Lyra's Pov
They're calling me 'the Marked w***e' in the pack kitchens.
Three days after I returned from the Wildlands, the new reality has settled in like a heavy weight on my chest. I am back at the healer's den because it is the only place they still let me work. The familiar smell of herbs and medicines usually calmed me. Now it feels like another cage. I keep my head down and mix salves, but every person who walks through the door reminds me how far I have fallen.
Some pack members come with real injuries. A gamma warrior with a cut on his arm sits down and lets me clean it. But most come just to stare. They want a closer look at the mark on my neck. A young mother walks in carrying her sick toddler. When I reach out to check the boy's fever, she pulls him back fast. "Don't touch him," she snaps. "I don't want a rogue's mark contaminating my son."
My hands freeze in the air. The shame burns so hot I can barely breathe. Head Healer Iris steps forward and takes over. "Let me handle this, Lyra." Her voice is kind, but I see the discomfort in her eyes too. Even now she does not know what to do with me.
The isolation feels complete. Former friends who used to laugh with me in this same room now walk past the window without stopping. They cross to the other side of the path when they see me. Only Mara still comes around, but I can tell her family is already pressuring her to stay away. She brings me water and tries to smile, but her eyes are sad. I hate that I am dragging her down with me.
I wipe my hands on a cloth and keep working. Every whisper, every stare chips away at what is left of me. Three days. That is all it took for the pack to decide who I am now.
The door opens again later that morning. My stomach drops when I see Derek. He walks in with a small cut on his hand that looks fake. He does not need me. He just wants something.
I force myself to stay professional. My hands shake as I clean the tiny wound. I can feel the rage building under my skin, but I bite it back.
"I never meant to hurt you, Lyra," he says quietly. "The mate bond with Ivy... it was overwhelming. I could not fight it."
I keep my eyes on his hand. "You were with me for five years, Derek. You knew something felt off. You used me."
He shifts in his seat. "I thought maybe the bond would snap with you eventually. You were safe. Comfortable."
The words land like a slap. Comfortable. That is all I was to him. Five years of my life, my hopes, my body, reduced to something easy. Something he kept around until the real thing showed up. Something inside me breaks a little more.
Derek keeps talking, voice low. "If you had just been patient, maybe we could have stayed friends."
I let out a laugh that sounds broken and bitter even to my own ears. "Get out."
He looks surprised for a second, then stands up. As he walks to the door, I realize the truth. He is not sorry he hurt me. He is only sorry he got caught. The guilt on his face is for himself, not for what he did to me.
I watch the door close behind him and feel the last piece of our old relationship die.
Ivy shows up later in the afternoon. It is clearly planned. She timed it perfectly after Derek left. She sits down with a sweet smile and asks for a tonic for "new mate exhaustion." The words are meant to stab me. She wants me to picture them together.
"Are you doing okay, Lyra?" she asks, fake concern dripping from every word. "I worry about you."
I have to play along. I am still working here. I measure the herbs carefully while my jaw stays tight. "I am fine."
Ivy leans closer. "Derek is so attentive. I never knew marking could be this intense." She touches her own mark and sighs. "Father is so proud. Finally has the son-in-law he always wanted."
Each sentence is designed to hurt. I keep my face blank even though my hands want to shake. "Your mark is pretty though," she adds, looking at my neck. "Shame you do not know whose it is."
I stay quiet. I have to. But then Ivy drops the act completely. Her smile turns sharp. "You know what is funny? I always knew he was mine. I could smell it on him. I let him date you because it was entertaining. Watching you think you had something real."
The revelation hits hard. Years. She let it go on for years on purpose. The cruelty was planned. My chest feels tight. I grip the edge of the table until my knuckles turn white.
Ivy stands up, satisfied. "Enjoy your tonic."
When she leaves, the dam breaks. I walk into the back storage room where no one can see me and lose it. I smash a bottle against the shelf. Then another. Glass shatters everywhere. I scream into my arm to muffle the sound. Tears run down my face as I slide down the wall. Everything hurts. The betrayal from Derek. The way Ivy enjoyed it. The pack turned on me. I feel like I am breaking apart.
Iris finds me a few minutes later. She does not yell. She just starts picking up glass quietly. "This pack is poison for you, child," she says gently. "You need to leave."
I wipe my face with my sleeve. "I have nowhere to go."
Iris looks at me with sad eyes. "Then make somewhere. You are stronger than this place ever deserved."
Her words give me the first moment of clarity I have felt in days. Maybe exile would not be the worst thing. At least I would not have to live like this. But the fear is still there. How would I survive alone? No pack. No protection. Just me and this mark on my neck.
That night in my room, I sat on my bed and examined the mark again. It has been burning at odd times during the day. Now it pulses with warmth under my fingers. I press my hand to it and swear I feel something. Not just pain. Something else. Emotions that are not mine. Frustration. Longing. A sense of searching.
I pull my hand away fast. I must be imagining it. The grief is making me crazy. But my wolf stirs inside me, stronger than usual. She insists quietly, "He is looking for us."
I whisper back to her in the dark room. "Then why has he not found us?"
No answer comes. I fall asleep still touching the mark, dreams filled with shadows and those red-gold eyes that refuse to leave me alone.
I didn't know that hundreds of miles away, a powerful Alpha was tearing apart the Wildlands, searching desperately for a girl who smelled like wild roses and tasted like salvation.