More than a memory

Chapter 12

Alliance

Roxanne

How Jerry acted scared me a lot but he finally opened my eyes. Damon took too much away from me and I wanted my life back. I wanted him to suffer and to know that I was the one who took everything from him. Luckily, I had Jerry in my corner. He was right. He did so many things for me already that I wanted to give him back the favors. He went to prepare some breakfast and I was just watching him. Jerry is actually my type. Tall, handsome, mysterious but kind and very funny. He made us waffles and added some fresh fruits. There was a knot in my stomach. Whenever I suggested to eat something similar in the past months, I got scolded and sometimes even hit by Damon. Jerry noticed that I wasn't eating and he gave me a bite with his own fork. I took it and the sweetness of the fruits and waffle filled not only my mouth but my heart as well. Food tastes a lot better when it is made with care and love. I noticed that Jerry cut a strawberry into the shape of a rose.

- What's this? - he smiled.

- Consider it as an apology for scaring you. - I felt my cheeks heating up and I knew I was blushing like an i***t. This was so sweet.

- May I ask you what were you dreaming about last night? - he asked carefully and I almost already forgot about it.

- Oh... Well. I have these weird dreams from time to time.

- Like? - Jerry leaned closer, I took another bite and thought about how to explain it to him without sounding like an i***t. But... Something deep inside me told me, that I can say or do whatever I want, Jerry will never think badly of me.

- In my dream... I was running in the woods, the next moment I found myself closed somewhere and tried to crawl out. My fingers were bloody and wounded. In these dreams whenever my breath is about run out, suddenly light comes in and a silver eyed man saves me. I usually hear a heartbreaking howl while I feel like I was falling but before I reach the ground I always wake up. - Jerry's brows frowned and I giggled.

- I probably watched too many supernatural movies lately. - Jerry kept his serious expression on for a couple of minutes more.

- Is there anything else you dream about? I mean... Something like this? - I thought his question over.

- Sometimes.

- Is that silver-eyed man in your dreams always? - I nodded and smiled.

- Maybe he is some kind of guardian angel, my friend usually tells me that he might be my soul mate. What do you think?- Jerry shrugged and took our plates away.

- I don't think dreams always have a meaning. - he said but he sounded unconvincing. I've decided to get to know him better while this storm lasts.

- Do you want to play a game? - I asked while we moved back to the couch.

- Sure. What game?

- Let's ask random questions from each other. If we can ask something the other doesn't want to answer, then there will be a punishment. But there is a limit, you can only escape answering 5 times.

- Fine, sounds like a good game. Be careful because I can be mean! - Jerry said smiling at me with a playful grin. I leaned closer and said.

- I'm a tricky one!

- Ladies first. - Jerry said and I immediately asked.

- Did you ever had a serious relationship? - Jerry laughed.

- Right into the personal space. Fine! I had only one of those. She is the love of my life, the most beautiful and intelligent woman. - I felt a little bad because he didn't talk about her in past tense. Jerry said "She is" so that meant he was still in love with that woman. Why am I feeling disappointed?

- Okay, my turn. If you could do whatever you want, without consequences for a day, what would you do? - should I tell him?

- Honestly, I'd spend thay day with you. My turn! - Jerry's eyebrows raised but I didn't say anything else. I wanted him to use his questions.

- If you could wish for anything knowing that it'd be granted. What would you wish for? - on his face a bittersweet smile spread. He took a deep breath.

- I'd wish for you to forget me. - now it was my time to raise an eyebrow.

- Why do you want to spend that day with me? - Jerry asked.

- Because... I feel free by your side. I don't know why, but I haven't feel like this for a long time and I can only be myself when I'm with you. Why do you want me to forget you? - Jerry didn't answer.

- I take a punishment. - he said and I was thinking about something particularly embarrassing to squeeze the answer out of him.

- Are you so weak? - I asked teasingly.

- You're just annoyed that you don't have a good punishment. - he said mockingly.

- Huge mistake to underestimate me!

- Prove it! - we acted like kids in the kindergarten playground.

