When The Time Is Right ✔

Chapter 13

I couldn’t sleep that night. Louis’ face was all over my mind. The way he looked at me, it seems like he is asking for something.

I know. Time.

He asked for some time to sort his feelings out. That just means he wants me to think that there is still hope for us.And I don’t want to think that way. If I did, I would just be the old stupid Hana Tejeros who fell for the wrong Prince. I know better now.

And besides, if he really loves me, he wouldn’t even be confused. He wouldn’t even need time. I know the Bible said that Love is patient but I can’t keep hurting myself waiting for someone who was busy sorting his feelings out.

I deserve better. Every woman deserves the best man. I do too. And right now, Louis’ nowhere near the ideal man in my life.

We started off. We started really messy – our relationship. Everything was a complication. Everything was f****d up. He was with my best friend. I was his fiancée. I was seeing Zian. From that mere scenario, I know that he is not meant for me.

But I still fell for him. I still spent five years of my life wanting him and wishing he would come back to me when I told him that I missed him. But no, he shoved me away. He wanted me stay away from him.

From then, I knew that I should really move on. Those five years of hope, those five years of wishful thinking only made me suffer so much. I have to stop torturing myself. I have to stop blaming myself, too.

Everyone makes wrong decisions too. I’m just an extreme example of how one decision would make your life miserable. I was miserable. And I have to be happy. I guess five years of misery was enough consequence for me. Maybe I deserve happiness now. Somehow. With Zian Woo.

My phone suddenly vibrated.

From: Woo Jiho

Watch Music Champion in 10 minutes.

I narrowed my eyes at his message. What is he up to now? But then, due to my curiosity, I walked to the receiving area and turned the TV on. It’s a good thing that I have finished all my paper works so, I’m just waiting my time out.

I sat on the couch and watched Music Champion.

“Hello, everyone! We have here Charge who had just made their comeback!” The host beamed as I heard some screams from the audience. Then there’s the band members behind him with all smiles.

I smiled as I saw them smiling and happy like that. I know these guys. They are really friendly and they are hardworking. That’s why they succeeded.

Charge smiled and bowed to the audience. They enthusiastically greeted as they bowed once more. Well, isn’t their greeting a bit redundant?

But anyway. It’s their trademark – bowing in front of the audience.

“Tell us about your new song.” The hostess asked and the mic was given to Zian.

Oh! Zian now because he looks like an idol. I mean, he is an idol. But he’s still Zian Woo. My Zian.

I smiled when he looked at camera. I know I act like a fool but why did I feel like he is smiling back at me when he smiled in there?

Hah! His words must have left a big impact on me! Which is good. I’m loving this feeling.

“Well the song is about loving a girl too deeply that you think no one is better than her. There’s this part in the lyrics that says, ‘Except for you, everything looks plain’. It was that kind of love where you see only her and adore only her.”

I looked at Zian’s eyes and it feels like he is looking back at me. Is this why he wants me to watch this interview?

“Wow! It’s such a deep song.” The host beamed. “Do you have an inspiration when you made this song?” He asked again.

Zian just chuckled. “I actually wrote this song five years ago, when I had a girlfriend that I really loved. But I didn’t want to release this song when I know that she wouldn’t hear it. So, we’re releasing this now, now that she’s back, to tell her that nothing changed. She is still the only HER for me.”

I didn’t know why my tears are brimming in my eyes right now after hearing Zian’s words. He doesn’t really fail to catch my heart no matter what he does. And what was he thinking? He is an idol. He has a lot of fans. Why is he telling this on public TV?

He’s just telling me that he loves me more than anyone else. I can’t help but feel bad for leaving again. Ugh! He always gives me a freaking guilt trip.

“Is she watching right now?” The hostess asked.

Zian chuckled and looked at the camera. “HER, are you watching?” He asked and the audience grew wild.

I can’t help but smile and nod. “Yes. I am watching.” I replied as if he could hear me. My heart is beating loudly. I couldn’t help but chuckle. This time, I’m more than convinced. I am for Zian. No one else but him.

**

“Miss Hana, do you need something?” Nicole asked me as I walked to her.

I shook my head. “You can go. We don’t have any work to do. You can call this a day.” I smiled at her.

Honestly, I’m too happy today. I don’t want to work. Yes. I get that feeling from time to time too. Besides, I’m really done for the day.

She looked at me, surprised. “Are you sure, Miss Hana? We still have two hours.” She confirmed.

I smiled and nodded. “Yes. You can go.” I replied. “I’m going too.” I showed her my bag. She smiled at me and nodded. “Okay! If you say so!” She beamed then she immediately fixed her things.

I chuckled and walked to the door. “Lock the door when you leave! Bye, Nicky!” I waved as I opened the door. She nodded and smiled back then she continued fixing her things. I left her and walked to my car.

