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EPISODE NINE: PINKY PROMISE

Heather and I walked to the parking lot where our car was parked. We get inside the car and then we both blurted out a laugh. We keep on laughing until our tummy gets ache. It was an epic and an honest rank for everyone who keeps on hitting o Heather but she was not in the mood to talk to anyone. It happened a lot of times. Especially when someone tried to talk to her when we are eating. She hates it, for her eating was one of the holy things you shouldn't disrespect just to flirt.

"What the hell was that!?" I asked adn laughed. I can't make it stop to was s funny especially the reaction of the guy. It was all worth it.

"That was so epic!" Heather replied ad laughed. We looked at the arcade store adn we saw the guy looking really upset I what happened. We saw him kick the can at the roadside and get inside her car. He looked really upset and I am glad that his fist didn't land on my face.

"Wow, he was really mad." I nervously uttered and gulped. Heather stop laughing looking at me with a poker face.

"You look pale. For goodness sake! Are you scared!?" She asked and laughed again. I looked at her and smirked Yes, I am scared. e was about to punch me in the face earlier. I am glad that Heather knows that it will happen. I bet that I was in the hospital right now if that happened.

"F&ck it! That man was a hulk! Who am I to not be scared of him?" I asked adn drink water Heather laughed harder and just looking at her laughing makes e feel happy too. I started laughing again until we lose our breath.

"Anyway, I pretty much enjoy this day. Shall we have a break?" Heather asked. I smiled at her and nodded. We will go to our place on the beach. It was one of my favorite spots me and Heather went to. When we need some break. We have often gone there since the hell week started. We are drowning with schoolwork and exams. Sometimes Heather and I are doing the activities at the seaside. It was calming and really helps me to think. 

Heather adn I gt to the seaside and everyone was quiet. There was nothing in here. Just this and that, no other people right now since it was still weekdays. It was pretty crowded when weekends and that was the day when I and Heather stay in the comfort of our own home. Play video games or just sleep and face time each other. Her mom and was getting used to my existence and the same as me. I was getting used to Heather's existence. My mom brought her hygiene kits adn her own pillow and blanket. That is how we treat each other. It feels like we are siblings now.

"So, what are your plans? I mean we are getting to college any soon. I bet what you said was not true. Do you really want to be part of the army" Heather asked and lay down in the sand, I looked at her as she was laying on the sand... She looks calm and at ease. I never saw her like that since hell week started. She was always tense and struggling with her schedule yet she was always with me. 

"I knew that you just said it so you can answer my parent's question. They keep on talking about it and you keep on saying about that. Just follow what you love, don't be pressured in what they should expect on you." Heather added. She was right. I should know what I love but I really don't know what my plan was. I never think of it. It feels like I was rushing when I am thinking about it. I am not like her, she has everything in her mind while I am just here. I have everything mixed up.

"Why do we have to talk about it this early? I mean... can we just enjoy life? It was not a race, right? Why does it seems like we are obligated to answer the question they throw with us? And when we failed to answer it they will be disappointed. I mean this is my life and this is my future right. I should be the one who takes charge of it. Why do grown-up stress themselves about somebody else life?" I asked and chuckled. Heather sat up and looked at me directly in the eyes. 

"Having plans in life is like preparing yourself for a war. You know that life is a battle file and all you can do is to prepare a plan a to z if possible. life will continue to disappoint you and you have to be prepared for that. Not everything goes to plan. That is why we should think and talk about this early." Heather uttered and take a deep breath. The wind blew and the wave began to splash harder than it was. It seem like Heather was connected to it. I am patiently waiting for her answer while she was too busy catching and taking deep breaths.

"Well, I am not like you. I am not afraid of disappointments. I know that life was hard but I am just riding on it. I am like the debris underneath the sea. I was just going with the waves because I know that one day I will be able to reach the shore." I uttered. I saw Heather smile and look at the sky. She raised her hand and acted like she want to hold the clouds.

