The Shattered Court

Pelle~Abilities and Inner Battles

I snap out of it when a Thorn Pricks my finger. Why can't I just be Pelle? I don't ever want to remember that day, all the lives that were lost, how powerless I was, how powerless I still am...

You know you're not powerless you never were even before you had me your aura would make could make vampires fall to their knees what happened was not your fault and I will stand beside you no matter what you choose... whether it be the simple life or your initial Destiny. I still prefer to help our people. And deep down so do you!!

Glacier... I don't feel like going through this conversation again. I couldn't save anyone I loved back then, and you heard Simon!! He hates the princess, he'll hate me if he ever found out our secret. He'd probably turn us over to Isaac anyway.

I don't know if he would or if we can trust anyone in this pack with our secret but I know that we've been through a lot and that you've been through a lot but please promise me that you'll find at least find your mate and unlock our true power!! If you still want to hide and forget at least make sure we can happy loved and happy.

I want my mate just as much as you do Glacier but there's no way that I could face or challenge my brother!! Not after everything... I still wake in the middle of the night from what he did to Mom and Dad... No, a simple life with my mate sounds like a perfect life to me.

Even if he's given vampires full range of our kingdom?? C'mon Cadence!! Right now our people are still dying by the hands of those horrid brutes!! We should NOT just stand by and do nothing!

It's not our problem anymore Glacy!! Cadence is dead, and she's never coming back!!! I'm never going be strong enough to be true to that name and all it means... All that I am suppose to symbolize!!

She's not and you know it!! That brave, powerful, and inspiring princess is still inside of you.... That's the only reason it bothers you so much! Deep down you will always carry the guilt for everyday you stand by and do nothing!! I hope you change your mind, we are destined for greatness you know...

And with that she puts up a block.... Our conversations never last that long do the risk of my aura breaking loose along with losing control of my healing magic. Not that it would hurt anyone, but I can't expose who I really am!! I don't want to be her anyway...

I finish up pruning the dead stems and plants, the ones my magic won't be able to save. I finish and throw what I cut into compost and head to the packhouse for lunch.

As soon as I walk into the mess hall I see Kayla laughing and flirting with Simon. It still amazes me how Simon has no idea that Kayla loves him. I laugh to myself as she openly gives him the Goo-Goo eyes.

I grab my food and go into my bedroom, Simon and Kayla have been best friends since they were in diapers. Despite Kayla being an Omega and him the future gamma when Ethan and Shane return from Alpha school, they've always made time to hang out. I have never met Ethan or Shane they went of to Alpha school at 12 years old and that was a year before I became apart of the pack. I hope Ethan leads with the same strength and kindness his parents do.

Besides Kayla's friendship with Simon she was the first werewolf to be my friend. Although the only time we ever talk is when we both work the packhouse laundry in the morning I am always happy to simply listen and hear about her life rather than ever sharing about mine.

Ah yes, she's always going on and on about her about how her and Simon are going to be mates and how dreamy is well... his everything is. Maybe they are and if they are they deserve this time together, the days before a wolf's 18th birthday can be important. Even if they don't know it yet, spending time with their future mate will help them be healthier and realize that it's her even quicker.

Although, I don't think I'll be searching for my mate due to the fact that I don't want to draw attention to myself but I hope that he does come along through the Alpha ceremony or any other inter-pack events in the future. I hope that he loves and supports me in ways I haven't felt for years... I still don't know if I tell him that I'm the lost princess but maybe in time.

As soon as I finish eating I bring my plates back to the mess hall and be sure that neither Simon or Kayla see me. I don't want to face Simon after our fight and I'd rather not talk about it. The more questions he asks the more likely I won't be safe here anymore.

I make my way to the gardens and I can feel the heaviness in my bones and uneasiness in of my power. It has been several days since I released some of it to calm it's constant inner demand to help, to heal...

I make it to a sick rose bush in the center of the garden. I take in a deep breath as I see that it's beginning to die off. My power crashes along my insides eager to cleanse to heal... I really need a release, if I don't give it to something to save soon I'll have an explosion on my hands... I lay down on the grass and begin to crawl under the bush so that no one can see what I am about to do.

At the base of the Bush as I continue crawl on my hands and knees, little by little I slowly let out all my pent-up magic into the earth to heal and replenish any and all sick or dying plants. As my magic spreads throughout the garden healing all broken branches all broken Thorns all the sick and dying flowers I feel my magic's pent up energy begin to slowly calm down and the inner well empty a bit. I finish and pull all excess magic back into myselfbas I crawl out from under the bush and look around.

The garden looks magnificent! I can't believe it my magic I did this... Every time it always takes my breath away how amazing my healing power is and how I wish it were enough to stop evil... Oh how much I wish it wouldnt just the help but hurt those that hurt my loved ones that that are gone... I shake my head. I'm powerless even with this ability.