In My Favour

Chapter 1 :The Beginning of hell

~Nola~

I stepped back as i watch my very own group of friends having a picnic without me. We always do things together so why is this happenng withhout me?

" I'm so happy we got to do this together ! i'ts so fun without Nola here"

" Yeah she is such a bore even her own mother can't stand her"'

" I dont want to involve her mother , I just wish she could loosen up"

loosen up? how can I loosen up around a group of fake people?

I watched as their glasses clicked together. The atmosphere was full of genuine happiness. It was clear from then that I was never needed, I was just a charity case. Now even worse when I wanted to let them know I was chased out at home and no one even wanted to take my side for one second, to find that none of them ever will take my side.

I changed my direction walking away from people I once called my bestfriends. One of them bumped into me on the way of their picnic. He could not even look me in the eyes but made more excuses about how " his mother is sick".

"Cut the Act Sam I know about the picnic"

"Oh" Oh? is it all I am worth?

"Enjoy"  

Those were my last words to Sam before carrying on to where my feet can lead me. Sam did not bother to even chase after me and I was not expectng him to. Maybe I was the problem? Maybe I was expecting too much? I may never know but I did feel shitty more about myself. I hated myself because I disappointed myself more than anyone ever did and I was not sure if I wll ever forgive myself.

I walked until I found a nice place to rest with a cardbox that can cover me up. I used that as my bed and blanket. I noticed there were other people too that were homeless like I am, It was more heartbreaking I ended up balling my eyes out on the floor. I don't have anywhere to go and this is my own safe space I can think of.

I questioned the almighty why am I the one to go through this? Why are these other people going through this? Why isn't he helping us? Those questions were never answered.

A lady with a nice black gown passed but suddenly stopped and turned my way. I could not see her face because of my teary eyes but I saw a lot of pain on her expression. She sat by my side and tried to wipe my face but I flnched away. Pretty looking Ladies are usually know for Trafficking children and I was not willing to be manipulated into it.

" Will my dear child be willing if I sit next to her? I promise not to bite. I am a mother at heart"

Her soothing voice rang in my ear as I eyed her suspiciously. Somehow I found myself sitting next to her again. She gave me soemthing I was longng for all my life, A loving mother's warm hugs and that made me burst into tears soobing in her arms.

she hummed this beautiful melody with her voice while I continued to sob in her arms, so beautiful it felt like a lullaby. She ran her hands in my hair it made me melt and relax more. I don't know who this woman is but she knew her way around children and it was very peaceful for me I ended up drifting off to sleep hoping I won't wake up to more damage to my life than it already is.