"Well, you were right. Maybe I am the one who is afraid of disappointment. I am afraid that people will wake up that I am not an intelligent person they know I am afraid that I am not the bright and gifted student they all praised. I am afraid that one day my parents will tell me that I am not the id they raised. I am afraid that one day I will not be valid anymore. I will be just someone who just did nothing but failure." Heather uttered. I felt the heaviness in every word she uttered. Everything was true and every beat was real. Heather is full of standards... no, Heather is the standard. Everyone knows her. Everyone was talking about her and when you asked about her, they will tell you something about her. I was not shocked to know that she was afraid of disappointment because I can see it in her. She was a perfectionist. She always makes things perfect adn she will not settle for good. She will always look for the best and if she didn't find anything... she will make it herself. That is how Heather looked at everything. that is how she lives. What could I say? She was Heather.

"You are always aiming for something high and I am just laying this low. Do you know that? I am right here and you are above the clouds yet we still meet. Can you see that? Things are already planned. All you have to do is to be alive and enjoy life. Even if it makes you wish that you were dead." I uttered and chuckled. Heather giggled and exhale heavily. She looked at me with her smiling face and patted my head.

"Let's make a promise. We will get through everything together," I added adn smiled. I saw Heather smile genuinely and nod at me.

"Pinky promise?" She asked.

"Pinky promise," I replied and locked the promises with her.

"Pea brain, Pea brain, Pea brain. I never knew that I can talk to you like this. I thought I can just use light words with you," Heather teased and winked at me. I smiled at her and watched her walk at the seashore. She was always collecting seashells. I didn't know why. She always said that she will always look for the prettiest shell and take it home. I never saw her collection actually. I was forbidden to go inside her room yet she can always go to my room anytime she wants. There was a time where her mom and da went out of town adn my room was taken over by Heather. I need to move out and sleep on the couch for a week.

"Okay. I have what I need. let's go home." Heather said. We both went home and I feel tired and sleepy. I feel like I lose 1000 pounds. I dance to DDR and I have to push the car since Heather forgot to put and check the fuel of her damn car! I feel violated My arms hurt so much. 

Time passed and it was three in the afternoon. I didn't even know that sleep. I guess my body just shut down. I was really tired and I still feel tired.

*Creak*

I heard some creaking outside my window and I immediately smiled. I know that it was Heather. It was funny that she keeps on using my window instead of using my door. She can always be here any moment so wh she keeps on using the window though. She was really weird.

"I know that you are there Heather, what do you want? At this time?" I asked and slowly looked at my window. I don't want to scare her or make her fall to the ground. That was painful. I've been there. I look around but I saw no one, it was just the swinging branch of the tree outside my window. What am I thinking?

"Great," I murmured to myself and close my window. The wind was getting stronger but I have to keep my window open since Heather might come in any moment but because of what happened? I changed my mind. I guess I was just too used that she will enter my room using the window. That was weird. yes, it was. What am I even thinking about Heather? i***t?

"What are you doing?"

"Oh, shxt! Heather, you startled me!" I uttered and take a deep breath. I  hold my chest and feel my breathing. Oh, God. My heart was freaking out. I will die early because of her.

"What is it?" Heather asked and sat on my couch. She open a chip and turned on the television. She walked towards me and grabbed a pillow and a blanket.

"I like these chips. Do you want?" Heather asked and played some music. It was my room and my house. How can I be kicked out by someone like Heather? I was invaded by her in my own territory yet I can't do anything.

*knock*

"Hi, kids. I will prepare some snacks, what do you want?" My mom popped out and looked at Heather. I am the son here? I have the DNA? Why she always does that when Heather was here?

"Mom, I am your son," I protested. Heather and mom looked at me and they both giggled. Great, now I feel like I am the adopted child here.

"I know, I know. Som Heather, what do you want? Do you want some pasta? I learned a new recipe about it, do you want to try it?" Mom looked back at Heather and asked her again. I thought she know that I am her own blood. But she keeps on disregarding me when I am totally here. 

"Mom! I don't want pasta!" I protested but mom rolled her eyes on me and smirked.

"Since when did you hate food? You ate any food remember?" Mom asked adn heather laughed/ They will always do this. They keep on disregarding what I am feeling. I hate it. It seems like mom find an alley that can tease me too.

"Okay, I gave up. I am an orphan now. I want y daddy, where is my daddy," I said and walked out of my room. They will only tease me more if I stay any longer, My dad was not here. I know that he was out to work but I will lose my mind if I stay with these two girls.