Love Without Limit

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I came back from my reverie. Nagtungo ako sa sink upang kumuha ng tissue upang basain ito at pinunas sa aking hita. Wiping our excess earlier.

I looked at myself in the mirror. The dark circles under my eyes are getting darker. I lost a lot of pounds.

Napabuntong hininga ako. I pick up my skirt and zip it. I never thought I would end up like this. I never thought my marriage would end up like this. I just wanted to be loved. I just wanted a happy marriage.

Kung alam ko lang ganito ang kakahangtungan ng marriage life ko di sana pinagtanggol ko si Kath.

I wiped my tears away and composed myself.

Inayos ko ang aking buhok bago lumabas.

luckily walang tao sa station kaya malaya akong nakalabas. The cold wind touches my thighs. I touch my skirt, paranoid baka lumipad ito o tumaas. I walk back to my car.

Nagulat pa ako ng makita si Gael doon, puffing his cigarette.

Pinatunog ko ang sasakyan at pumasok nang hindi siya binabalingan ng tingin. I'm too tired to give him a glance. My back ache from what happened earlier .

Ako'y nagulat ng umikot siya at binuksan ang driver seat. Tiningala ko siya.

"Move." He ordered.

Agad akong kumilos. I unclaps my seat belt and move to the passenger seat. He slid in and started the engine.

what about his car? Gusto ko man itanong nanatili akong tahimik. He won't answer me anyway.

Nanatili akong tahimik buong byahe. I busy myself looking at the dark road outside.

I don't have the energy to talk and studlle. Pagod ako, gusto ko nalang ay umuwi at matulog.

The deafening silence broke when my phone rang. Kinuha ko ito at nakita si mom ang tumatawag.

"Hello, Cathy."

"po?" I said weakly.

I cleared my throat to regain my voice.

Biglang natahimik si mom. Minutes before she spoke again.

"Are you sick hija? Do you want mommy to come over?"

I cleared my throat. trying to hold back the tears in my eyes. Hearing her voice sent comfort to my heart. The only person who love me the most, made my heart ache for longingness.

"No, mom... I'm just tired. bakit po kayo napatawag?"

"hmm...sa susunod ko nalang sasabihin sayo, Cath."

"No, mom I'm listening."

"The thing is, Kathryn is back."

Mas lalong nawasak ang puso ko. Ngumiti ako ng mapait.

"Good, then..."

"Do you want to spend the night here? wala pa naman ang kapatid mo dito. Let's spend time hija. tayong dalawa lang? Hmm?"

Tumango ako.

"Alright, mom... I'll be there."

Pinatay ko ang tawag at binalik ito. I turn to Gael whose seriously, driving. I looked away before speaking.

"You can sleep in the house tonight o kung saan mo gusto... mommy wants me to spend the night with her. Let's drop you off first then I will drive to our house." Kalmado kong saad.

Hindi niya ako sinagot as expected. I remain silent too.

My forehead crease when he took a wrong turn. Hindi yoon ang daan patungo sa bahay, gusto ko man mag salita nanatili akong tahimik dahil baka sa ibang bahay siya mamatulog... Sanay na ako.

I'm surprised when the car stops in front of my house. I pick up all of my things and went out without a word.

Nagulat ako ng marinig ang kalabog ng pintoan. I turned back and saw him walking towards me. I flinch when his hand flew in the air. It stop midway when he saw my reaction.

Nagtungo lang pala ito sa aking likod. Nag iwas ako ng tingin ng makita ang malalim nitong pagtitig sa akin.

"I'll say hi to your parents," he said.

Tumango ako. A bit uncomfortable with his touch. Ng tangkain kong alis ang kanyang kamay hinigpitan niya ang paghawak sa aking bewang hindi na ako pumalag at hinayaan nalang ang kanyang kamay.

Pumasok kami sa loob. Dad was in the living room watching Tv. agad akong lumapit at hinalikan ang kanyang pisngi.

Mom came out of the kitchen. Sinalubong niya ako ng yakap.

nagtaas siya ng kilay at tinignaan ang aking asawa na nakikipag usap kay Dad.

"What is he doing here?"

"He drops me off."

Tumango siya at ngumuwi. Lumapit si Gael sa amin at nag beso kay mommy.

"Ma...goodevening." He said.

Tumango si mommy.

"Dito na kayo matutulog?" tanong ni Dad.

umiling ako.

"Gael just drop me off, Dad. Uuwi po siya ngayon."

"Iiwan mo ang asawa mo mag isa?"

"May work po kasi siya bukas...wala po siyang damit dito."

"Kahit na hindi magandang tignan ang nag iisang asawa sa bahay. You stay here hijo-"

"Rafael, ngayong gabi ko lang naman hihiramin ng anak ko. Hindi naman siguro ipagdadamot ni Gael yoon."

Nilingon ko so Gael na nakatitig sa akin. umiwas ako ng tingin. I bite my lower lip.

"It's okay Pa...just for tonight I'll leave my wife here."

"No-"

"Rafael!" mommy said in a warning tone.

Dad shut up at walang nagawa. Nilipat ni Daddy ang tingin sa akin.

"Ihatid mo ang asawa mo sa labas."

Tumango ako. Nag paalam si Gael kina mommy at daddy bago lumabas.

Ng nasa labas na kami agad kong niyakap ang sarili ko dahil sa lamig. When we reach the gates I closed it immediately when he got out. Hindi ko na hintay makasakay siya sa kotsye agad na akong pumasok sa loob.

Mom dislikes Gael, nakita niya kasi kong paano ako kinaladkad ni Gael papasok ng bahay when she decided to give us a surprise visit.

I beg her na wag sasabihin kay daddy. Because I love him at ayaw kong mahiwalay sa kanya. Cause for sure if dad knows bout it paghihiwalayin niya kami ni Gael and I don't want it to happen.

noon...