- Look into my eyes, for at least 30 seconds. - I said and noticed that a shiver ran through Jerry. He clenched his hands into fists and sighed.

- I can't.

- Why not?

- Ask for something else please.

- That is your punishment...- his face distorted into a painful expression.

- Please, I'll answer your question instead.

- No turning back.

-You won then. - Jerry got up and tried to leave me alone. I jumped up and grabbed his arm.

- Why are you acting so cold now? I didn't ask you to do anything weird! - he didn't answer and just tried to get out of my hold gently not to hurt me. Something was wrong. He isn't autistic or something similar since he slept with me and hugged me without a problem.

- Jerry! Stop! - I tried to pull him back and he suddenly turned around. Jerry got me trapped between his body and the bookshelf in his living room.

- I'm sorry Roxanne... - he whispered and held my waist pulling me closer to him.

- It is just a game. I'm sorry for being so persistent.

- I'm not apologizing for that...-he whispered and got really close to my face.

- Then why?

- Because I can't do this anymore.

- Do what? - Jerry suddenly pressed his lips against mine and my whole body numbed. His kiss was sweet, passionate and demanding. He held me close with his strong arms like I'd fall apart without him. My whole body was on fire. I've never experienced such desire and I wanted more. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back. Jerry moaned and grabbed me into his arms. He tried to carry me to the couch but something fell off of the bookshelf and he stopped our kiss. When he saw what was it he let me go and quickly put it back. I was dizzy and I missed his strong arms already.

- Sorry. - he said and left me alone with my thoughts this time. He walked to his room and closed the door. I touched my lips and still felt the sparks between us. I looked at the bookshelf and grabbed the photo album that fell off and interrupted our makeout. I hesitated, with curiosity eating me up, I put the album back and walked to Jerry's room. I knocked on the door and walked in. Jerry was sitting on his bed with a picture in his hand. I sat next to him and he threw the picture to the floor.

- What happened?

- I lost my mind for a moment. I'm sorry for what I did. - I grabbed his face but he kept looking down.

- Don't you dare to apologize! - I did something I never thought I'll ever do. I kissed Jerry without any second thoughts. He kissed me back but stopped.

- I can't do this with you Roxanne.

- What are you talking about?!

- You are happy, you have the life you always dreamed of. I can't waltz into it and take everything away! - he almost cried while he said these words.

- I can only repeat myself, what are you talking about? Why would you ruin my life? Why do you want me to forget you?! You are literally the only good thing that happened to me this year! - Jerry got his head up. I stood up and poured my heart out to him.

- I feel miserable! My relationship started for the sake of my career and it totally changed me! What I thought I wanted is literally a nightmare! My dream, and passion turned into a job! I don't find happiness in dancing anymore! The only times I feel right is when I bump into you and I don't know why is this happening to me but I need you! - Jerry stood up and hugged me. I didn't notice that I was shaking. My body relaxed in his arms.

- You don't know me Roxanne. I'm happy to provide you comfort and help you to get rid of Damon... But, I'm not the solution. - I laughed and kissed Jerry.

- You are my knight in the shining armor. I have no idea why you are acting like this, but I want to be with you. I only realized how much I missed you, when I was in your door yesterday night. I was searching for you all the time. Trying to spot you from behind a bush, I went to the store everyday just to see you... I'm acting like a maniac but you are all I can think of. So please give me a chance. - Jerry let me out of his hold and caressed my face.

- I've played all my chances with you already Roxanne. - he kissed my forehead and walked out of the room again. I sat back on his bed with more questions than ever. A ray of sun shined through the window and that meant the storm was over... Just like my hopes. I got up and was about to leave when I noticed the picture on the floor. I grabbed it and I wasn't prepared for what I saw. Jerry came back and froze in the door when he saw me holding the picture.

- I think you need to explain this... - I said and a woman walked in behind him.

- Now, I get it. - she said and the gorgeous, red-head walked to me. She gave me a little sad but friendly smile and said.

- Believe me, this is for your own good. - she touched my forehead and everything went black. When I woke up I was laying on Jerry's couch.

- Hey! You slept through the half of the movie! - he said and I wondered if everything what happened was only a dream.