Sariya. The rage within

Chapter 4

Sariyas pov:

Slamming the bedroom door behind me, I rested my back against it. My heart was racing, part of me wanted to run back to him but my mind wasn't about to let that happen. I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing, trying to get my emotions into check and let my mind take over. I couldn't let my rage come out, I couldn't put my people at risk for my own selfish needs. All these years I had dealt with the pain thinking he had married another over me, only to learn that he hadn't and now I was the one about to marry someone else. I wish I didn't have to go through with it even more now but how could I protect my people on my own even Auron and I combined together couldn't protect them.

A loud thump on the door made me jump before it swung open knocking me to the floor.

The dark elder stood looking down at me "Get up girl!" her voiced hissed as she grabbed me by my hair and pulled me to my feet. "How dare you leave the ceremony without my permission. It seems protecting your people no longer means anything to you"

How dare that witch accuse me of not caring for my people, everything I did was for them. I felt my hands turning into fists as I desperately tried to control my rage. I was not in the mood for her s**t right now.

Her black eyes glared into mine as she waited for a response that wasn't coming. "Pathetic" she said finally realizing she would get no answer from me. she released her grip on my hair and turned to wonder towards the open window. "I've ordered the maids to bring the evening dress and start getting you ready for tonight's party." She turned her eyes cold and threatening "I hope you don't forget whats at stake this time princess" and with that she pushed he way past me and out of the door.

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It wasn't long before a group of dark clan maids came strolling in with my dress along with a few other things needed for me to get ready. Niyah was the last of the maids to enter and the second her eyes caught sight of me she ran across the room and threw her arms around me. Niyah had always been there to look after me as a child and after the passing of my mother she had only become more protective over me. 

She pulled me out of her embrace and searched my eyes with hers before pulling me back in"Aw my poor poor child" There was no point in hiding how I felt, she always had the ability to read me like a book.

Pulling away from me once more she turned to face the other maids "I am taking her in to bathe. I shall call you all back when we are ready for you"

The maids tensed at her tone and I saw one or two ready to protest when a sudden look of fear came across their faces as they quickly fought their way out of my room. I knew that Niyah must have giving them one of her famous bear glares and I couldn't help but chuckle. This womens way with authority always seemed to put a smile on my face, she didn't care who it was against she would fight to the death to get her way and anyone who tried to even get in the way would have to face her Rage, the bear. 

The way she would let herself feel without fear of losing control was something I always admired about her, though I never understood how it was so easy for her to let her rage run so freely all the time.

Walking over to the bed she plonked herself down tapping the empty spot beside her motioning to me to sit down

"Are you okay darling?

I shook my head slowly. No I wasn't. I really really wasn't.

I felt the rage radiate off her as she clenched her fists in angry. "I knew I should have never let you agree to this. I should have stopped this engagement when I had a chance!"

"No it's not that" I whispered as I took her hands and wrapped them in mine. "I....I saw Auron today. He was here at the ceremony"

She pulled her hands out of mine and cupped my face "I know darling"

"How!" If she had seen him maybe others had too and that would only bring more trouble to us all.

"He came and saw me after your little encounter" She admitted "You really shouldn't be so hard on him"

"What!" I shot off the bed in angry Niyah he was the one who left me and never came back remember!" Why should I let him back in my life now"

Grabbing my hand she pulled me back down to the bed as she sat searching through the pain in my eyes "I know it hurts Sariya but we are always faced with hard decisions when it comes to protecting those around us. Auron is a smart man and one who still loves you very much. If he could have protected you I am in no doubt he would have but with so many clans out to end us we all knew that our best chance was to accept the dark clans protection and live under their ruling"

I threw myself back onto the bed and covered my face with my hands "I know" I groaned. "I just miss him so much"

The voices of the maids outside reminded me of the party I was doomed to attended in a few hours and as much as I wished I didn't have to go through with this, the dark elders threats had been clear and I couldn't stand aside and watch my people suffer because of me. I knew what had to be done. Pushing my feelings back deep down inside I let my mind take full control. "I should probably take that bath now"