Screwed up
1502 Words
It was midnight and I was on the guest room bed. My arms and back was slowly healing and I felt much better. I knew I had to ran away from the beach house before Cris actually started to realize that I am Suzy.
I slowly got off the bed and went to Cris's room. I slolwy opened Cris's room and saw him lying down on is bed, sleeping.
I went near him and sat on the bed. I looked at Cris and started to remember how we became friends. Cris trusted me a lot when I am Suzy. But, he doesn't even know who I am in my disguise self. What will happen when he will find out that I am Suzy? Will he think . . . That . . . I betrayed his trust?
I looked at Cris and sighed. Our fingers slowly tagged as I felt myself feeling guilty realizing that I was basically playing with his feelings. Cris was doing whatever he could to make me love him without even knowing that I am Suzy and all I was doing was to ignore him. Our friendship . . . My friendship with Cris . . . I don't wanted Cris to think that I betrayed his friendship.
For some reason, if felt awful knowing that I might be the person who would broke his trust. Even though I was doing my duty, I was doing a lot more crime by playing with Cris's feeling when I know that Cris really loves me.
I touched my chest where my heart is and felt my heart beats racing like Cris's. I remembered how Cris said the he loves me. I felt my eyes slowly started to become watery as I realized something. How am I suppose to keep myself from not loving him which my heart is basically betraying me by making me fall in love with Cris?
Tears slowly ran down my cheeks as I bit my lower lips and let my tears ran down my eyes. What type of mission is this, SA head? Why did you had to give me such a mission to protect Cris which is why I have no right to love him?
I remembered how Cris was bandaging me and helping me have my medicine. I am sorry, Cris. Even though you care about me . . . I don't know ifI can ever accept your feelings.
I suddenly realize that my tears were falling down from my eyes to Cris's cheeks. I slowly whipped my eyes as I noticed Cris's waking up. No! I didn't wanted Cris knowing that I needed to ran away from the beach house.
I was about to get off from his bed when I felt Cris holding my wrist and yanked me towards him. I fell on top of Cris as Cris held me by my waist and we fell on the bed. I looked at Cris and our eyes met. My eyes were watery.
"You wanted to ran away from the beach house?" Cris asked. "From me?" Cris asked again as I could see so much hurt on his eyes.
"I am sorry, Cris, but . . . This shouldn't happen between us," I said.
"What shouldn't happen between us?" Cris asked.
"We . . . Are not suppose to . . . Love eachother," I said.
Cris looked at me and I could see so much hurt on his eyes. My heart was breaking into pieces seeing him in so much hurt. "And . . . Why can't we love eachother?"
"We just can't, Cris. It's complicated. You need to understand . . ."
"Then, make me understand . . ." Cris said as he pulled me closer.
"I am . . . Not allow to love you . . ." I said as I felt tears rolling down my eyes.
"But you do," Cris said.
I looked at Cris.
"I know you love me."
"I . . ." It seamed so hard to said that, "I don't love you, Cris . . ." I said, not looking at Cris.
"Look at me," Cris said as he held my chin. I looked at Cris. "Tell me you don't love me."
I staired at Cris's eyes. I just couldn't lie looking at his eyes. I didn't know what to say so I started to sob. "Please, Cris . . ." I sobbed. "We can't love eachother. It is a crime."
"I don't care. Loving somebody is not a crime. I love you and even if you are a criminal, I would still love you."
"Stop it, Cris. You have to understand . . . That, I can't love you. We will both be in danger that way," I said, remembering what can happen if we, SA agents falls in love with the person we are in charge of.
SA is very strict with rules. If a SA agents ever falls in love with the person that the SA agent is protecting, both the person are thrown into prison. I didn't wanted to have Cris suffer for me. Max's words rang on my head. Now, I understood why Max said that he denied to love Cris's sister. It is because Max wants to protect her, because he loves her.
I looked at Cris, knowing that I have to do what Max was doing. "Cris, look . . . I don't love you . . ."
Before, I could say anymore, Cris pulled me closer.
Our forhead touched and I started to feel butterflies in my stomach. Our lips were so close and before we went nay farther, I ousted Cris off me and ran out of the house, leafing Cris looking at me with hurt.
I ran out of the room and out of the house and ran far on the beach where Cris shouldn't be chasing behind me. I fell on the ground and began to sob. It hurts so much to reject somebody who you love.
Suddenly, my phone rang. I took the phone and said, "Hello?"
"Suzy, it's me, Max," Max said.
"Hey Max," I said as I whipped my tears and tried to talk normally to my brother.
"Suzy, I messed up a big thing . . ."
"Max, what did you do?"
"Suzy, I need to tell you something. The polices are behind me, trying to arrest me and put me in the prison. . ."
"What? Max, what did you do that the polices are trying to arrest you."
"Suzy, please don't tell this to anybody but . . . That day, when El ran away from home, I was with her."
"What?"
"Yes, and she was sobbing so hard and she wanted us to get married so that we can start our own life. I couldn't see her sobbing like that and I also didn't wanted her to again be with her dad who would again force her to get married. So, we got married thst day but we never told anybody. I later found out that the SA agents will not only hurt me but the SA agents will also put me in prison, including El. I couldn't let that happen so, I started to avoide her and pretended that our marriage never happen. Nobody knew that we got married but we do have marriage certificate. So, yesterday, El fainted in her apartment," Max said.
"She what?"
"El fainted. She fainted and her neighbors took her into he hospital and I obviously rushed to her and the doctor said that she is pregnent," Max said.
I was stunned. "What did you do, Max? You know, if SA headquarter get to know about this then the headquarter might order SA force to arrest you and El and I don't even know what is going to happen to the baby."
The headquarter of SA hold the main power of SA agents. Every provinces has a head SA but he main head quarter of SA has the main SA head who makes all the laws for SA agents.
"I don't know, Suzy. A while ago, the doctor was reading my signature which I did on the medical form of El and you know we incluse our SA rank in our signature. So, the doctor read my signature and he is also knew about El being Mr. West daughter and that she loves a SA agent. The doctor informed the police about it and now all the police forces are behind me. I don't know what to do. I am in a huddle place, Suzy but, I want El to be safe. I want our baby to be safe. I don't even know what is happening to El and the baby," Max said.
"Goodness Max. Are you okay and does the police know about El being your wife?" I asked Max.
"I am okay and the polices forces are behind El too. Suzy, please do something. Please, help my baby and El."
- Writer
