Chapter Eleven ‘No’ and with that small word I knew I had hope and that there was something worth fighting for. She seemed reluctant to talk at first, so I told her everything that David had told me and it seemed to help her, knowing she didn’t have to describe those times to me herself, knowing that I knew how dark her life had been and therefore understood to some degree why she was so depressed now and eventually she started to open up. ‘Chris I was so happy. I’d just had the most wonderful night ever, I was in the arms of someone who made me feel so safe and secure and cherished and then in that one moment when I turned and saw him I was back in a time when I felt worthless. I didn’t feel as if I had a right to the happiness I felt. When I looked at Phil I felt the love I once had

