat chest out right now.

I turn the corner and see mark and her leaning against the door frame her robe almost open. his eyes aren't on her, they are on the mess on the table. he's a cop I know he can tell what we've been doing on it

" mark man sorry I lost track of time. let's get going I'm ready"

I push past sage and I can feel his eyes on my burning a hole

" no goodbye kiss lover"

I groan

" bye sage I'll see you around"

and with that I pull the door closed and head her giggle from behind it.

before I can even think straight he pushes me against the wall

" what the hell is going on Corbin?!"

I wanna lie. I wanna say it isn't as bad as it seems but nothing comes out. he stares me in the eyes and pushes off from me

" come on" be grits out.

once we're in his truck the silence is killing me. is he gonna turn me in? is he done with me now?

I was so caught up in my own thoughts I hadn't realized he'd parked in front of my house until he cleared his throat

" go get cleaned you look like s**t"

I just nodded like a child and went and into my house.

I showered quickly and threw on some clean clothes.

my high is still there so my leg isn't hurting thankfully.

I find him standing in my kitchen drinking some water. he chunks a bottle towards me and I catch it

" I'm sorry man"

pathetic I know but I have no idea what else to say.

' oh hey I stopped going to my therapy and my work out not to mention work because I'm so caught up in my own head not wanting to bring your sister down and then watching her date some other dude that I started f*****g Around and doing drugs'

yeah that doesn't even sound like a good conversation

" how long?"

I look at him wondering what to say

" I did the coke for the first time the other day. pills. we've been doing that for a little while"

he sighs running his hand through his hair

" damn it Corbin! what happened?"

I chug some water

" I was just taking the edge of. trying to get out of my head"

he shakes his head

" look we will finish this later. but just know I'm pissed."

I nod

we make our way towards the furniture store where Emma is apparently there picking out some

when he parks he looks over at me shaking his head slight. I've got on sunglasses and a hat trying to hide my bloodshot eyes

" how long since you slept?"

I shrug

" about two days"

" God damn it Matthews! "

he gets out slamming the door

so I follow

" look Emma is excited so if you can't get it under control just for a few hours then leave because this is big for her"

damn I knew he'd be pissed but I didn't think it's be this bad. we used to get into so much trouble together when we were younger. but I guess truth be told we're adults now. and coke well coke is bad. real bad. not to mention eating the pills like candy.

I just nod my head as we make our way in.

we soon find Emma and Dylan and I just want to leave but I know I can't. they are standing in each other's arms as he spins her slightly and she giggles throwing her hair back

" I know I know I don't need a new one but look how beautiful it is"

I hear her say and he chuckles kissing her nose

" sweetie I didn't say anything other than we'd have to make two trips unless your brother got the trailer"

he says to her. ugh! I know I have no right to be jealous. I kissed her and ran like a child.

mark clears his throat smiling at them

as she turns red hiding her face slightly

" I did get the trailer I knew she would end up with more"

mark announced and Emma jumps up and down clapping happily

Emma pov.

being with Dylan is like a fairy tale he's always so sweet and acts like such a gentleman.

I was a little embarrassed my bother and Corbin saw us basically cuddling in the furniture store but it was like we were wrapped in our own world.

once my brother let us know he has the trailer I was so excited. I'd already picked out the couch I wanted but then I fell in love with a canopy bed. it was absolutely beautiful and I couldn't wait to get it home and deck it out the way I wanted.

tomorrow me, Casey and if course Miley are going shopping for things like new comforter and curtains. and let's not forget kitchen things.

daddy has a table he's letting me have and a few odds and ends. I'm just so excited to be making this step.

I had paid for my things and as I was watching the guys load up I couldn't help but worry about Corbin. he hadn't said much to me but he did shake Dylan's hand. it's weird between us and I don't want that, even if he doesn't want me I still want us to be like we have always been.

but today he looks rough, run down and his eyes are bloodshot. he tried quickly to put his shades on once we got our the store to start loading things but I noticed.

I hope that mark has talked to him.

I did a little happy dance once everyone was tied down and loaded and the guys laughed at my excitement.

" oh shut up guys this is my first adult move to make"

my brother pulled me in for a hug

" you might be moving out but your still so excited about life" he says making me shrug

oddly enough Corbin pulled me in for a hug which I gladly returned

" we're just proud of you sunshine"

I pulled away because I definitely don't need my emtions getting to me in front of everyone.

and Dylan is here I need to remember Corbin only sees me as a friend.

I smile

" thanks guys now let's go so I can show you the house. it's so cute! and has a little fenced in yard I'm thinking of getting a dog so I won't be lonely "

the guys chuckle again at my rambling as we take off towards my house. I'm with Dylan as he leads my brother there he knows where it is since he helped me check out houses.

" so everything okay with y'all's friend?"

he asks and I look over at him sighing

" I honestly don't know. but I'm sure mark is on it they've been friends since grade school "

he nods I can tell he wants to say more but doesn't and for that I'm thankful.

once we get there I hop out and grab my keys

" okay guys isn't it just adorable?"