I was never been this relieved and touched in the whole last five years of my life. It was like a resurrected feeling for me. It was like I’m feeling new again.

Maybe I was too busy looking back that I have not known what I have to be in the future. I was so into dwelling into my past that I forgot that the real deal is the present and the future. I was too stupid looking at the wrong Prince. I was too blind to see that the right one was with me all along.

I walked to the parking lot when someone dragged me to one of the alleys and pinned on the wall. My eyes widened when I saw Louis’ face so close into mine.

“W-what are you doing?” I asked him, stammering. “Let go of my hands.” I ordered as I yanked my hands from his grip. But he was too strong.

He took a deep breath then he looked at me in the eyes. “Please,” he breathed. “Please tell me you still love me.” He told me.

I looked at him, confused of what he is asking me to do. Why would I tell him I love him?

“What are you talking about?” I asked. I don’t really get what’s getting into his  mind. First, he’s telling me to stay away from him because he doesn’t want to complicate things with his girlfriend, then, he asks me to give him time to sort his feelings out, then now, he’s asking me to tell him that I still love him.

He tells me he’s confused but right now, I am too. I am confused of what he is thinking. I am confused of his actions.

A part of me wants him to come back but a bigger part of me wants to move on. I want to move with Zian, leave the past behind and be happy.

He shut his eyes. “Please, Hana.” He spoke my name. “Please tell me you still think about me. If you can’t tell me that you still love me, please. Please, tell me that I still occupy your mind before you go to sleep and when you wake up.” He told me.

I looked at him and suddenly all my defenses are falling down. How can you have that strong will to forget one person but then he shows up and you’re back to square one again? How can there such be a stupid feeling when you’re hurting but you know that the only person who could heal you is the same exact person who hurt you?

I sighed hard. Just when I have convinced myself that I am for someone else, Louis comes back and ruins everything. He sidetracks me from all the principles I am living with. And now I am staring into his eyes and I have this feeling that if I don’t take him down now, I would be making another big mistake in my life.

Hana doesn’t make the same mistake twice. I have been hurt enough. I don’t want to hurt again. I took a deep breath. “Louis-“

“You still occupy her mind before she sleeps and when she wakes up, Pascual. But that’s not love. That’s guilt.”

I was shocked to see Zian standing at the side. How could he come here when I just saw him on TV? Is he Flash or what? Is he an alien who could teleport?

Right then, Louis looked at him and loosened his grip on me. “I am not talking to you.” He scowled at Zian. “Get your ass out of here. Mind your own business. I’m talking to my fiancée.”

Zian countered with a smirk and crossed his arms. “Fiancée?” He raised his brow. “Correction: Ex-fiancée.” He told Louis.

Louis gritted his teeth and clenched his fists. “Get the f**k out of here or you will have it, Zian Woo.” He threatened.

Zian scoffed and opened his arms wide, offering his body. “Try me, Louis Pascual.” He challenged.

The next thing I knew, Louis threw his fist on Zian’s face. Then then quickly answered with a punch back and Louis was down on the floor. I gasped as they continued to throw their fists on each other’s faces.

“Stop it.” I cried but they were still at it.

Louis collared Zian and pushed him onto the wall. “Know your place, Woo. Hana’s not yours.” He gritted his teeth.

Zian smirked at him. “The possibility of her being mine is greater than the possibility that she would be yours, Pascual.” He told me. “She was mine, first. You just f****d our relationship up.”

“She fell for me.” The other retorted. “I did too.” He continued.

I froze when he said those words. Why does he have this great impact on me? I’m going insane with what I am feeling for him.

“You never loved her, Bastard.” Zian talked back. “If you did, you would never treat her wrongly. You won’t hurt her even though she hurt you so much. If you really did love her, you should’ve followed her to Boston and begged her to come back.” He breathed. “Love never boasts. Pride is never associated with love. Love always trusts, always protects, always hopes, always perseveres.” He continued.

“Now tell me, did you persevere?” He asked then he yanked Louis’ hands from him. “Don’t tell me to stay away from her when she wants me to come to her. I’ll always be with her, as long as she wants me to. I won’t push her away.” He spoke. “Because I’m not going to act like you, i***t. I won’t act like I am the only one hurting. I won’t act like the world revolves around me.”

Louis froze in his spot. His hands fell down to his sides. Maybe he realized that Zian has a point. Maybe he realized that somehow, he’s wrong.

“Love is all about give and take.” Zian told him again. “I thought that was a cliché expression. Why don’t you know it?” He asked for the last time then he walked to me and took my hand.

He looked at me. I bit back my tears. His face is bruised. “Are you alright?” He asked me.

Then I broke down again.

How many times do I have to tell myself that Zian is the one for me? How many times does he have to prove that he is the right choice?

I’m really stupid.

And right now, I have to be back to my senses.

I hugged him tightly. I really belong to him. It was given in the first place.