How It Goes

CHAPTER ONE

Everywhere was blurry, the sound coming from the environment was sounding like an echo and my legs were quivering like only God knows what . I think I was even finding it hard to breathe, I'm not really sure because my brain stopped working for about quarter of a minute .

When my brain finally came back from its sabbatical I began to hear what was being said in my environment . The first one I thing I heard was from a being with a high pitched voice,

'... so you had better find someplace to stick your butt cause Clark is now mine, heck the whole school knows that we are meant to be. Thank goodness he's done fooling around with you and finally decided to do the inevitable. I'm sure all this time he was with you, he only did it out of pity, anyways ...'

I'm sure that she was bound to say alot more if Clark hadn't interrupted

' Joan it's enough ', Clark said calmly ' I think she has gotten the message clearly '

At least he knew his new job and was certainly doing it because I was wondering if he was just going to stand there watching Joan blab all she wanted .

Joan was nothing short of a loquacious person , she could go on talking if she wasn't interrupted or held back making her so unreliable when it came to keeping secrets. One time in junior year, she gave out a secret of a classmate and trusted how bad news circulates.

Timmy, the owner of the secret , was left dumbfounded as he could not believe that his childhood friend could give him away. Obviously, that was a the turning point of their friendship, they both went their separate ways. His parents had to withdraw him from the school, that is to show you the gravity of what she did but that's old scores now.

Right at that moment the only thing on my mind was revenge but wait a minute, why would I want to revenge?, Clark certainly did not deserve it, come to think of it, what did he even see in her? , but I was sure that whatever it was, he was definitely going to regret it. I stood there watching them as they walked towards the exit of the hallway.

My eyes were gradually getting filled up with tears as I stood there but then I got confused, why was I crying?, I mean for all I cared he was a jerk.

The thoughts going on in my head were so much that I walked briskly to the restroom, at least to clear my head.

Staring at myself for a long time was a wrong thing to do because then I began find faults in myself. The handkerchief in my pocket came in handy as I was able to dab my tears before they were able to escape and I I did it timely too because my friends burst open the door as if I was being held hostage.

Before I knew it, they were all around me and like magic my mood was lifted. They were more than one could wish for, the three of them. I was about to tell them that I was alright but Cathy had already burst out in rage, or was it solidarity? , well I guess it was one out of the two.

' how dare he do that to you after everything you both have been through?', she asked rhetorically ' it's quite obvious that he doesn't deserve you'

' as if he ever deserved her ' , Nadine said as she shook her head slightly in a way that made her blonde hair toss, she was fond of doing that and it always got me wondering if she was trying to be a diva,' the only person he deserves is Joan and thank goodness they are finally together'

what they were saying was all beginning to make some sense to me , now I was beginning to regain my self esteem.

' that's true because I am sure that the only reason he took to his heels was because he knew that you were definitely going to end things with him so he did it only to still have people think highly of him'

' highly you say ' Julie scoffed, that was the first thing she had said and I was not expecting that because she's sort of taciturn. she placed her hand on my shoulder,' Lydia you are so lucky that you were able to get a jerk out of your life because if you hadn't, I am not sure if I will be associate myself with you '

The truth remained that I would not have ended things with Clark despite what he did and that continued to baffle me but I guess it was his guilty conscience that moved him. I was also not sure if I was going to tell my friends what I had in mind because if I did they would think that I was losing my mind.

' you did well not to waste your tears on that scumbag' ,Cathy said and I took a very little gulp, it was as if my friends knew what I would do and were rubbing it on me. well, I had to keep my cool in order not to blow my cover, ' the direction you two were headed was so toxic and he only showed how shallow minded he was by running off only because you refused to his advances of getting you laid....'

And that it, Cathy had said it all, what Clark has done, it didn't hurt me to hear her say it but I don't think I could say the same for the other two.

' Cathy!', Nadine and Julie exclaimed

' I thought Lydia made us promise that we wouldn't say a word of truth about what happened that day', Julie completed the statement that was meant to succeed the exclamation.

' I know that we weren't supposed to say a word, for some reason best known to her but come to think of it, if he could humiliate her why can't she do the same?', she asked with her hand on her hip.

'That's because....' , I had already had enough so I decided to end the conversation .

' that's okay', I said,' I appreciate your concern but I would not have you talk about me as if I were not here'

That was actually the first thing I had said ever since the ' you know what ' and I could tell from their faces that they didn't see it coming.

' oh Lydia ', Cathy said in a soft tone,' we are sorry if we made you feel mad '

' no, it's nothing, I just want to forget everything that's all'

The bell was rung indicating the beginning of the first period so we all hurried out of the restroom . Even though I didn't know what else to expect for the day, I knew it was going to be a long day .