" we're gonna have to get you an alarm "

mark says and I see Corbin nodding along

I roll my eyes

" I can see you two talked that one over one the way here".

they just smile at me. but I honestly wouldn't expect anything less from them

as the guys unload the things we hiked and had a pretty good time, after Corbin hugged me it seemed like all the tension or anger we had between us wasn't there anymore and I'm glad.

they had just put the couch down in the living room when I plopped down on it. I kick off my sandals just taking a moment before I feel someone tickle my foot making me jump. I absolutely hate being tickled

" stop you jerk"

I say pulling my feet away trying to give Corbin an angry face, he knows I hate being tickled or maybe he forgot.

he laughs

" you can't be tired we're doing all the lifting"

I roll my eyes

" making sure y'all don't mess it up is exhausting"

before I can even think I'm being lifted up and thrown over his shoulder, I hit his back

" put me down you mammoth"

he laughs

" ohhh marky someone wants to be tickled"

he shouts walking out the door, I can only imagine how this looks to Dylan right now me hanging off a sweaty Corbin. I hear my brother laugh

" oh is that so?"

then he starts tickling my sides as Corbin holds me

I'm hits corbins back and thrashing around trying to get lose

" ughhh guys stopppp"

I yel and they laugh

" so you take it back?"

" yes!! I take it back"

they keep laughing but he finally sets me down my head dizzy from being upside down screaming. I like him in his hard chest

" watch your back"

I turn to my brother

" and you too"

I give them my mean look and they share a look before busting out laughing again

" why are y'all torturing my girl?"

Dylan asks as he throws his arm around my shoulder

" she had it coming. and she hates being tickled. haven't gotten to do it in a while"

Corbin shrugs and I roll my eyes

" you could've helped ya know".

I say to Dylan but he just smiles

" I'm not sure how much help I would've been jt was pretty funny"

I roll my eyes again

" I don't like any of you guys. "

I pout

" hm well come on Corbin, dylan lets go get lunch since she doesn't like us she can put her bed together"

mark says smirking at me and I fake gasp

" you guys wouldn't do that to me"

they chuckle

" of course not sunshine. come on let's finish up because I am hungry "

I stick my tongue out at my brother who does the same back

we all get the parts to my bed to my room and the guys start putting it together of course with our the instructions.

mark takes a phone call and Corbin goes to get some tools from the truck

" why does he call you sunshine?"

Dylan asks breaking the silence we'd been sitting in while I looked over the instructions.

I give a small shrug

" he always has claims I'm always happy "

he nods his head and Corbin walks back in

" that's because you are. oddly enough unless you are being tickled "

he says with a laugh.

while the guys finished up I order everyone some pizza we sat on my living room floor eating out of the boxes since I don't have any plates or even electric here yet. if should all be done tomorrow. I just look around sighing. I can't believe I'm gonna be on my own.

we made small talk and I noticed Corbin started rubbing his leg slightly and I know he does that when it starts giving him trouble.

he excuses himself to go pee in my back yard

( yes there's another eye roll there guys are so weird)

I start cleaning up the pizza mess while the other start bringing the tools and things back to my brothers truck. I walk out the back door with the pizza boxes and almost run into Corbin

" you gotta stop doing that"

he says playful taking the boxes from my hands. I rub my hands down my shirt a little uncomfortable being alone with him, last time we kissed and ugh! let's just say I thought about that kiss for way to long

" well we both know I don't watch where I'm going"

he smiles at me shaking his head. he throws the boxes away putting his hands in his pockets

he looks me over and I do the same, I wanna ask what he's been up to since I hadn't seen him around but with as little as sage has been showing up to work I can take a guess at what they are doing. I shake the thoughts from my head

" so you ready even on your own?"

I shrug thinking about it

" I think so. I honestly don't think daddy will ever start dating as long as I stay in the house and he needs to get out and a least try "

he nods his head understanding

" how have you been?"

he rubs the back of his neck no longer looking at me I see him take a deep breath

" rough but I'm gonna get better "

he looks me in the eyes now like he's making a promise to me. but why?

" I sure hope so, you are looking a little run down if I'm being honest "

he smirks at me

" leave it to you to be honest. but yeah I've gotta make some changes"

I nod

" well you may wanna tell sage she's gonna lose her job if she doesn't start showing up "

he shakes his head slightly

" I'll relay the message. but that's one of the things I've gotta start changing "

I lift a brow confused

" you are breaking up with her?"

he chuckles lightly

" we aren't exactly dating but yeah think it's best if I put some distance there "

I hum slightly

" well she's gonna be upset. she's head over heels for you "

this makes him laugh

" trust me. the girl is head over heels for anyone paying her attention "

I just nod not really knowing what to say

he steps slightly closer and I look up at him in his tired eyes

" he treating you right?"

for a moment I'm lost in his eyes before I clear my throat nodding

" uh yeah he's a great guy"

he nods

" that's all I want for you sunshine "

he pulls me in giving me a hug and return in taking in his smell with a sigh

" corb?"

I whisper into his chest but my brother and Dylan pick that moment to come out the door

" aw did he Apologize for tickling you"

my brother jokes and we pull away from each other I can feel Dylan looking between us

" yeah finally. but I'm still getting y'all back when you least expect it "

I say

" wouldn't expect anything less sis"

we share a laugh as I try to clear my head.i wanted to ask him why he kissed me, I wanted to know why he wouldn't even give us a chance but a part of me is glad they came when they did. maybe I don't want to know, maybe the truth would hurt more.

Dylan takes my hand kissing my cheek

" let's get you home. you've got a busy day of shopping tomorrow ".

I nod agreeing. thanking the guys once again for their help and looking over at Corbin one more time and find his eyes around on me.

ugh why does he have to be so complicated. why does he have to confuse my head.