Chapter 65: Monologue
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Ghastly white walls… Breathing apparatus… Smell of disinfectant… Earlier that day when Ashton had began regaining his consciousness it wasn’t difficult for him to understand where he was. He opened his eyes looking around and quickly put two and two together…
I don’t really know… What made me get to where I am. Was I always supposed to end up all alone in the hospital like this?
What did I expect to happen?
I can’t even have a normal relationship with another person…
I was so desperately looking for something… for someone… to hold onto… Has truly nothing changed for all these years? Am I still the same naïve man I once was? Or have I gotten worse?
I’m still leading this miserable life because I don’t have the strength to escape it… Right here and right now
