Rotten flowers

Rotten flowers

"lavender is not alive anymore, she killed herself, I made a huge mistake by not going at her place when she needed me" ivory said to me while looking at her phone. tears started falling down from my eyes, I've already seen people (close to my heart) dying like this.

"but she was only 16" I said to her while sitting on my flowery chair that I decorated with lavender, I still remember how she was smiling while decorating it with me. "are you decorating all of this for him?" She asked me while giving me more flowers to decorate the chair. "yes hun, I want to give him a surprise"

We just finished decorating the chair and suddenly someone started slamming the door, she said to me "ill open the door"and then she opened the door her stepmom was standing on the door, she started yelling at her. she looked at me and said "okay bye fae, I'll come back tomorrow" Oh God, I still can't believe that she's not alive anymore, it really hurts deep inside.

she was only 16 and she went to heaven without even saying goodbye to me.

ivory came up to me and hugged me. "it's alright, yk she was already suffering alot because of her abusive dad and cruel stepmom" she said while wiping my tears with a tissue paper. "I still can't believe that she's not alive anymore" I said to ivory and started crying.

Suddenly someone started knocking on the door, ivory opened the door and saw tyler standing there. "is fae here?" he asked that to ivory while giving her a pack of cigarettes. "yes but she's not feeling okay today" ivory said while looking at him with a sad look on her face.

he pushed her away from the door and came in "what happened fae? are you still mad at me for cheating on you with Melanie? Ah hell nah are you crying? see thats the reason i think that Melanie is better than you" Tyler said to me while smoking a cigg. "get lost" I said to him while looking at the floor with blank expressions on my face.

I gave all of my love to this man and he still have audacity to say all of that s**t to me. lavender was right, he never cared about me. well, she's not alive anymore but I still remember that how much she had hatred and rage for Tyler.

"LEAVE HER ALONE" ivory said while throwing pack on cigarettes on his face, we don't want anything from you. "okay I'm leaving and I will not come back here again" Tyler said and then he went out of my house.

"I will kill myself" I said to ivory while standing on my knees. "you're the strongest girl I've ever seen fae, keep flying" ivory said to me while holding both of my hands.

sometimes we lose the people we love the most and it's true, we just can't run away from it. I lost Emma, I lost emilia and now I lost lavender.

"I don't wanna lose you too, don't even think about killing yourself" ivory said while tears were falling down from her eyes. I saw regret in her eyes for not going at lavender's house that day. we both hugged each other and started crying.

after some hours, we both stood up and started trying to control our emotions. I went to the kitchen to cook something for both of us since both of us were starving. ivory gave me bottle that was full of strawberry shake that I made with lavender "are you going to drink it or not" she said to me while taking a sip from that bottle.

"I'm not going to drink it" I said while boiling some water. "okay then I'm drinking this" she said while pouring some milkshake in a glass.

we both were trying to forget about what just happened today, we don't want to think about lavender's death, we don't want to think about what was the reason that she ended her life. she was only 16, she had lots of things to explore.

I finished cooking spinach pasta. it was delicious but it was the first time that we were eating it without lavender. I started getting heartaches so I just stood up from the table and went to my room..

"why did you stop eating, aren't you hungry? she said to me while eating pasta with a worried look on her face. "I can't eat it without lavender" I said to her while hiding my face under my blanket.

"if you want to her to live peacefully in her grave then you have to stop doing this s**t" she said to me while taking my blanket from me.

"STOP THIS PLEASE" ivory said and she started coughing so bad that I stood up and started shaking her.

she stopped coughing and told me to eat so I went back to the table and started eating with her since I don't wanna lose her too. she's the only one I have now. lavender, Emma and Emilie killed themselves just because they weren't happy with their lives, they didn't even think about us before ending their lives.

Next morning

"wake up fae, don't you wanna go to school today" ivory said to me while shaking me. i tried opening my eyes but I was feeling too tired to open em, I looked and ivory and said "no I don't want to go to the school today". she looked at me with the disappointment on her face

she knew why I'm acting like this but she was still acting tough. "get up, we're going to school today f****** wake up now. I opened my eyes and looked at her, she was looking furious. I went out of my blanket and went to the bathroom to get fresh.

I took a warm bubble bath, after that I brushed my teeth, washed my face, did skincare and applied some makeup on my face. ivory gave me her clothes to wear since mine weren't washed because of what happened yesterday.

we were walking to the school when I saw tyler holding Melanie's hands, she looked at me and said........